Story Of A Phoenix...

2012-01-17T00:01:00.000+08:00

I like you so much,

But i know you cant be mine that much,

that is why,

I'm just gonna say goodbye.

2012-01-13T02:01:00.001+08:00

没有了空间，就没有了思念。
没有了思念，就不会有等待。
没有了等待，就失去了兴趣。

2011-12-21T01:57:00.002+08:00

Went to watch a movie, New Year's Eve it was and i must say it was the most AWESOME! EXTRAORDINATY! TOUCHING! A MUST SEE!

It had the funniest ( RUSSELL PETERS), hottest male and female susperstars, best script ever. The story was sooooo good i smiled all the way.

After the show i went out i saw the poster and i wanted to look at the actors again, guess wad, was so pissed that they didn't put russell peters in the list. May be they put another name but who care, there was no russell peters. If they put his name in it i assure you the sales will fly up through the roof.

Anyways, main point. After the really nice and touching movie, i unlock my phone (which is the one thing i'll do after everything i do) i see a great smile that really really emphasize and magnified everything that i've heard and seen from the movie. The feeling was sooo sooo good. UNIMAGINABLE!!

Your smile, Is everything now.

Goodnight

2011-12-17T04:31:00.002+08:00

Sometimes just knowing and understanding about what you love to do just makes me have doubts.. I like you but i don't deserve to like you if i can't even like what you like.. it's not that i hate it.. it's just that i'm not that interested in it.. can you accept that? Many love stories stops halfway because they found out how much they know about each other and realizing or predicting things may be work out..

2011-12-11T04:21:00.003+08:00

你是我生命的动力，

你的名字已牢牢地刻在心里，

不顾一切是爱情的魔力，

你知不知道我对你的真心。

每次你走过我都傻傻看着你，

记忆里的你总是温柔贴心，

想起你的笑与你的美，

不论寂寞快乐都是最美的回忆。

2011-12-11T04:16:00.002+08:00

Just looking at you makes me wonder, of nothing. I just want to look at you and blend into the most attractive smile i've ever seen.

热汤

2011-12-07T20:15:00.003+08:00

这段爱情，

被撒满了热汤，

难忘的情，

刺痛在我心肠。

过去的风风雨雨，

感觉都是白费力气，

我爱你的心，

已经远远离去。

这段爱情，

过得像梦一场，

梦里的情，

该醒来做个了断。

过去的甜言蜜语，

都变成了花言巧语，

属于你的心，

我抛下了，天涯海去。

在那夜的雨里你转身离去，

以经告诉我你决定要放弃，

我伸出我双手，

想再一次挽留，

但时间却不让你回流。

在那夜里你一步一步离去，

我以深受体会到你的坚信，

说这是为我好，

说这是为你好，

因为时间错过就不能回头，

倒掉的热汤，不能回流。

2011-12-05T14:52:00.001+08:00

I get the best feeling in the world then you say hi or smile to me because i know that, even its just for a second, that i've crossed your mind.. :)

2011-12-05T14:23:00.006+08:00

我的痛，只有我自己懂。

总是喜欢在如此孤独的夜里ˋ翻起过去ˋ

那些被自己深埋心底的往事ˋ

得到的ˋ拥有的ˋ失去的ˋ

有种恍然如梦的感觉ˋ

一直都很明白ˋ自己是不该沉迷于过去的〃

其实ˋ我是害怕深夜的ˋ会有一种无尽的寂寞袭向我〃

我却又喜欢深夜ˋ因为只有周围漆黑一片ˋ我和我的泪才是安全的〃♥

2011-12-01T00:17:00.000+08:00

I'm losing it.. Feel like gonna lose the touch.. GOodnight cruel World~

2011-11-23T13:05:00.002+08:00

生命里也许我遇见了许多她，

不知道哪一个才真正属于我，

但是过去我一一都非常珍惜，

酸甜苦辣忧愁欢笑我都记得。

RIP

2011-11-20T23:54:00.002+08:00

Life is so tough to live through,

Life is easy to let go,

Life decisions are made only by you,

Life spins around as you grow.

Letting go of life, no more chances,

Letting go of life, uncountable unpleasant,

Letting go of life, forever be gone,

Letting go of life, is wrong.

Live as it is your last,

Living for thee may just forever be that tough,

Live it, may be it will come to an end,

Live strong, just got to hold on in vein.

Lives created,

Lives born,

Lives shattered,

Lives lightened.

Looking for an answer to all questions,

Looking for someone to lend a shoulder,

Looking for a cure to this rupture,

Looking for a reason to get over.

A life was given up and it is sad to hear, RIP little girl.

Letting go

2011-11-19T01:58:00.000+08:00

Letting you,

Cause i know,

You were only half way there,

Even though, we were close,

I was holding on just enough to know,

I should be letting go,

I should let you go.

2011-11-14T15:04:00.002+08:00

为什么这样子！？？！？！？？！！？！？！？！？！？！？！？！？

haisssssss... 继续努力吧~

应该给你多点爱，我爱你！！

Pls pls pls.. 我会加把劲的！！！

2011-11-13T03:30:00.003+08:00

Fear was not the word,

Anxious is kind of me but no,

Familiar similar kind of weird,

I hid and reluctant to show.

I know this feeling,

I've seen too much,

I lie and stared at my ceiling,

Into thin air i stubbornly punched.

Outside everything is new,

In front of the mirror i was still a still,

Almost the same guy i knew,

I hope this isn't real.

A simple Hi, maybe?

To be or not to be?

That is the question?

Where was my passion?

Observing near and far,

The model i'm trying to paint,

Trying without making scars,

When will me meet again?

Nilai, BORING

2011-11-11T23:07:00.002+08:00

Hiiiiiii Blog, long time no see! I'm finally out where i always wished i could, which is AWAY from home. It sounds bad but it really isn't. I just like to be away and try to take care of myself, do my own things at my own will. It's not like i don't like home, it's just that i love it so much being outside. OKAY! stop talking bout the past.

NILAI UNIVERSITY COLLEGE IS SUUUUPPPPEEERRRRR BOOOOORIIIIIING! LOOOOOL! thought i'll say kewl right? NOT! HAHAHAHAA!! Oh well, it has it's kewl places which it has a piano in the activity room which i can frequently play and relax myself before every exam. They have a drum team her which is oso kewl. But, i was being unKEWL trying to avoid and not joining coz i swear i will not touch lion dancing again.. TROLOLOLOL..

Every day before night (AFTER CLASS) i'll have some fun at the ball court, well not everyday, but sometimes. Did i mention i joined the school team? It was fun competiting with people that you completely don't know and people that you completely don't know staring at you. ESPECIALLY when you wear a PINK KOBE!! HAHAHAH! well it was fun.

After basketball or wadever i'm doing besides that, i'll have my dinner. Then,i head over to the activity room or common room. AAANNNDD i study == zzz ... JAM right? oh well, i have no choice.. plus i like aeroplane stuff now. It's kewl that i finally know how a plane can climb up to the sky ^^.

