Please Look carefully...LOok at me! I'm fucking 19 and almost 20... I know when should i go back and i know how to keep myself safe...I'm a fucking teenager so bug off and let me have a proper wild teenage life..If you keep bragging about ppl getting Murdered..I'll tell you one day i'll be one of them...I don walk alone...I wont be alone...I dont cross small alleys...Dumbass...You tell more of those fucking murder cases in the news...it'll happen one day... i wan to be one of them rather than listening to your fucking bullshits....Plus its HOLIDAY....dont you know the meaning of HOLIDAY? Cut the crap and LET ME LOOSE... I'm not a little boy.... If you so scared then i'm backstabbed or wad...y dont u just lock me in a cage..Like theirs any diff coz im oredi in one

Hello guys, don't really have any inspiration these days. Can't think or write out anything that postable to blog about. Well, JB and Mar left for vacation. Wanted to hang out with them though coz finally i finished everything that i planned for myself for the last few weeks. Haven sing in front of Marlene, haven sat down chit chatting with JB for a long time. Owh ya, suddenly thought of making cards again, but marlene is not around. Hmmmmm.... kinda sucks having nth to do, nth to involve in. Our ball team United B is out of the finals and its quite disappointing. Well, its 0303 hours now and tonight 1915 hours gonna have a ball match against Batu niah team. Gonna be a rough match, RUN RUN RUN! hahah...tht's what i do inside. So.. sweet dream Lu... Goodnyt my dear frenz. ^^

Once again i feel pity of myself living in this kind of family. Why dont "he" just send me overseas? Why i have to suffer in this kind of surrounding? Sometimes i feel lonely? Sometimes i feel surrounded by lots of friends, well that's good. Sometimes when "he" opens your god damn mouth i don feel like i belong to this home? Why i feel that i'm an orphan that's been adopted just to be yelled at. Cant he change that effing tone? Cant he just talk to me softer without those commanding type request of favors? Polish the car! Count the money! Check the toilet! Lock the gate! Don't eat too much meat! Pick your sis! Pick your bro! Cant you do anything right!? I am tired I am annoyed he's gonna blow up my mind, he's gonna make me lose my temper. But, i cant cause i know my role i know what i should do what i shouldn't. I know i need him, for now. I'll live my life, my way. But then, again i'm thinking does he even noe my age? I'm f*cking 19 and almost 20 and he's still limiting me like a 16-year-old kid. Isn't it too late to boss me around controlling my actions now? And hack he don't even know i'm on holiday, UNIVERSITY type holiday i have to say. Pls la look at my brother and my sister. Why don't he go and shout at them just like he shouted at me for the past 10+ years when i was in pri and sec school. Everytime i talk bout this the image of my 1st slap in the face come out. I think thats the turning point of my life. Turning everything that i see in front of me upside down. I need a girl, I need more friends, I need love, I need blessing, I need stupport and the only thing i need is ignoring ignorance of this family. I need to concentrate on being someone else to be with the outside world. The me staying inside this very home is totally not capable not suitable and really do not cope with the outside world.

Its 1526 hours,
Welcome to Dick's blogging,
Thx for reading.
Updates will be up shortly.

想你的滋味,
微甜的滋味,
让我能去面对,
欠你的安慰,
尽管你从不曾说累,
你寂寞的眼让我发现,
对你总不够体贴.

思念的滋味,
微甜的滋味,
给你力气面对,
温柔的安慰,
让它流入你的心扉,
给我机会去体会,
生命里有你多美.

想听见你说的任何字眼
会温暖这颗心忘了疲倦
再多的考验不过是训练
训练更多的了解

I feel trembled,
I feel scared,
I feel hopeless,
I feel threatened.

Each time of your come back,
Each time i'll take one step back,
Each time i'll fall hard to the ground,
Each time i hear your name.

I need to calm down,
I need to have faith,
I need to focus,
I need to keep on trying.

I must not be bothered,
I must not be afraid,
I must not be influenced,
I must not be trashed by your silly act.

I need to chill, focus Dick! FOCUS!

Well today was a normal day...which i haven had in a reli long time...but someone just broke the ice..feel grateful and shocked when i was invited...Thx...din reli expect that to happen...and reli reli din expect to hear and know "The Secret"... hahah...thx for telling... letting me feel that im gaining more trust from you... had a great nite... and a very cold nite... was freezing in thr... lol.... Gonna start studying... Gd luck for me and Same for you... ^^

幸福是自己争取的，
幸福是自己得接受才会有的，
幸福要自己相信才会真正幸福，
当对方想与你分享，
你愿意牵他手一起走吗？
真心的他就站在你面前，
等着你把他放在心里。

Last of 2009

Well, my journey finally ended here in 2009 ( last year ). It started with these 2 boys. Kuang the Head and Jim the Tail...LOL..2 great kids..

Then came the Coach Yong Kah Wei.. Silly kid, but full of determination..Keep it up Boy..

And then it happened, a great team was formed. From peak Lee en, Top Left, Louis, Shin Yee, Phoebe, Winnie, Btm Left, Kah Wei, Me (Outsider), Kuang and Jim. These guys are the best that i've met. Full of potential, Admirable & Unbelievable Teamwork. Love you guys!

Last but not least, I have, Must to thank these guy. Thank you very very very much for joining me to compete for the last time. I'm reli reli reli grateful and touched by your guys determination and hard work throughout the whole practice. Though the practice was just 2 weeks, we luckily got 3rd place. Once again, From the bottom of my heart, Thank You.

From left, Chim YunG, Rong Cheng, Jai Seng, Kong Khiong, Me, Seng Kin, Kit How, Kiu yi
Middle, Coach Yong Kah Wei ^^

Have a Nice New Year.. Happy 2010 :)

Ps: Retiring from Ld its like Ending my time with XxX... Kinda Sad... anyways... anything is possible... I'll get my shot...