Since the day,

I walked out that door in flame,

No longer i've mention or think of your name,

Between us there's not much left but pain.

True friends once we were,

But then, went out of line when we reach a curve,

Hesitated, reconsidered, don't know where to steer,

Each turn sided with fear.

Could we be the same i asked myself,

Could we greet and say hi like old times?

Pick a book from the old shelf?

A new story, a different rhyme?

What's not meant to be,

Why does it have to be you and me,

The mistakes, crimes and despicable sins,

I led myself flying with broken wings.

Heart shattered,

Knowing no more i'll be in your eyes,

Not even for a second,

I've learned a tough lesson.

Hope not to be forgotten,

Will thee let me,

Start over,

In silence.

The thing is..

I missed you..

The important thing is..

There's still a little sense of like for you..

Reaching out for the star i never reached,
They say practice what you breach,
Still i'm think nothing has been learned,
What more is left or is there anything, to be earned?

Kinda disappointed, Am i forgotten?

Guess i need to start blogging again.. too much stuff hanging around in my mind.. its very distracting and i can't focus.. Gonna try to stop all the bad bad stuff.. Am gonna stop basketball.. waste of my time.. stupid coach.. reli wtf.. made me lost my interest.. save the strength and stamina to dota and work better.. use those time on the court on something else.. lion dancing still my fav.. may be gonna blog bout that soon.. gonna still blog bit bout basketball.. Make me feel relief.. STUPID!!!! to the max.. sien sien sien.. stupid night.. first match was okay.. i think.. well not really.. from beginning till now keep telling me "You're waiting for the opportunity" FARK YOU OPPORTUNITY UR SHIT.. I'm not even given then wait for what? o0o=.=o0o may be a little.. 2 minutes? yea if my future coach ask me if i got experience o not.. " YEA i do actually.. 2 minutes defending then i go back sit and watch. YEA! that all.. -.-" think i'm gonna burst if i continue.. sleeeeeeeeep! Ready for work tomorrow.. gonna help the juniors prepare for their comp after that.. well.. allll daaaa beeeest! again.. FaRK You Sohai COACH! nono ur not my coach.. WTF!!!! sleep -.-

Eff U! Can Someone tell him i'm 20 years old? Damn!

If i were to once more, for the last time ask for your help, would you help? x1000 sorry ain't gonna pay my debt to you. Guess i let you down again.

Christmas

A dazzling spherical crystal,

Falls on the 25th December,

Small huts filled with smiles and laughter,

Wish you Merry Christmas, A happy new Year.

A precious moment for beautiful carols,

A lightened up room filled with familiars,

Warmth hug and kisses in a peaceful shelter,

Presence with presents along with prayers.

A wonderful moment together,

Uniting our hearts and figure,

Hands held finger side finger,

Wish Christmas will be with us everyday, forever.

My heart seems to limit itself when it beats,

Feeling hard to breathe,

This kinda emotion ain't sweet,

Its hard to live.

All is well ends well,

All is bad of course won't end so bad,

But,

It's bad T.T

Wish you all the happiness that i thought we could had have.

You made your choice which i didn't get to make.

Cheers

I think i'll just try to walk my own way and choose a new path before i can actually go independant.. So long to the long lasting good times? well hope to hang out again like old times.. just don't feel like i belong in it anymore..

(1)I wonder if shaking me off is reli that happy for you..

It's sad to hear,

Sad that i have to share,

Difficult suffering to bare.

(2)Ma.. Sorry.. i Promise this will nvr happen again!

It's so so so so so so HARD to find good friends anymore.. that really can understand you and know well how tolerant how caring how simple how weak you are.. They reli don't exist anymore.. Lucky i still have some curtinees friends that care to listen to my thoughts... thx guys.. and of course my Ma.. ^^ also mr Teo who flames me at every emo action and listening along while i complain... Best listener of all.. Thank You boss.. gonna go sleep.. Gym at 8am.. nitez..

Can you stop asking question like

" Chemical or Civil which one is more difficult? "

" Are your fren goin overseas also? "

" England cheaper than Aus rite? "

I go fucking crazy everytime you ask me similar questions.. I chose Civil because u suggested n wanted me to. I don't fucking care whether my frens are goin overseas or not becoz i care bout myself n WHEN AM I GOIN TO LEAVE! I will go fucking mad when you give me hope n you take it away when i am so so ready to leave. SHIT! I reli reli reli reli don have the interest to do anything rite now. HERE i don feel like studying becoz i don't like studying HERE. Time to time you give me hope to leave this place n you take it away. FUCK! I'm sick of this n i'm tired. I wish i just die so i don't have to make any choices. Making choices will just bring me to disappointed anyways. Tell me to make my own choice and think is thoroughly myself. What happened then? You din even think of my situation or my feeling n turn ur the tables on me. FUCK OFF! I want a new life! I don't care whether its hardcore life out thr or it's easier at home. I JUST WANT TO LEAVE!