Nways! thats all of it.. SO SHORT RIGHT?! thats why i called it boring.. LOL... HAVE A NICE DAY YA'LL

GOOOOOOOODNIGHT~

Outside of my New Window

2011-11-11T22:28:00.004+08:00

New faces,

New friends,

New room,

New uniforms,

New shoes,

New look,

New fresh greens,

New fresh air,

A whole new world,

A whole new road,

A whole new chosen goal.

First day, new view out my window,

Sunrise stood high waking me from my pillow,

Its blushed round figure enlightens the day,

Guiding me down a new hallway.

Surrounded by strangers that one day i may know,

Surrounded by new buildings where i learn new things,

A 360 turn around i saw a glow ,

Appeared a sign to glory that i'll follow.

Changes in everything i've ever done,

Changes in everything of how i sound,

Scattered pieces becoming a one,

Maybe this is where things come around.

End of the day again i looked out my window,

Traced back what i've done that day,

Recall every new pieces on that day,

Rewriting the memories that was gray.

Tonight, tomorrow and the day after,

I can live this every new day,

I will build my own bay

This is what i've always craved.

Lying back onto my pillow,

Listening to the owls on the willow,

Waiting for every new tomorrow,

Ready for whats Outside of my new window.

2011-09-04T23:33:00.002+08:00

Stepping forward in this endless beat,

No more i'm taking detours,

I can't tell you how sure,

How sure how much can i do for you the least.

2011-08-04T00:17:00.002+08:00

朋友也做不成吗？

对，我看不开！

我还是想着你！

我想知道你的情况！

我想关心你！

不行吗？！

以朋友的身份不行吗？！

你一直说顺起自然，

自然到可以不告而别吗?

我后悔走出那扇门，

我后悔不接你的电话，

我固执，我好强，

我知错！

但是，

我没有爱错。

世界上根本就没有爱错这回事。

一年过了，

我还是对你放不下，

那一夜过后，我们再也没有联络。

我真的真的后悔，对不起！

难道非要搞到有你没有我的场面吗？

我知道你是不会回头的，

我只希望我们还是可以做朋友。

偶尔知道各自在干嘛。

下次见面我真的不知道该怎么办。

2011-06-19T02:54:00.002+08:00

Sometimes there are scars that cannot be seen..

Scars that comes unexpectedly..

Blame it on my self greed..

Too much, may be just too much that i have leaned..

Less but bloody dreadful texts..

Whirls your mind to a mess..

Slammed in front with a mace..

It went to far, it is not my chase..

A whole i know that i never can get near..

Reality it is that i must be feared..

Indulged to what it is now and then..

Depends on self to live or die in the Demon's Den..

”突爆“

2011-06-05T11:36:00.002+08:00

本来心情很好的，开一下电脑，翻翻学校的网站准备明天的考试。有一点迟才告诉你星期二去sibu，反正考试都完了所以觉得应该没什么问题。哪里知道！hais，我真得不知道你要我怎样。过后我都解释了几遍，重复了几遍说已经考完了，考完了才去！考完了当然是放假嘛。他说”你不要玩酱多这样的东西可以吗？” =.= 我问你们，代表美里篮球队做裁判，是玩吗？我在美里比赛慢慢开始吹大人的球赛了，我也是篮总的一份子，我也想学更多，取经验，这叫玩吗？好菜你没有说我最讨厌听的话“做些有意义的东西，在家里帮忙剪草，四周围走走一下看有什么好帮忙的。”你要我每天都这样啊？kakak假的吗？真的需要帮忙我当然会帮啦！因为这样，我美好的的礼拜天提早结束了。

读书是从小就开始培养的习惯，你不会等我死了才叫我专心读书？我没有抽烟吸毒你好偷笑了好不好。你要我五年里面只读书而已？篮球你讲我玩，吹球你讲我玩，舞狮你讲我玩，酱你叫我五年只读书是自杀！篮球是运动，吹求是我的part time job，舞狮是乐趣，读书是一定要的。我有这样的概念我都觉得够好了。书我又不是不会读，有时候努力了你又看不到，考不好你说我没有专心。我熬夜念，你说我玩的太迟。我老实说读书不是我的专长，我只能在中等的等级而已。我自己明白自己懂，我有自知之明。为什么你就是不能支持你的儿子？为什么你一定要我学别人？为什么你一定要我这样那样？有时候放开是好的，如果你觉得篮球和舞狮都是在玩，那起初为什么不直接送我到国外？你根本就不相信我！你什么都要听别人，就是自己儿子不信。什么三年本地两年外国，什么废话！你要怎样的教养怎样的结果，就得给我怎样的开始。对！有时我自己不会想，但是我没有忘记读书。我爱打篮球，我对吹球有兴趣，舞狮改变了我，但是我没有忘记一定要读书。十六十七年没有的习惯，我会这样想我都觉得好才了。

我要去做最后的准备了，这次在考不过我真的没话说了。没人看到我的努力，我自己懂就好。反正一向来我都是一个人的，没有人会了解我。我单身，是好菜的，不然那个女的会“去笑”。

PasserBy

2011-05-17T02:26:00.003+08:00

There's a time,

Where i'm given inspiration,

To write rhymes,

Words that carries addiction.

Friction between one and another's freedom,

The space that wanted and must be given,

Lies and faults should be forget and forgiven,

Time will force them to oblivion.

Walk into the past through my blurry dreams,

Heartache to lose my most beloved scenes,

Just a little bit a little bit more i remind myself always,

But in the end both ended up repulsing opposite ways.

One to the West,

One remains East.

Remains nothing left for me to say,

I thought life without you would be an ease.

Still there's something inside sometimes cracking,

Lost my touch lost the warmth i'm shaking,

Feels like a minute and it's almost dawn,

Empty dream i've had for long.

Starring at that pitiful reflection,

Gone old and slow with nothing more to show,

Looking back at my own creations,

Crying over the bad decisions.

Always too late or too early to decide,

Made one and self so difficult to abide,

The mistakes that i myself brought alive,

The mistakes that ruined my own life.

Am i a weakling?

Where am i going?

What am i seeking?

Will i ever, ever start again?

From the beginning...

A Sis or it just meant to be missed?

2011-05-16T02:42:00.002+08:00

I care and i really do,

But i don't know about you,

Its not funny at all,

When you laugh about to you that i call.

How we relate now is,

Truly undeniable,

Deniable to you it is,

To me its cherish-able.

Not asking you to see,

How much i have done to be,

A dependable guy to you,

An unrelated related person which is so true.

2011-05-12T23:53:00.000+08:00

i love you but i cant show how much i do..

so much to show but so much to throw..

if people know..

if you know..

We gotta do what we gotta do..

We don't want our days are like doomed..

Go on and on and on..

One day that loved one will give you a phone..

People will one day see..

Realize how good that you can be..

Your free..

To do anything that makes you become an antique..

How special some ONE can be..

How electrifying she is to me..

I wish i could do something..

That she would just look at me..

2011-05-09T23:16:00.002+08:00

Ppl only give up when you when you yourself gives up.. Just like this blog.. use to be hundreds views per day.. but now.. 1 myself and few of my frens.. well.. there's always second chances.. :)

Life

2011-05-06T01:37:00.002+08:00

Running in a never ending path,

Said never ending yet its so confusing,

It turns upside down , in and out,

It takes time to figure it out.

