My heart seems to limit itself when it beats,

Feeling hard to breathe,

This kinda emotion ain't sweet,

Its hard to live.

All is well ends well,

All is bad of course won't end so bad,

But,

It's bad T.T

Wish you all the happiness that i thought we could had have.

You made your choice which i didn't get to make.

Cheers

I think i'll just try to walk my own way and choose a new path before i can actually go independant.. So long to the long lasting good times? well hope to hang out again like old times.. just don't feel like i belong in it anymore..

(1)I wonder if shaking me off is reli that happy for you..

It's sad to hear,

Sad that i have to share,

Difficult suffering to bare.

(2)Ma.. Sorry.. i Promise this will nvr happen again!

It's so so so so so so HARD to find good friends anymore.. that really can understand you and know well how tolerant how caring how simple how weak you are.. They reli don't exist anymore.. Lucky i still have some curtinees friends that care to listen to my thoughts... thx guys.. and of course my Ma.. ^^ also mr Teo who flames me at every emo action and listening along while i complain... Best listener of all.. Thank You boss.. gonna go sleep.. Gym at 8am.. nitez..

Can you stop asking question like

" Chemical or Civil which one is more difficult? "

" Are your fren goin overseas also? "

" England cheaper than Aus rite? "

I go fucking crazy everytime you ask me similar questions.. I chose Civil because u suggested n wanted me to. I don't fucking care whether my frens are goin overseas or not becoz i care bout myself n WHEN AM I GOIN TO LEAVE! I will go fucking mad when you give me hope n you take it away when i am so so ready to leave. SHIT! I reli reli reli reli don have the interest to do anything rite now. HERE i don feel like studying becoz i don't like studying HERE. Time to time you give me hope to leave this place n you take it away. FUCK! I'm sick of this n i'm tired. I wish i just die so i don't have to make any choices. Making choices will just bring me to disappointed anyways. Tell me to make my own choice and think is thoroughly myself. What happened then? You din even think of my situation or my feeling n turn ur the tables on me. FUCK OFF! I want a new life! I don't care whether its hardcore life out thr or it's easier at home. I JUST WANT TO LEAVE!

DON'T TELL ME MY GRADES SUCK BECOZ I GO OUT EVERYNIGHT!

DON'T TELL ME MY GRADES SUCK BECOZ OF MY FRENS!

DON'T TELL ME MY GRADES SUCK BECOZ I DIN PUT ENOUGH EFFORT!

BECOZ IT'S NOT!

It's just me doing my time living life my way. I studied and i tried hard but it just won't work here. You gave me car gave me money gave me a little space n? Of course i use them because it's right in front of my eyes. You think i'll be like this too when i go overseas. FUCK YOU! Why don't you just kill me when you're actually trying to say that " I DON"T BElievE you "

This is just me thinking it MY WAY saying it out loud MY WAY. No one truly understands me. NO ONE! n i reli mean it NOOOOOO OOOOOOOnEEEEEEEE!

Leave i may,

To a far, far place,

But my heart will always stay,

For u are my bay.

Doubt thou the stars are fire,

Doubt that the sun doth moves,

Doubt truth be a liar,

But never doubt i love.

"A love to leave loved ones for, a love to cross oceans for"

I think i felt my heart skip a beat,

I'm standing here and i can hardly breathe,

You got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet,

And that crooked smile of yours,

It knocks me off my feet,

I just can't get enough,

I'm a stew i need to fill me up,

It feels so good i think is love,

It's everything i've been dreaming off,

I give up, i give in,

I let go, let's begin,

Cause no matter what i do,

My heart is filled with you.

I hope we will always feel this way,

I know i will,

And in my heart i hope that,

You will always stay,

Not becoz of what i've got from you,

Its becoz of what i've learned from you,

What i've seen in you,

That lead me falling in love with you.

I miss you saying hi each time you step into my car,

I miss you walking by my side not very far,

I miss you laughing at others that envy our looks,

I miss you whenever i order cheeseballs.

I miss you, i really do.

Not becoz of the spotlight,

Not becoz of the night,

Not becoz of the closeness.

Its not that, its not those.

I want a chance to be with you, i really do.

Not becoz of what i've got from you,

Its becoz of what i've learned from you,

What i've seen in you,

That lead me falling in love with you.