DON'T TELL ME MY GRADES SUCK BECOZ I GO OUT EVERYNIGHT!

DON'T TELL ME MY GRADES SUCK BECOZ OF MY FRENS!

DON'T TELL ME MY GRADES SUCK BECOZ I DIN PUT ENOUGH EFFORT!

BECOZ IT'S NOT!

It's just me doing my time living life my way. I studied and i tried hard but it just won't work here. You gave me car gave me money gave me a little space n? Of course i use them because it's right in front of my eyes. You think i'll be like this too when i go overseas. FUCK YOU! Why don't you just kill me when you're actually trying to say that " I DON"T BElievE you "

This is just me thinking it MY WAY saying it out loud MY WAY. No one truly understands me. NO ONE! n i reli mean it NOOOOOO OOOOOOOnEEEEEEEE!

Leave i may,

To a far, far place,

But my heart will always stay,

For u are my bay.

Doubt thou the stars are fire,

Doubt that the sun doth moves,

Doubt truth be a liar,

But never doubt i love.

"A love to leave loved ones for, a love to cross oceans for"

I think i felt my heart skip a beat,

I'm standing here and i can hardly breathe,

You got me.

The way you take my hand is just so sweet,

And that crooked smile of yours,

It knocks me off my feet,

I just can't get enough,

I'm a stew i need to fill me up,

It feels so good i think is love,

It's everything i've been dreaming off,

I give up, i give in,

I let go, let's begin,

Cause no matter what i do,

My heart is filled with you.

I hope we will always feel this way,

I know i will,

And in my heart i hope that,

You will always stay,

Not becoz of what i've got from you,

Its becoz of what i've learned from you,

What i've seen in you,

That lead me falling in love with you.

I miss you saying hi each time you step into my car,

I miss you walking by my side not very far,

I miss you laughing at others that envy our looks,

I miss you whenever i order cheeseballs.

I miss you, i really do.

Not becoz of the spotlight,

Not becoz of the night,

Not becoz of the closeness.

Its not that, its not those.

I want a chance to be with you, i really do.

Not becoz of what i've got from you,

Its becoz of what i've learned from you,

What i've seen in you,

That lead me falling in love with you.

Cheers v^^v

First time i choose to be cruel in my life just to keep us out of sight. I'll delete you for now, till we figure out how. I will stop babbling bout how much i want you, and you can stop apologizing and taking it all as if it's ur fault, it's not. " The fact that we like each other, but we're not together " i can't even maintain that little relationship, i'm not suitable to be ur guy. Compare to what you've been through, i'm much more of a failure in romance.

With all regards,

With no regrets,

For a while i chose to spend my time,

On something was with me, on the same line.

For just a while,

I get to have a clear look, at ur smile,

For a while,

Wanna walk side by side, for miles.

Old in the heart,

Young in Physiq,

Gave it another shot,

In the end went fatique.

Maybe i asked for too much,

But i try to change,

Once failed wasn't given a chance,

I guessed i went out of range.

What's not meant to be, won't be at all,

Tried and tried, still no response,

Feeling ended,

I hope i be just deleted.

I am still who i am,

Thought this time would have a big change,

When will this suffocating inner me be released,

Pls don let me live in vain.

If you have the choice.. would you take one more shot? not the rush rush kind..

I wanted to, you know actually settle down another time with no love life and all. Live freely n enjoy life with frens. But, sometimes you just can't hold back when u meet a girl that you really really like that you wanna be with her. Sitting side by side staring across the sky searching for the biggest most shinny star. And then we make a wish then we can live happily ever after. Of course if we don't make it at least we had happy times 2gether before.

But, that kind of life doesn't really attract to my side nor me to theirs. Its like reluctant to let me even meet one girl that i can actually have one dream come true for even one time. Some might say "Don't care so much bout love, it's not time yet" "Study Study Study, love is nothing for now" I know all this and of course i know study is important. But, its a fact that i need love.