Cries and light,

Shivers and blows with might,

Sometimes it makes you feel will so tight,

At time we feel that we wanna go out of sight.

It is a powerful thing,

It comes at you at unexpected times,

It may be smooth throughout all times,

It may be rough sometimes.

We cannot deny,

We must decide,

Because It is what It is,

It's Life.

2011-05-05T03:33:00.003+08:00

The edge of the window,

Lies the almighty widow,

Never it'll let its dignity go below,

Never it'll let its web blow our of the window.

Giant army of ants crawling round its hill,

Up and down and in and out,

Where else to find another creature with such will,

They sure are good models, no doubt.

BumbleBee oh Bumble Bee,

Buzzing busying with their honey,

For their Queen their sacred Goddess,

Such loyalty is worth for us to harvest.

Neither match to a widow ant nor BumbleBee,

Thats absurd i have to say to thee,

We humans are the smartest creature in time,

So hope thee learn and utilize from this little rhyme.

2011-04-23T23:41:00.002+08:00

A day for a day,

Presents depends on past tense,

A move creates a chance,

Each different move makes a change.

Thoughts become words,

Words become actions,

Action become habits,

Habits become character,

Your character becomes your destiny.

Good Friday

2011-04-23T01:16:00.003+08:00

A day to be remembered,

A day to be treasured,

For the one sacrificed for us,

For the one gave us forever love.

Dragged through the crowd that carried tears,

Yet still thee carried pride beneath,

Hearts and hopes people thought gone,

But soon he knows they'll be wrong.

Upright nailed on the sacred cross,

Under and through day and night,

A ring-shaped crown worn like a King,

Held on and on either or Sunlight and Moonlight.

Thank Jesus Christ,

Thank Thee the Lord,

Thank he whom sacrificed,

Thank You for all you've done.

God Bless

2011-04-21T01:30:00.002+08:00

To me love forever exists,

You turn my heartbeat so fast,

This love have so much to resist,

For only presence will always last.

Only times,

Certain times,

We hang out,

Sit and speak out.

Once was not mine,

Once wasn't meant to be mine,

A similar figure,

A similar voice.

Advised to stay away,

Advised no more to be in fray,

Something i just have to stay away,

But love rush is so hard to evade.

I can only be what i am now,

I've lost confidence once and i am still without it now,

I'm not ready i'm telling myself,

For now just let it be,

Where and when now let it be how it suppose to be.

其实我也不知道

2011-04-12T19:10:00.000+08:00

你的眼光其实我都感觉得到
有些事情本来就很奥妙
无心的玩笑故意挑剔的争吵
都是爱情的前兆
你的眼泪其实我也感觉得到
有些事情真的很难预料
爱情的面前我们真的太渺小
应该怎麽说才好
其实我也不知道其实我也很苦恼
其实我很害怕你想要的我都做不到
除了紧紧的拥抱谁能承诺天荒地老
我的苦笑是否你能明了
其实我也不知道其实我也很煎熬
其实我也想过放弃一切什麽都不要
缘份如此美妙却又如此困扰
是欢笑迷宫又像寂寞监牢
让人只想逃跑
嘿谢谢你对我那麽好
我常常觉得无以回报
爱就是这麽微妙
它无法强求它出现的时候不必寻找

2011-03-02T00:51:00.002+08:00

Time to say Goodbye,

No more to be aside,

Alone to mourn in the corner,

Yet to bring a smile after a while.

Gotta give up what i love most,

Gotta give up what i'm keen of,

May be for a while i'm lost,

But i'll make it, it's been so long.

Getting in ain't hard,

Getting along takes time,

Bonding creates feeling,

Now, letting go will the choice i'm making.

Time to focus and let go, it might be too late to say this but yea, i have to. I love Lion Dancing, i love every single part of it, each and every memory it had given me, each and every lesson it had thought me, each and every second it had been with me. The passion, the art and beauty, the spirit, the morale in Lion Dancing truly changed me but yet not perfect. To be perfect, gotta try everything, that's why i have to let go. Sooner or later, but it'll be now.

Cheers~

2011-02-21T18:01:00.003+08:00

Nothing is ever lasting,

But it's memorable,

Memories do fade as time goes by,

But some memories will forever be carved in mind,

Especially those that i hope to be mine.

2011-02-19T16:55:00.002+08:00

If, never to take that step,
Never, will know what's coming,
Might, turn out to be crap,
Or, it'll be just that cunning.

Anyways, all is well ends well,
Not every wish is granted from the wishing well,
A ring from the great bell,
Awakes every truth beneath ones shell.

The truth do soothens one heart,
But not always for the other,
It may leave a scar creating a part,
It may also bring two together.

Still, gotta smile through whatever that happens,
Still, gotta do whatever that has to,
Pray, God forgive if it's a sin,
Pray, God bring joy to us to what that has been.

2011-02-12T22:38:00.002+08:00

Wandering in the mist of love,

Saw your hand reaching in and out,

Disappear reappear hear your shouts,

What can i do to get you out?

Not knowing how to care,

Or may be you just lost your touch,

Now i know i cant do much,

May be a talk during lunch?

A bit here and there, Now and then,

Just find a little something to pair,

There's things i might can do for you,

To show how much i really care.

2011-02-12T00:26:00.001+08:00

真的不想吗？

还是因为我不够勇敢再面对？

会有可能一样吗？

单纯的关心是不够的。

2011-02-11T09:41:00.002+08:00

In between will always be distance,

Let distance be a test of patience,

Doesn't matter whether is near or far,

As long as the heart connects, never both will be apart.

Like family like friends,

When it comes from true heart it's so hard to bend,

A fall twice falls no matter how hard you land.

There will forever someone's shoulder to lend.

Tears cheers is all the same,

It's a challenge for us to improve and change,

Meet up with happiness and vein,

Love both of them because without them, you'll forever be the same.

What comes around goes around,

Never make mistakes without making a sound,

Learn from whatever comes to you,

One day you'll know yourself how to make it through.

Share and listen i'm always here,

As a brother as a friend i'll be near,

Will be with you as long as it cheers,

Losing yourself is the only thing i fear.

You've always been strong and i know it's true,

I believe in everything you do,

You do your best to the very up most,

Just remember your not alone.

2011-02-11T01:54:00.002+08:00

Just following your shadow,

Not knowing your looks nor your thoughts,

How can i say it is or it's not.

Hearing Listening is what i can only do,

Knowing you're sad,

Makes me feel really bad.

Whatever i am to you,

I do care at least reply,

It's good to know that your safe even if it's goodbye.

I cannot do more than what i didn't expect would happen,

In between there's a line,

For us would be so hard to combine.

Your heart is elsewhere,

I can sense that's true,

Wishing you the best is the most i can do.

A feel for you that has been slowly produced,

It's just fate made us not to be,

I hope one day will prove myself wrong,

But for now it's just not meant to be.

2011-02-02T00:49:00.003+08:00

I wanna back to blogging life again, but i cant seem to find that feeling anymore. Felt or sense nothing, maybe i'm on the wrong track. Gonna find something to blog about if i can. Hope i can still rhyme. Goodnite!

2011 Wabbit~

2011-02-02T00:42:00.002+08:00

Hop Hop Rabbit Hop,

Happy New year,

New hopes,

New Cheers.

Passed by,

A year full of laughter and a little fame,

Also full of cries and pain,

But,

Cheerio 2010 Goodbye,

2011 welcome HI!

Hope this would be a brand new year, turning 21. What's it gonna be like? Smiles!

2010-12-27T23:42:00.002+08:00

Since the day,

I walked out that door in flame,

No longer i've mention or think of your name,

Between us there's not much left but pain.

True friends once we were,

But then, went out of line when we reach a curve,

Hesitated, reconsidered, don't know where to steer,

Each turn sided with fear.

Could we be the same i asked myself,

Could we greet and say hi like old times?

Pick a book from the old shelf?

A new story, a different rhyme?

2010-12-27T23:35:00.002+08:00

What's not meant to be,

Why does it have to be you and me,

The mistakes, crimes and despicable sins,

I led myself flying with broken wings.

Heart shattered,

Knowing no more i'll be in your eyes,

Not even for a second,

I've learned a tough lesson.

Hope not to be forgotten,

Will thee let me,

Start over,

In silence.

2010-12-16T00:45:00.001+08:00

The thing is..

I missed you..

The important thing is..

There's still a little sense of like for you..

2010-12-10T00:21:00.001+08:00

Reaching out for the star i never reached,
They say practice what you breach,
Still i'm think nothing has been learned,
What more is left or is there anything, to be earned?

Kinda disappointed, Am i forgotten?

2010-12-09T00:34:00.002+08:00

Guess i need to start blogging again.. too much stuff hanging around in my mind.. its very distracting and i can't focus.. Gonna try to stop all the bad bad stuff.. Am gonna stop basketball.. waste of my time.. stupid coach.. reli wtf.. made me lost my interest.. save the strength and stamina to dota and work better.. use those time on the court on something else.. lion dancing still my fav.. may be gonna blog bout that soon.. gonna still blog bit bout basketball.. Make me feel relief.. STUPID!!!! to the max.. sien sien sien.. stupid night.. first match was okay.. i think.. well not really.. from beginning till now keep telling me "You're waiting for the opportunity" FARK YOU OPPORTUNITY UR SHIT.. I'm not even given then wait for what? o0o=.=o0o may be a little.. 2 minutes? yea if my future coach ask me if i got experience o not.. " YEA i do actually.. 2 minutes defending then i go back sit and watch. YEA! that all.. -.-" think i'm gonna burst if i continue.. sleeeeeeeeep! Ready for work tomorrow.. gonna help the juniors prepare for their comp after that.. well.. allll daaaa beeeest! again.. FaRK You Sohai COACH! nono ur not my coach.. WTF!!!! sleep -.-

2010-10-23T00:26:00.001+08:00

Eff U! Can Someone tell him i'm 20 years old? Damn!

2010-10-06T10:19:00.001+08:00

If i were to once more, for the last time ask for your help, would you help? x1000 sorry ain't gonna pay my debt to you. Guess i let you down again.

Christmas

2010-10-04T02:38:00.003+08:00

A dazzling spherical crystal,

Falls on the 25th December,

Small huts filled with smiles and laughter,

Wish you Merry Christmas, A happy new Year.

A precious moment for beautiful carols,

A lightened up room filled with familiars,

Warmth hug and kisses in a peaceful shelter,

Presence with presents along with prayers.

A wonderful moment together,

Uniting our hearts and figure,

Hands held finger side finger,

Wish Christmas will be with us everyday, forever.

2010-09-29T00:14:00.002+08:00

My heart seems to limit itself when it beats,

Feeling hard to breathe,

This kinda emotion ain't sweet,

Its hard to live.

2010-09-27T11:53:00.001+08:00

All is well ends well,

All is bad of course won't end so bad,

But,

It's bad T.T

Wish you all the happiness that i thought we could had have.

You made your choice which i didn't get to make.

Cheers

2010-09-24T02:02:00.001+08:00

I think i'll just try to walk my own way and choose a new path before i can actually go independant.. So long to the long lasting good times? well hope to hang out again like old times.. just don't feel like i belong in it anymore..

2010-09-23T02:15:00.001+08:00

(1)I wonder if shaking me off is reli that happy for you..

It's sad to hear,

Sad that i have to share,

Difficult suffering to bare.

(2)Ma.. Sorry.. i Promise this will nvr happen again!

2010-09-22T02:14:00.004+08:00

It's so so so so so so HARD to find good friends anymore.. that really can understand you and know well how tolerant how caring how simple how weak you are.. They reli don't exist anymore.. Lucky i still have some curtinees friends that care to listen to my thoughts... thx guys.. and of course my Ma.. ^^ also mr Teo who flames me at every emo action and listening along while i complain... Best listener of all.. Thank You boss.. gonna go sleep.. Gym at 8am.. nitez..

2010-09-15T02:27:00.002+08:00

Can you stop asking question like

" Chemical or Civil which one is more difficult? "

" Are your fren goin overseas also? "

" England cheaper than Aus rite? "

I go fucking crazy everytime you ask me similar questions.. I chose Civil because u suggested n wanted me to. I don't fucking care whether my frens are goin overseas or not becoz i care bout myself n WHEN AM I GOIN TO LEAVE! I will go fucking mad when you give me hope n you take it away when i am so so ready to leave. SHIT! I reli reli reli reli don have the interest to do anything rite now. HERE i don feel like studying becoz i don't like studying HERE. Time to time you give me hope to leave this place n you take it away. FUCK! I'm sick of this n i'm tired. I wish i just die so i don't have to make any choices. Making choices will just bring me to disappointed anyways. Tell me to make my own choice and think is thoroughly myself. What happened then? You din even think of my situation or my feeling n turn ur the tables on me. FUCK OFF! I want a new life! I don't care whether its hardcore life out thr or it's easier at home. I JUST WANT TO LEAVE!

DON'T TELL ME MY GRADES SUCK BECOZ I GO OUT EVERYNIGHT!

DON'T TELL ME MY GRADES SUCK BECOZ OF MY FRENS!

DON'T TELL ME MY GRADES SUCK BECOZ I DIN PUT ENOUGH EFFORT!

BECOZ IT'S NOT!

It's just me doing my time living life my way. I studied and i tried hard but it just won't work here. You gave me car gave me money gave me a little space n? Of course i use them because it's right in front of my eyes. You think i'll be like this too when i go overseas. FUCK YOU! Why don't you just kill me when you're actually trying to say that " I DON"T BElievE you "

This is just me thinking it MY WAY saying it out loud MY WAY. No one truly understands me. NO ONE! n i reli mean it NOOOOOO OOOOOOOnEEEEEEEE!

2010-09-12T05:25:00.001+08:00

Leave i may,

To a far, far place,

But my heart will always stay,

For u are my bay.

2010-09-08T03:49:00.001+08:00

Doubt thou the stars are fire,

Doubt that the sun doth moves,

Doubt truth be a liar,

But never doubt i love.

"A love to leave loved ones for, a love to cross oceans for"

2010-09-08T01:54:00.001+08:00

I think i felt my heart skip a beat,

I'm standing here and i can hardly breathe,

You got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet,

And that crooked smile of yours,

It knocks me off my feet,

I just can't get enough,

I'm a stew i need to fill me up,

It feels so good i think is love,

It's everything i've been dreaming off,

I give up, i give in,

I let go, let's begin,

Cause no matter what i do,

My heart is filled with you.