I need love because i live with this motivation and i need it so much that only with that i can be more happy. Love is a drug, it really is. I need that kind of care which so many people around me have bt i don't. Let's just say i envy and i want it too. I just need one right girl just to care bout me more than anyone else. May be love isn't that easy i thought it was. May be it is. Just to me.

All i need is you, you don't have to do much you know?

I wonder where did i do wrong?

Isit wrong to not fool with friends? or isit wrong to less fool with friends?

Or am i wrong to fight back when am being fooled by friend?

Isit my low popularity that makes my B'day that so not important?

Or isit just my character that you don't like so you don't even Freakin care?

What more can i do? Than just..

Tolerate?

No holding back?

Smile at whatever prank?

Ignore the disrespectful statement?

Or just don care even the one i love is being taken away?

I've been told before

"Dick, here there are 2 degree of grades of friends, you definitely is not in the top one"

What more to say?

Fuck you?

Am back-stabbed,

Cursed,

Pranked,

Kena fucked in FB,

Even my blog,

Okay wadever,

I'm always the person that's wrong.

Today finally got back on the court which is at curtin.

And freakin hell i smoked then so bad with my

NOOBNESS. =.=

I was like soooo noob i cant even shoot the ball straight.

Think it has to do with the GYMS.

Felt so tight i cant jump or run properly.

Need to work harder now for future competition.

IF I HAVE TO HEART TO COMPETE AGAIN.

Everytime i think about it, it just pisses me off.

COMPETITION SENSATION UR ASS!

Go thr to sit until my butt gets hot enuf.

Then stand up gathering clap clap

"okok, everybody lets get toegther and win this"

WTF! i was like sitting thr doing nothing. ==

The Gold medal we've got doesnt even taste a bit.

Know WHy?

Coz i ain't in the freakin recipe. Freakin Chemistry!

Okay! Enough with balls!

Morning, i mean NOON lecture was kinda boring.

But, i tried to get high becoz am in a good mood finally after so long.

Not that i'm not in a good mood before but, jst not that high.

I was like fooling around with CHIN JIA HONG.

He and Tze Jing was talking bout DotA.

Then I came in, Muaahahhahaha(I'm not saying that i'm pro)

BuT! i think i can pawn them.. I THINK!

I did this for the whole lecture.

I look at him(JIA HONG)

"Hey, BE A MAN, i can kill you with just ( i knock the table with my finger)"

"JUST ONE CLICK"

"KAPISH?"

SNAP!ONE CLICK! YOUR GONE!

hahaha.. lame.. crazy..

Then i turn my sight to Tze Jing..

He is more pro so.. i changed a click to 2 click..

WHich means 2 knocks.. hAHAHA

ANyways.. just ignore..

Then at night which was the sad and happy part.

Sorry to say, being honest.

I'm very EMO now.

I feel sooooo stupid everytime i deal with it.

What's it? Forget it..

Let time do its thing.

Everytime i THOUGHTS, it's just a NOT.

THink i'm cursed or some sort?

I'm so sad right now.

I just wanna entertain my Bestest Dota Fren JUELZE CROWN 522!!

hahaha.. anyways..

Hey Juelze, its fun blogging like this.

Thanks for making me doing this..

I am so gonna do this again,

this this this,,

this continous typing of anonymous random craps.

I WANNA SHOUT!

BTW, why i didn't mention about the happy part?

Becoz,

According to Ah DIck Kuan Ming Wei's Formula.

Which is me

Happy + Sad*Sad= Happy + Sad^2 = Sad

Why Sad * Sad?

Bare in mind..

Sadness always multiplies when you don't get through with it in time.

It was a hell of day!

goodnight

I appreciate the ones that appreciate me, I also appreciate the ones who don't, but i appreciate most for the ones that i reli care about. I'll continue on as long as am trusted n supported. I'm looking for a new route. I want to lighten up everything again. Gimme the time gimme the chance. Like i said, my fren said, if you dare to say goodbye, fate will reward you a hello.

If you guys think i'm dumb doing these stupid thing, writing these stupid stuff, being stupid, Pls get the F out of my blog. Its the only place i can settle down n rest in peace. If i write more in Facebook you think i have any freedom? What my frens will say? "Dick, i is give u mlm" "Dick, can u shut up?" "Dick, no one diao u, no one care" "Dick, ur not handsome ur not smart ur nothing" "Dick, don cheat yourself" I'm freakin tired so if u wan to tackle me even in my blog, i give up. I can't do no shit. Don't force me to draw a line in between everything we've been through, or u might don care or ignore my existence. I've had enough tolerence for u guys for the past few years. Please la, even the most trusted ones being so harsh on me. I have my limitations and i hope i won't get over that limit. I don't like to show. But if you insist, let it be then. Goodnight! Moodless to write anything.