I hope we will always feel this way,

I know i will,

And in my heart i hope that,

You will always stay,

2010-09-05T03:30:00.002+08:00

Not becoz of what i've got from you,

Its becoz of what i've learned from you,

What i've seen in you,

That lead me falling in love with you.

I miss you saying hi each time you step into my car,

I miss you walking by my side not very far,

I miss you laughing at others that envy our looks,

I miss you whenever i order cheeseballs.

I miss you, i really do.

Not becoz of the spotlight,

Not becoz of the night,

Not becoz of the closeness.

Its not that, its not those.

I want a chance to be with you, i really do.

Not becoz of what i've got from you,

Its becoz of what i've learned from you,

What i've seen in you,

That lead me falling in love with you.

Cheers v^^v

2010-08-25T20:42:00.002+08:00

First time i choose to be cruel in my life just to keep us out of sight. I'll delete you for now, till we figure out how. I will stop babbling bout how much i want you, and you can stop apologizing and taking it all as if it's ur fault, it's not. " The fact that we like each other, but we're not together " i can't even maintain that little relationship, i'm not suitable to be ur guy. Compare to what you've been through, i'm much more of a failure in romance.

2010-08-25T00:02:00.004+08:00

With all regards,

With no regrets,

For a while i chose to spend my time,

On something was with me, on the same line.

For just a while,

I get to have a clear look, at ur smile,

For a while,

Wanna walk side by side, for miles.

Old in the heart,

Young in Physiq,

Gave it another shot,

In the end went fatique.

Maybe i asked for too much,

But i try to change,

Once failed wasn't given a chance,

I guessed i went out of range.

What's not meant to be, won't be at all,

Tried and tried, still no response,

Feeling ended,

I hope i be just deleted.

I am still who i am,

Thought this time would have a big change,

When will this suffocating inner me be released,

Pls don let me live in vain.

2010-08-23T01:23:00.000+08:00

If you have the choice.. would you take one more shot? not the rush rush kind..

2010-08-22T21:56:00.003+08:00

I wanted to, you know actually settle down another time with no love life and all. Live freely n enjoy life with frens. But, sometimes you just can't hold back when u meet a girl that you really really like that you wanna be with her. Sitting side by side staring across the sky searching for the biggest most shinny star. And then we make a wish then we can live happily ever after. Of course if we don't make it at least we had happy times 2gether before.

But, that kind of life doesn't really attract to my side nor me to theirs. Its like reluctant to let me even meet one girl that i can actually have one dream come true for even one time. Some might say "Don't care so much bout love, it's not time yet" "Study Study Study, love is nothing for now" I know all this and of course i know study is important. But, its a fact that i need love.

I need love because i live with this motivation and i need it so much that only with that i can be more happy. Love is a drug, it really is. I need that kind of care which so many people around me have bt i don't. Let's just say i envy and i want it too. I just need one right girl just to care bout me more than anyone else. May be love isn't that easy i thought it was. May be it is. Just to me.

All i need is you, you don't have to do much you know?

2010-08-18T23:44:00.002+08:00

I wonder where did i do wrong?

Isit wrong to not fool with friends? or isit wrong to less fool with friends?

Or am i wrong to fight back when am being fooled by friend?

Isit my low popularity that makes my B'day that so not important?

Or isit just my character that you don't like so you don't even Freakin care?

What more can i do? Than just..

Tolerate?

No holding back?

Smile at whatever prank?

Ignore the disrespectful statement?

Or just don care even the one i love is being taken away?

I've been told before

"Dick, here there are 2 degree of grades of friends, you definitely is not in the top one"

What more to say?

Fuck you?

Am back-stabbed,

Cursed,

Pranked,

Kena fucked in FB,

Even my blog,

Okay wadever,

I'm always the person that's wrong.

2010-08-17T01:13:00.002+08:00

Today finally got back on the court which is at curtin.

And freakin hell i smoked then so bad with my

NOOBNESS. =.=

I was like soooo noob i cant even shoot the ball straight.

Think it has to do with the GYMS.

Felt so tight i cant jump or run properly.

Need to work harder now for future competition.

IF I HAVE TO HEART TO COMPETE AGAIN.

Everytime i think about it, it just pisses me off.

COMPETITION SENSATION UR ASS!

Go thr to sit until my butt gets hot enuf.

Then stand up gathering clap clap

"okok, everybody lets get toegther and win this"

WTF! i was like sitting thr doing nothing. ==

The Gold medal we've got doesnt even taste a bit.

Know WHy?

Coz i ain't in the freakin recipe. Freakin Chemistry!

Okay! Enough with balls!

Morning, i mean NOON lecture was kinda boring.

But, i tried to get high becoz am in a good mood finally after so long.

Not that i'm not in a good mood before but, jst not that high.

I was like fooling around with CHIN JIA HONG.

He and Tze Jing was talking bout DotA.

Then I came in, Muaahahhahaha(I'm not saying that i'm pro)

BuT! i think i can pawn them.. I THINK!

I did this for the whole lecture.

I look at him(JIA HONG)

"Hey, BE A MAN, i can kill you with just ( i knock the table with my finger)"

"JUST ONE CLICK"

"KAPISH?"

SNAP!ONE CLICK! YOUR GONE!

hahaha.. lame.. crazy..

Then i turn my sight to Tze Jing..

He is more pro so.. i changed a click to 2 click..

WHich means 2 knocks.. hAHAHA

ANyways.. just ignore..

Then at night which was the sad and happy part.

Sorry to say, being honest.

I'm very EMO now.

I feel sooooo stupid everytime i deal with it.

What's it? Forget it..

Let time do its thing.

Everytime i THOUGHTS, it's just a NOT.

THink i'm cursed or some sort?

I'm so sad right now.

I just wanna entertain my Bestest Dota Fren JUELZE CROWN 522!!

hahaha.. anyways..

Hey Juelze, its fun blogging like this.

Thanks for making me doing this..

I am so gonna do this again,

this this this,,

this continous typing of anonymous random craps.

I WANNA SHOUT!

BTW, why i didn't mention about the happy part?

Becoz,

According to Ah DIck Kuan Ming Wei's Formula.

Which is me

Happy + Sad*Sad= Happy + Sad^2 = Sad

Why Sad * Sad?

Bare in mind..

Sadness always multiplies when you don't get through with it in time.

It was a hell of day!

goodnight

2010-08-17T00:01:00.002+08:00

I appreciate the ones that appreciate me, I also appreciate the ones who don't, but i appreciate most for the ones that i reli care about. I'll continue on as long as am trusted n supported. I'm looking for a new route. I want to lighten up everything again. Gimme the time gimme the chance. Like i said, my fren said, if you dare to say goodbye, fate will reward you a hello.

2010-08-03T23:51:00.003+08:00

If you guys think i'm dumb doing these stupid thing, writing these stupid stuff, being stupid, Pls get the F out of my blog. Its the only place i can settle down n rest in peace. If i write more in Facebook you think i have any freedom? What my frens will say? "Dick, i is give u mlm" "Dick, can u shut up?" "Dick, no one diao u, no one care" "Dick, ur not handsome ur not smart ur nothing" "Dick, don cheat yourself" I'm freakin tired so if u wan to tackle me even in my blog, i give up. I can't do no shit. Don't force me to draw a line in between everything we've been through, or u might don care or ignore my existence. I've had enough tolerence for u guys for the past few years. Please la, even the most trusted ones being so harsh on me. I have my limitations and i hope i won't get over that limit. I don't like to show. But if you insist, let it be then. Goodnight! Moodless to write anything.

2010-08-03T05:31:00.004+08:00

I'm up i'm up i'm up! Why am i up soooo early? Just can't continue to sleep so decided to check out whats new in PPS.. Found "Killers" is in the list so might as well watch that.. I'm letting it buff now while i blog so it won't lag lag thr later while watching.. Hate it when that happens.

When once love fails,
You tell yourself, Its an experience,
When twice love fails again,
You tell yourself he/she ain't the one,
When the third time love fails once more,
You tell yourself, One day there will be someone that understands you.

They say going up is difficult,
I saying falling ain't that easy too,
It's like raindrops hitting the trees before digested into the soil,
SO much to go through, after letting go of the sky.

2010-08-02T19:57:00.002+08:00

Sun, light brightens memory lane,
Moon, stars decorate the upper plain,
Wind, sound takes away inner pain,
Every end of the world, Mother Nature always remains.

In silence, best to clear the mind,
Its like all around waiting for the present to be unbind,
Love, unworthy love is never a crime,
For last there's always importants we've learned.

2010-08-02T19:51:00.002+08:00

Long i live with my swears,
Smashed through every wall front of me,
Expected much more, much more care,
Glow slowly fading, not yet retrieve of the key.

2010-08-02T02:03:00.003+08:00

All i wanted was you,
To be 2gether as one,
But it has been owes only you,
Time is almost done.

2010-08-02T01:59:00.002+08:00

A shooting star finding its way, a place to land,
Piercing through the atmosphere,
To reach ground zero, into the plains,
In the end nothing left remain.

Live On...I will

2010-07-30T20:34:00.004+08:00

Blessed ... given a Life to Live
Theres more than reasons to go On
As long as ... it starts with an I
Never lost hopes...when theres a Will

No things... be deem as obstacles
Indeed... will explores my way thro
Xpecially with luv and care.. abundance

I WIll Live On

2010-07-30T13:52:00.002+08:00

Eventhough most of the time its only an I.
Still we have to learn to know our Will.
Everyone have their reasons to Live.
Never quit but only to go On.

The moment you understand what is written above,
Will be the moment you walk out of that shadow,
Read every last word of each sentence.

2010-07-28T18:54:00.000+08:00

爱上你 , 不需要理由 ; 那恨你 , 有没有理由呢 ?
理由是一样的，我对你有感情，好的坏得都有。

2010-07-24T10:30:00.002+08:00

Xian Xian xian xian xiiiiiiaaaaan~ don feel like being in the ball games anymore. Previously felt good playin wit the old guys coz they give chances and teach you throughout whole game. Even after the game they encourage us every minute. Theres always a chance to say "Give it a go" and now.. WTF I SUB PPL AFTER THEY FOULED OUT! am i capable only for that? FUCK U! And wth the freakin coach say " first 5 second 5 get ready" then? whr i go? you din even put me in any of it. siiiiiiieeeeeen~ no mood.. EVen if we really ending up being Champs.. Wads the use. sitting thr cheering only. i rather cheer wit at the audience sits wit the others rather then sitting thr hoping for something hopeless. Thought was a different team different routine and a better chance to learn and show. In the end, its not a "no" show, its a "no show". Lame shit sitting thr watching, cheering, n the coach discuss wit the others one by one and i just sit thr like a nobody. DOn't even look like i'm in the freakin team. Sorry and gotta say this coach is listed the 3rd stupid ass hole coach i've met in my basketball life.

Had a little quarrel with ck though during match.. By just sitting thr.. i was kinda angry everytime i see the coach like pull the better ones aside to discuss the strategy.. ck was like " i won how, i'm okay wit everything, you angry for wad " i forgive coz may be he dono how i feel. Everyone thinks differently anyways, but he finally can understand a bit when i tell it with more detail. Appreciate though eric did try a little to cheer me. "no hard feelings" he said after the match. Ah Fui also, " U better use up all your fouls next match " hahaha.. but i said " IF i have the chance to step in the freakin court i will " ... hmmmmm.. When we all went to lim teh with the whole team thr.. The freakin coach din say a word bout me.. WHY? Coz not used.. He din even put an eye on me.. PUIK! gotta rest.. nid energy to calm myself tonight..

2010-07-20T05:05:00.002+08:00

Even if the world is in the highest definition,

You can't see thro what's really going on,

When the time calls for termination,

No matter how many tears shedded, all have gone.

2010-07-20T04:59:00.002+08:00

Numbers doesn't matter,

Only the ones from the heart matters,

Who created happiness,

Unaffordable smiles from each and everyone's faces.

2010-07-18T16:37:00.000+08:00

When people tries to barge into something.. they tend to leave when they get in
When people tries to pull out of something.. they tend to turn back
When sweet memories surrounds and everything thing reminds you of the other
Is when your stuck figuring out who is the one facing you in the mirror

2010-07-10T18:03:00.002+08:00

Who am i cheating?
Who am i bluffing?
Who am i joking?
Who am i kidding?

I'm not so strong as i said i am,
I've been so weak and getting weaker,
I thought i'm on the right lane,
Now i know i'm walking on fire.

So many tears trapped within my eyes,
Watching movies to make myself cry,
Heart tight between the lungs,
Endless tears, endless sighs.

2010-07-09T11:23:00.002+08:00

Seeing a Bitch and a Son of the BItch getting together.. Looking at their freakin "Sweet" photo just pisses me off.. Why the fuck he can do that? Knowing him let loose outside being a fuck facec is just soo freakin frustrating.. Why the fuck i let him Get to me? Meaningless.. i envy too much.. HIS NOT A THREAT! HIS NOT A FREAKING THREEAAAT! HE CAN"T DO TO ME NO SHIT! haiy.. DAmmit! This not confident guy is not me.. this ain't gonna work at all.. each failure leads to stepping back again and again..

How much more can i take?
How much of patience i have left?
How much more can i tolerate?
How much of his face i wanna break!

Why can't i have?
Why can't i be?
Why can't i surpass?
Why can't i Why cant I!

2010-07-06T12:16:00.002+08:00

Thee not meant to live in tears,
Tears of joy in fact is a different thing,
Now then i realised thee heart is teared,
I Apologize for the rough landing.

2010-07-06T03:46:00.003+08:00

Experience is what most difficult to get,
Experience is where there's ups and down,
Experience you'll have if there's a chance,
Experience is what i need that's needed to be found.