I'm up i'm up i'm up! Why am i up soooo early? Just can't continue to sleep so decided to check out whats new in PPS.. Found "Killers" is in the list so might as well watch that.. I'm letting it buff now while i blog so it won't lag lag thr later while watching.. Hate it when that happens.

When once love fails,
You tell yourself, Its an experience,
When twice love fails again,
You tell yourself he/she ain't the one,
When the third time love fails once more,
You tell yourself, One day there will be someone that understands you.

They say going up is difficult,
I saying falling ain't that easy too,
It's like raindrops hitting the trees before digested into the soil,
SO much to go through, after letting go of the sky.

Sun, light brightens memory lane,
Moon, stars decorate the upper plain,
Wind, sound takes away inner pain,
Every end of the world, Mother Nature always remains.

In silence, best to clear the mind,
Its like all around waiting for the present to be unbind,
Love, unworthy love is never a crime,
For last there's always importants we've learned.

Long i live with my swears,
Smashed through every wall front of me,
Expected much more, much more care,
Glow slowly fading, not yet retrieve of the key.

All i wanted was you,
To be 2gether as one,
But it has been owes only you,
Time is almost done.

A shooting star finding its way, a place to land,
Piercing through the atmosphere,
To reach ground zero, into the plains,
In the end nothing left remain.

Live On...I will

Blessed ... given a Life to Live
Theres more than reasons to go On
As long as ... it starts with an I
Never lost hopes...when theres a Will

No things... be deem as obstacles
Indeed... will explores my way thro
Xpecially with luv and care.. abundance

I WIll Live On

Eventhough most of the time its only an I.
Still we have to learn to know our Will.
Everyone have their reasons to Live.
Never quit but only to go On.

The moment you understand what is written above,
Will be the moment you walk out of that shadow,
Read every last word of each sentence.

爱上你 , 不需要理由 ; 那恨你 , 有没有理由呢 ?
理由是一样的，我对你有感情，好的坏得都有。

Xian Xian xian xian xiiiiiiaaaaan~ don feel like being in the ball games anymore. Previously felt good playin wit the old guys coz they give chances and teach you throughout whole game. Even after the game they encourage us every minute. Theres always a chance to say "Give it a go" and now.. WTF I SUB PPL AFTER THEY FOULED OUT! am i capable only for that? FUCK U! And wth the freakin coach say " first 5 second 5 get ready" then? whr i go? you din even put me in any of it. siiiiiiieeeeeen~ no mood.. EVen if we really ending up being Champs.. Wads the use. sitting thr cheering only. i rather cheer wit at the audience sits wit the others rather then sitting thr hoping for something hopeless. Thought was a different team different routine and a better chance to learn and show. In the end, its not a "no" show, its a "no show". Lame shit sitting thr watching, cheering, n the coach discuss wit the others one by one and i just sit thr like a nobody. DOn't even look like i'm in the freakin team. Sorry and gotta say this coach is listed the 3rd stupid ass hole coach i've met in my basketball life.

Had a little quarrel with ck though during match.. By just sitting thr.. i was kinda angry everytime i see the coach like pull the better ones aside to discuss the strategy.. ck was like " i won how, i'm okay wit everything, you angry for wad " i forgive coz may be he dono how i feel. Everyone thinks differently anyways, but he finally can understand a bit when i tell it with more detail. Appreciate though eric did try a little to cheer me. "no hard feelings" he said after the match. Ah Fui also, " U better use up all your fouls next match " hahaha.. but i said " IF i have the chance to step in the freakin court i will " ... hmmmmm.. When we all went to lim teh with the whole team thr.. The freakin coach din say a word bout me.. WHY? Coz not used.. He din even put an eye on me.. PUIK! gotta rest.. nid energy to calm myself tonight..

Even if the world is in the highest definition,

You can't see thro what's really going on,

When the time calls for termination,

No matter how many tears shedded, all have gone.

Numbers doesn't matter,

Only the ones from the heart matters,

Who created happiness,

Unaffordable smiles from each and everyone's faces.