2010-06-30T14:26:00.001+08:00

-我落泪情绪零碎-

地上断了翅的蝶
不像自由地蔓延
爱原来更心碎
都可以更细节
田野风绕过几条街
秋天收获了满地的落叶
于是又一整夜
感情的句子都枯萎凋谢
我不想写随手撕下这一页
原来是跟离别可以没有结尾
焦距后悔的跟着写于是我把诗折叠
有几重感觉挑一束白玫瑰你将爱退回
我不落泪忍住感觉
分手在起风这个季节
哭久了会累
也只是别人的以为
冷的咖啡
我清醒着一再续杯
我落泪情绪零碎
你的世界一幕幕纷飞
门外的蔷薇带刺伤人也很直接
过去被翻阅结局满天的风雪

说了再见

  天亮了 雨下了 你走了
 清楚了 我爱的 遗失了
 落叶飘在湖面上睡著了
 想要放 放不掉 泪在飘
 你看看 你看看 看不到
 我假装过去不重要 却发现自己办不到
 说了再见 才发现再也见不到
 我不能就这样失去你的微笑
 口红待在桌脚 而你我找不到
 若角色对调你说好不好
 说了再见 才发现再也见不到
 能不能就这样忍著痛泪不掉
 说好陪我到老 又狠往哪里走
 再次拥抱一分一秒都好
 天亮了 雨下了 你走了
 清楚了 我爱的 遗失了
 落叶飘在湖面上睡著了
 想要放 放不掉 泪在飘
 你看看 你看看 看不到
 我假装过去不重要 却发现自己办不到
 说了再见 才发现再也见不到
 我不能就这样失去你的微笑
 口红待在桌脚 而你我找不到
 若角色对调你说好不好
 你的笑 你的好 脑海里 一直在绕
 我的手 忘不了 你手的温度
 心碎了一地 捡不回从前的心跳 伤心过去我无力逃跑
 说再见 才发现再也见不到
 能不能就这样忍著痛泪不掉
 说好陪我到老 又狠往哪里走
 再次拥抱一分一秒都好

2010-06-30T07:27:00.002+08:00

I'll work my way out of this,

Bring peace to all crisis,

Looking for the right button of normal mode,

There's gotta be a code.

A third chance i given myself,

I covered all the bad memories on my shelf,

Look back and forth thinking of last night's breeze,

Reconsidered to finish what i started, at least.

I wish,

I hope,

I pray,

One more time i'll stay.

Will be different from now on,

There's still reasons to carry on,

I wish again i'm looked with a different angle,

No matter in the end you become, Angel or Devil.

Promise me

2010-06-28T05:06:00.003+08:00

I opened my eyes,
With my blanky still there to keep me warm,
I stared at the ceiling, look around,
Once again a day without your smile.

Thought of these days couples everywhere i saw,
New and old ones that make me more wanna soar,
I see an end in the relationship i'm on pursue,
But, something finally, i thought through.

A blink of a shock,
An inspiration came to mine,
I found the key to the lock,
That has been in my soul and mind.

Promise me that's all i want,
Just a promise to forget me never,
Tell me i changed you somehow,
Let me know i had an impact on your life.

Promise to remember me always,
Losing you is hard enough,
But, i don't want to go on knowing,
What i meant to you is just a dumb.

I understand,

What's not meant to be,
It's not meant to be,
Though i really hope that your other will be me,
But, for now i hope you being with me,
Would still feel,
Free.

2010-06-27T23:57:00.002+08:00

Today is a messed up day full of mistakes, filled with tragedy and disappointment. Although i didn't see it with my bare eyes, i still can sense it far away. I promised to keep strong and firm, promised not to be moved and promised that i will move on. But, in the end i became weak and the page filled with hope had just being flipped at that instant. A mistake ever so treacherous that broke ones heart and cracked into disappointment. What good from the past became just so fake as it can be seen turned into dust and ashes disappear in instant from sight. Being good is like putting full effort on anything, no matter what it takes to be acknowledged. But, being bad is just like taking off a mask. Gotta start over, i don't know whether i can, whether i'm allowed to. Begging to forgive, but what to forgive. I ruined everything, myself. Do i deserve a second chance?

Sweetness treasured within my Heart

2010-06-27T05:18:00.003+08:00

A past that always been with me,

That has been sweet kept within me,

Give thoughts of it make me feel free,

Sometimes i still in search of that key.

Riddle self written inside my head,

No trace of answer that has lead,

A problem from myself that has made,

I know it can't be shared like a morning bread.

May be you say your not the one,

But, why can't you see i hope you are the one,

Who knows may be you'll find what you want, what we want,

Decision can be made together as long as we stay as one.

For once i became greedy,

Think i'm kinda pity,

In front of thee i feel little,

Heart always so brittle.

If i'm given a second chance,

To bring you to the grand floor for a dance,

I will be ever so happy and grateful,

I will treasure every moment, will be thankful.

Love that has been Denied

2010-06-27T03:24:00.007+08:00

A story of two broken heart,
A male and the opposite,
Both from worlds apart,
One day, God arrange them to meet.

Male carrying his broken heart,
To search for the right other,
Happiness was always apart,
There's always the presence of blunder.

Male tried and tried,
Until days he thought to give up,
Though the heart cried and cried,
For once he did what he said with his hands up.

Day by day,
Time after time,
In his mind stays a may,
Will the end of the journey rhyme.

Its unfair,
Useless to complain,
This is the life i meant to bare,
A life full of shame.

I wonder why it started,

I wonder when you truly care,

I wonder why it can't be ended,

I wonder how i bared.

Tears escaped,
I closed my eyes to hope for a decided mind,
I hold back not to collapse,
Everytime, She says may be we're weren't not meant to combine.

Wonder what i did was right or wrong,
I know it shouldn't happen but i let it be,
May be i played the wrong song,
I need another chance, you'll see.

I'm not a boy no more,
I'm not THAT boy no more,
I showed my true heart,
Why couldn't you see?

May be i indeed madly in need of love,
May be i indeed madly in need of company,
A true partner that would at least try with me,
A true partner that at least try to understand me.

Say i'm crazy,
Say i'm mad,
Say i'm still young,
Say wadever you can.

I am who i am,
I know i won't last any longer,
But i assure i will make a decision,
Until my love is acknowledged and respected.

Love Unseen,
Love not cared,
Love covered with tears i shed,
Love that i wish to be with you, to share.

2010-06-09T00:49:00.002+08:00

For life i've searched why did i live on,

For sometimes i look what's happening around me,

I hesitate to decide which to choose,

Sometimes feel lost not knowing where to be.

Slowly learning to embrace,

Learn to be frank,well not always,

Though world is not so much in grace,

Our own life given is definitely not a prank.

Thee sacrificed to give us a chance,

A chance to clear our sins that's been done,

As tough as life can and should be,

Ourselves is the one we must overcome.

2010-06-07T11:08:00.002+08:00

Presence of a mother,
Let me felt safe,
Presence of a mother,
A Ma that i always crave.

Seek for a little,
Just a little care,
A figure of an angel,
It all started from a stranger.

Slowly becoming one,
One of the most important,
I need you more than anyone,
Stay by my side being relevant.

Smile,
Just for awhile,
It always been worthwhile,
Though its as far as a mile.

2010-06-04T02:20:00.002+08:00

I continue on to hear the heartbeat in me,
Because i stand a chance before you put on a wedding ring,

I found out the only key,

The key Is me.

I sense enemies all around,

Well actually not enemies,But,

With the same dream that we wanna bound,

A dream to have your heart.

I hope to see you everyday,

But love is like playing with a kite,

Too lose it'll be taken away,

It can't soar freely if it's too tight.

A text a day,

SHow my care for you each day,

As long as i know you're around,

You'll make my day.

2010-05-31T23:45:00.002+08:00

Sitting next to each other,

Yet felt so far,

When i look at you in the eyes,

I still sense that the reflection is not me.

2010-05-30T03:04:00.003+08:00

Looking at you along with others,

There is always that much difference,

Every moment with you i cant catch my breathe,

To deal must learn patience.

Hold hands is just a way to pass their love and care,

Hand in hand,

A kiss or a hug is to show their need for one another,

Feel within.

Realizing that dream is a fake,

Realizing i'm still second degree or lower,

Realizing i'm still not in you,

Realizing i'm not meant to be with you.

I'll keep walking,

Because you are so different,

Than any other...

PS: Wish you guys a safe and happy trip to ShangHai

Blessing to Mom & Dad, Aug & Viv, Mar, HuiGor, Ma, Little Bubbly Sis, ZhinG

-I Love You-

2010-05-24T00:05:00.003+08:00

You cant score if you don't take the shot,
If you don't try you'll never know the ending,
Are you gonna take that shot?
Or just let it go and give it an ending?

There's always a choice between good and bad,
But you never know whether good is good,
Is bad always that bad?
Just taste it may be it's delicious food.

A smile tears off the entire mourn look,
A deep breathe and blow away the foul breathes,
A step is what you took,
An accomplishment is what you've had.

No matter what the result is,
Bring you to heaven or tear you apart,
This is how life is,
As long as you follow your heart.

Losing is not the end, giving up is what we call an end.

Shrek n Nightmare in Elm Street

2010-05-23T01:37:00.002+08:00

Tonight was kinda fun, going in and out the same place twice to watch different pictures coming out from the same screen. First slide was funny, touching, and cute. Omgosh that fat cat Cute Dao~ Pop! Second slide was super duper creepy, scared the shit outta me. Yea, first move by Freddy(Horror guy in movie with knives on his hands) almost got me punched in the face. It went like " Roar! AHHHHHHH!" her hand hit mine and mine went straight back to myself. Yeah~ was fun. Can see she was frightened and tired after all the screaming. Felt bad, RELI bad! " I am never gonna watch this kind of slides again!" she said. Yea, count me in. Need time to settle down, but the worst ain't here yet. 3 more weeks till final and am still struggling with those freakin formulaes. Am i engineering material? Shish am dead! Anyways, if you can't beat'em join them. Gambateh lo. Sorry, suddenly jump topic. So i was saying, actually nothing more to say for tonight. Was fun, BUT then again. Once more ended in a rupture which my blood led a trail whole way back home. Any last words Mr.Dick? "Well, gotta pick up my own pieces right?" "I think i should"

Goodnight Guys~

Blessings to ...... You know..... As Usual

-I Love You-

2010-05-20T01:57:00.002+08:00

Something's missing,
Feeling all wrong,
You i'm missing,
Not just that, think gotta be more.

Everyday kept in mind,
Everyday wanna let you noe,
How much of you i mind,
How much of you i hope to show.

You forbid my feelings to enter,
You forbid my words to come,
I always hope for the better,
When will the day come?

Gotta a feeling,
Not reli a good one,
Your words sometimes might be killin,
But you'll still be the one.

People trying to pull me out,
Out of the shadow to show my smile,
Sometimes i image myself shouting out loud,
Release that anger once in a while.

I'll be fine,
For now,
I'll act blind,
For now.

2010-05-16T21:11:00.002+08:00

If you wanna do this, make it a proper way.
If you wanna deal with it, come forth and speak to me in any way,
If you wanna fuck with me, come I'll let you have the first punch to my face,
To settle everything this is the only way.

Won let her be hurt,
Nor being blindy flirt,
Not by u,
Freakin Jerk.

Today i truly announced that i have burst,
I'll pick up my pieces on the ground,
Stand up again against your thirst,
Though it hurts but i won't make a sound.

Ahaiiiyyy... no mood to type.. Nitez

Where Are You?

2010-05-15T02:36:00.002+08:00

Like a leaf falling down to the greens,
Hoping for a soft and comfort lean,
Expect that was the least,
But in the end it's like sent to be feast.

Like a little flower trying to bloom to look at it's best,
But once stepped it's like a stab to the chest,
Torn apart and what's left is shaped more or less like a crest,
In the end the garden was in a mess.

Like a little boy crying and running to his mom,
Hoping for a hug that would relieve that pain from the cut,
Instead got a scolding for being so dumb,
In the end was grounded, forget bout having fun.

Like this little me,
Craving for a little from thee,
Just a little smiley,
Now i understand that nothing is free.

A GUY appeared,
I grumbled a little earlier,
I kept silent after,
In the end, I became no one n a laughter.

Even when i was down,
Aching,
Struggling,
Suffering,
Expect for the least,
Which most of the time least it wouldn't reach.

Questions for you,
What am i to you?
Am i special to you?
Or just like that, to you.

Stabbed in and out,
Humiliated in front of the crowd,
Expect for your medic,
Instead it's a critic.

Roses are red,
You can't fake it to blue,
What a heartbreak,
Where Are You?

To me you are indeed...

2010-05-13T20:25:00.004+08:00

The truth seems to make everything a lie,
It's always the most important things that you can't buy,
Sometimes it isn't bad to lie,
Sometimes when you peep, it makes you cry.

Sharing is caring,
So you share your inner voice,
Speaking doesn't mean it's declaring,
Don't mix or you'll think it's noise.

You can bring a horse to a river,
But you can't force it to drink,
The truth sometimes just gives you the shiver,
So you rather leave it there than picking up the leak.

It's stupid to turn your back on something,
As important as love,
Love someone not only for their good,
Though sometimes it might seems to be bad BUT,
Ask yourself!
Being with her, Do you feel good?

No matter ugly or pretty of you show,
No matter how good it is or bad it was,
That special feeling from such a special person,
Creates such beautiful attraction,
None of the less,
The one that i don't wanna risk to leave behind,
None of the less,
The one that is owes special to me,
Time to Time.

Feel?

2010-05-11T01:35:00.003+08:00

What can i say?
A filled up mind?
When can i squeeze in?
Just a little may be?

Thought i'm special,
Guess i'm not,
I think its the facial,
Handsome and Smart, Not!

Ever so hard-headed,
Can i smack it with a hammer,
Look wider girl,
I don't want just to be your teacher.

Understand what i want to do,
Understand how i feel,
Loosen that screw,
Don't be so still.

I know your not mine to be,
Or may be forever not meant to be,
Thx for the kind invites at least,
But i'm still walking in the mist.

Unsupported love,
One sided love,
Selfish kind of love,
A thing that will never be mine to own?

Meaningful sentences:
1)Sometimes, Love doesn't exist unless its acknowledged in front of people.
2)You cant rush Love.
3)Love ain't just about being happy.
4)Like Rumi said "All we wanted to have is love's confusing joy"