When people tries to barge into something.. they tend to leave when they get in
When people tries to pull out of something.. they tend to turn back
When sweet memories surrounds and everything thing reminds you of the other
Is when your stuck figuring out who is the one facing you in the mirror

Who am i cheating?
Who am i bluffing?
Who am i joking?
Who am i kidding?

I'm not so strong as i said i am,
I've been so weak and getting weaker,
I thought i'm on the right lane,
Now i know i'm walking on fire.

So many tears trapped within my eyes,
Watching movies to make myself cry,
Heart tight between the lungs,
Endless tears, endless sighs.

Seeing a Bitch and a Son of the BItch getting together.. Looking at their freakin "Sweet" photo just pisses me off.. Why the fuck he can do that? Knowing him let loose outside being a fuck facec is just soo freakin frustrating.. Why the fuck i let him Get to me? Meaningless.. i envy too much.. HIS NOT A THREAT! HIS NOT A FREAKING THREEAAAT! HE CAN"T DO TO ME NO SHIT! haiy.. DAmmit! This not confident guy is not me.. this ain't gonna work at all.. each failure leads to stepping back again and again..

How much more can i take?
How much of patience i have left?
How much more can i tolerate?
How much of his face i wanna break!

Why can't i have?
Why can't i be?
Why can't i surpass?
Why can't i Why cant I!

Thee not meant to live in tears,
Tears of joy in fact is a different thing,
Now then i realised thee heart is teared,
I Apologize for the rough landing.

Experience is what most difficult to get,
Experience is where there's ups and down,
Experience you'll have if there's a chance,
Experience is what i need that's needed to be found.

-我落泪情绪零碎-

地上断了翅的蝶
不像自由地蔓延
爱原来更心碎
都可以更细节
田野风绕过几条街
秋天收获了满地的落叶
于是又一 整夜
感情的句子都枯萎凋谢
我不想写随手撕下这一页
原来是跟离别可以没有结尾
焦距后悔的跟着写于是我把诗折叠
有几 重感觉挑一束白玫瑰你将爱退回
我不落泪忍住感觉
分手在起风这个季节
哭久了会累
也只是别人的以为
冷的咖啡
我 清醒着一再续杯
我落泪情绪零碎
你的世界一幕幕纷飞
门外的蔷薇带刺伤人也很直接
过去被翻阅结局满天的风雪

说了再见

  天亮了 雨下了 你走了
 清楚了 我爱的 遗失了
 落叶飘在湖面上睡著了
 想要放 放不掉 泪在飘
 你看看 你看看 看不到
 我假装过去不重要 却发现自己办不到
 说了再见 才发现再也见不到
 我不能就这样失去你的微笑
 口红待在桌脚 而你我找不到
 若角色对调你说好不好
 说了再见 才发现再也见不到
 能不能就这样忍著痛泪不掉
 说好陪我到老 又狠往哪里走
 再次拥抱一分一秒都好
 天亮了 雨下了 你走了
 清楚了 我爱的 遗失了
 落叶飘在湖面上睡著了
 想要放 放不掉 泪在飘
 你看看 你看看 看不到
 我假装过去不重要 却发现自己办不到
 说了再见 才发现再也见不到
 我不能就这样失去你的微笑
 口红待在桌脚 而你我找不到
 若角色对调你说好不好
 你的笑 你的好 脑海里 一直在绕
 我的手 忘不了 你手的温度
 心碎了一地 捡不回从前的心跳 伤心过去我无力逃跑
 说再见 才发现再也见不到
 能不能就这样忍著痛泪不掉
 说好陪我到老 又狠往哪里走
 再次拥抱一分一秒都好 

I'll work my way out of this,

Bring peace to all crisis,

Looking for the right button of normal mode,

There's gotta be a code.

A third chance i given myself,

I covered all the bad memories on my shelf,

Look back and forth thinking of last night's breeze,

Reconsidered to finish what i started, at least.

I wish,

I hope,

I pray,

One more time i'll stay.

Will be different from now on,

There's still reasons to carry on,

I wish again i'm looked with a different angle,

No matter in the end you become, Angel or Devil.

Promise me

I opened my eyes,
With my blanky still there to keep me warm,
I stared at the ceiling, look around,
Once again a day without your smile.

Thought of these days couples everywhere i saw,
New and old ones that make me more wanna soar,
I see an end in the relationship i'm on pursue,
But, something finally, i thought through.

A blink of a shock,
An inspiration came to mine,
I found the key to the lock,
That has been in my soul and mind.

Promise me that's all i want,
Just a promise to forget me never,
Tell me i changed you somehow,
Let me know i had an impact on your life.

Promise to remember me always,
Losing you is hard enough,
But, i don't want to go on knowing,
What i meant to you is just a dumb.

I understand,

What's not meant to be,
It's not meant to be,
Though i really hope that your other will be me,
But, for now i hope you being with me,
Would still feel,
Free.

Today is a messed up day full of mistakes, filled with tragedy and disappointment. Although i didn't see it with my bare eyes, i still can sense it far away. I promised to keep strong and firm, promised not to be moved and promised that i will move on. But, in the end i became weak and the page filled with hope had just being flipped at that instant. A mistake ever so treacherous that broke ones heart and cracked into disappointment. What good from the past became just so fake as it can be seen turned into dust and ashes disappear in instant from sight. Being good is like putting full effort on anything, no matter what it takes to be acknowledged. But, being bad is just like taking off a mask. Gotta start over, i don't know whether i can, whether i'm allowed to. Begging to forgive, but what to forgive. I ruined everything, myself. Do i deserve a second chance?

Sweetness treasured within my Heart

A past that always been with me,

That has been sweet kept within me,

Give thoughts of it make me feel free,

Sometimes i still in search of that key.

Riddle self written inside my head,

No trace of answer that has lead,

A problem from myself that has made,

I know it can't be shared like a morning bread.

May be you say your not the one,

But, why can't you see i hope you are the one,

Who knows may be you'll find what you want, what we want,

Decision can be made together as long as we stay as one.

For once i became greedy,

Think i'm kinda pity,

In front of thee i feel little,

Heart always so brittle.

If i'm given a second chance,

To bring you to the grand floor for a dance,

I will be ever so happy and grateful,

I will treasure every moment, will be thankful.

Love that has been Denied

A story of two broken heart,
A male and the opposite,
Both from worlds apart,
One day, God arrange them to meet.

Male carrying his broken heart,
To search for the right other,
Happiness was always apart,
There's always the presence of blunder.

Male tried and tried,
Until days he thought to give up,
Though the heart cried and cried,
For once he did what he said with his hands up.

Day by day,
Time after time,
In his mind stays a may,
Will the end of the journey rhyme.

Its unfair,
Useless to complain,
This is the life i meant to bare,
A life full of shame.

I wonder why it started,

I wonder when you truly care,

I wonder why it can't be ended,

I wonder how i bared.

Tears escaped,
I closed my eyes to hope for a decided mind,
I hold back not to collapse,
Everytime, She says may be we're weren't not meant to combine.

Wonder what i did was right or wrong,
I know it shouldn't happen but i let it be,
May be i played the wrong song,
I need another chance, you'll see.

I'm not a boy no more,
I'm not THAT boy no more,
I showed my true heart,
Why couldn't you see?

May be i indeed madly in need of love,
May be i indeed madly in need of company,
A true partner that would at least try with me,
A true partner that at least try to understand me.

Say i'm crazy,
Say i'm mad,
Say i'm still young,
Say wadever you can.

I am who i am,
I know i won't last any longer,
But i assure i will make a decision,
Until my love is acknowledged and respected.

Love Unseen,
Love not cared,
Love covered with tears i shed,
Love that i wish to be with you, to share.

For life i've searched why did i live on,

For sometimes i look what's happening around me,

I hesitate to decide which to choose,

Sometimes feel lost not knowing where to be.

Slowly learning to embrace,

Learn to be frank,well not always,

Though world is not so much in grace,

Our own life given is definitely not a prank.

Thee sacrificed to give us a chance,

A chance to clear our sins that's been done,

As tough as life can and should be,

Ourselves is the one we must overcome.

Presence of a mother,
Let me felt safe,
Presence of a mother,
A Ma that i always crave.

Seek for a little,
Just a little care,
A figure of an angel,
It all started from a stranger.

Slowly becoming one,
One of the most important,
I need you more than anyone,
Stay by my side being relevant.

Smile,
Just for awhile,
It always been worthwhile,
Though its as far as a mile.

I continue on to hear the heartbeat in me,
Because i stand a chance before you put on a wedding ring,

I found out the only key,

The key Is me.

I sense enemies all around,

Well actually not enemies,But,

With the same dream that we wanna bound,

A dream to have your heart.

I hope to see you everyday,

But love is like playing with a kite,

Too lose it'll be taken away,

It can't soar freely if it's too tight.

A text a day,

SHow my care for you each day,

As long as i know you're around,

You'll make my day.

Sitting next to each other,

Yet felt so far,

When i look at you in the eyes,

I still sense that the reflection is not me.

Looking at you along with others,

There is always that much difference,

Every moment with you i cant catch my breathe,

To deal must learn patience.

Hold hands is just a way to pass their love and care,

Hand in hand,

A kiss or a hug is to show their need for one another,

Feel within.

Realizing that dream is a fake,

Realizing i'm still second degree or lower,

Realizing i'm still not in you,

Realizing i'm not meant to be with you.

I'll keep walking,

Because you are so different,

Than any other...

PS: Wish you guys a safe and happy trip to ShangHai

Blessing to Mom & Dad, Aug & Viv, Mar, HuiGor, Ma, Little Bubbly Sis, ZhinG

-I Love You-

You cant score if you don't take the shot,
If you don't try you'll never know the ending,
Are you gonna take that shot?
Or just let it go and give it an ending?

There's always a choice between good and bad,
But you never know whether good is good,
Is bad always that bad?
Just taste it may be it's delicious food.

A smile tears off the entire mourn look,
A deep breathe and blow away the foul breathes,
A step is what you took,
An accomplishment is what you've had.

No matter what the result is,
Bring you to heaven or tear you apart,
This is how life is,
As long as you follow your heart.

Losing is not the end, giving up is what we call an end.

Shrek n Nightmare in Elm Street

Tonight was kinda fun, going in and out the same place twice to watch different pictures coming out from the same screen. First slide was funny, touching, and cute. Omgosh that fat cat Cute Dao~ Pop! Second slide was super duper creepy, scared the shit outta me. Yea, first move by Freddy(Horror guy in movie with knives on his hands) almost got me punched in the face. It went like " Roar! AHHHHHHH!" her hand hit mine and mine went straight back to myself. Yeah~ was fun. Can see she was frightened and tired after all the screaming. Felt bad, RELI bad! " I am never gonna watch this kind of slides again!" she said. Yea, count me in. Need time to settle down, but the worst ain't here yet. 3 more weeks till final and am still struggling with those freakin formulaes. Am i engineering material? Shish am dead! Anyways, if you can't beat'em join them. Gambateh lo. Sorry, suddenly jump topic. So i was saying, actually nothing more to say for tonight. Was fun, BUT then again. Once more ended in a rupture which my blood led a trail whole way back home. Any last words Mr.Dick? "Well, gotta pick up my own pieces right?" "I think i should"

Goodnight Guys~

Blessings to ...... You know..... As Usual

-I Love You-

Something's missing,
Feeling all wrong,
You i'm missing,
Not just that, think gotta be more.

Everyday kept in mind,
Everyday wanna let you noe,
How much of you i mind,
How much of you i hope to show.

You forbid my feelings to enter,
You forbid my words to come,
I always hope for the better,
When will the day come?

Gotta a feeling,
Not reli a good one,
Your words sometimes might be killin,
But you'll still be the one.

People trying to pull me out,
Out of the shadow to show my smile,
Sometimes i image myself shouting out loud,
Release that anger once in a while.

I'll be fine,
For now,
I'll act blind,
For now.

If you wanna do this, make it a proper way.
If you wanna deal with it, come forth and speak to me in any way,
If you wanna fuck with me, come I'll let you have the first punch to my face,
To settle everything this is the only way.

Won let her be hurt,
Nor being blindy flirt,
Not by u,
Freakin Jerk.

Today i truly announced that i have burst,
I'll pick up my pieces on the ground,
Stand up again against your thirst,
Though it hurts but i won't make a sound.

Ahaiiiyyy... no mood to type.. Nitez

Where Are You?

Like a leaf falling down to the greens,
Hoping for a soft and comfort lean,
Expect that was the least,
But in the end it's like sent to be feast.

Like a little flower trying to bloom to look at it's best,
But once stepped it's like a stab to the chest,
Torn apart and what's left is shaped more or less like a crest,
In the end the garden was in a mess.

Like a little boy crying and running to his mom,
Hoping for a hug that would relieve that pain from the cut,
Instead got a scolding for being so dumb,
In the end was grounded, forget bout having fun.

Like this little me,
Craving for a little from thee,
Just a little smiley,
Now i understand that nothing is free.

A GUY appeared,
I grumbled a little earlier,
I kept silent after,
In the end, I became no one n a laughter.

Even when i was down,
Aching,
Struggling,
Suffering,
Expect for the least,
Which most of the time least it wouldn't reach.

Questions for you,
What am i to you?
Am i special to you?
Or just like that, to you.

Stabbed in and out,
Humiliated in front of the crowd,
Expect for your medic,
Instead it's a critic.

Roses are red,
You can't fake it to blue,
What a heartbreak,
Where Are You?

To me you are indeed...

The truth seems to make everything a lie,
It's always the most important things that you can't buy,
Sometimes it isn't bad to lie,
Sometimes when you peep, it makes you cry.

Sharing is caring,
So you share your inner voice,
Speaking doesn't mean it's declaring,
Don't mix or you'll think it's noise.

You can bring a horse to a river,
But you can't force it to drink,
The truth sometimes just gives you the shiver,
So you rather leave it there than picking up the leak.

It's stupid to turn your back on something,
As important as love,
Love someone not only for their good,
Though sometimes it might seems to be bad BUT,
Ask yourself!
Being with her, Do you feel good?

No matter ugly or pretty of you show,
No matter how good it is or bad it was,
That special feeling from such a special person,
Creates such beautiful attraction,
None of the less,
The one that i don't wanna risk to leave behind,
None of the less,
The one that is owes special to me,
Time to Time.

Feel?

What can i say?
A filled up mind?
When can i squeeze in?
Just a little may be?

Thought i'm special,
Guess i'm not,
I think its the facial,
Handsome and Smart, Not!

Ever so hard-headed,
Can i smack it with a hammer,
Look wider girl,
I don't want just to be your teacher.

Understand what i want to do,
Understand how i feel,
Loosen that screw,
Don't be so still.

I know your not mine to be,
Or may be forever not meant to be,
Thx for the kind invites at least,
But i'm still walking in the mist.

Unsupported love,
One sided love,
Selfish kind of love,
A thing that will never be mine to own?

Meaningful sentences:
1)Sometimes, Love doesn't exist unless its acknowledged in front of people.
2)You cant rush Love.
3)Love ain't just about being happy.
4)Like Rumi said "All we wanted to have is love's confusing joy"

Do not open,
Until the perfect moment,
An out of the ordinary gift,
To give the day a mood shift.

You're my valentine,
Not frankenstein,
Just you and me on a table,
Candles along with some wine.

A day filled with,
Love and romance,
Take a deep breathe,
Wish to hold your hand feel and dance.

Wanna take of the phantom costume,
Being with you without doubts,
Just looking at your smile,
It makes everything i do worthwhile.

Everyday is Valentines when i'm with you,
Hoping for the out of the ordinary,
Wanna know that special feeling,
Wanna have that special feeling.

Standing beside a line,
With you on the other side,
When can we step over it,
I wish one day we'll have a real Valentine.

Posted after watching the movie "Valentines Day" Anyways.. Nitez

Blessings to Mom & Dad, Aug & Viv, Mar, HuiGor, Ma, Little Bubbly Sis and Zhing

-I Love You-

Happy Mother's Day

No matter,
How much you love your wife,
How much you love your kids,
How much you love your siblings,
No matter,
How much you love,
You can't compare,
Mother's love.

A phase,
Where only mothers,
Have to face,
Fight fate.

A phase,
Where a new life,
Is born,
New fate.

A phase,
Where unfortunates and miracles happen,
We stand between,
Fate.

She who goes through,
Took in all the pain,
Breathtaking deep Breathes,
Scream all the way.

She who goes through,
Took in all the pain,
To give us life,
With all her might.

She who goes through,
Took in all the pain,
Live or die,
For us, that's why.

She who goes through,
Took in all the pain,
To pass her present to us,
Which is, the one and only,
Love of a Mother.

She,
Who carried us all the way,
Till the end of the day.

She,
Who change their diet for us,
To keep us safe.

She,
Who won't complain,
Even if we cause her aches.

She,
Who carried us all the way,
Till the end of the day.

For everyday,
We grow up,
Day by day,
Thank you Mom,
Happy Mother's Day.

A Night of 8 and 9's

A Night of 8 and 9's,
Surprisingly having this chance to meet the eyes,
Everyone started with a "Hi",
In the end ended with a wave and a "Bye".

Ning an admirable photographer with a gothic look,
Shirley with attractive eyes and minds,
Hazel an independant and confident woman,
SQ with looks of curiosity that had a funny random cake of the night.

Felt like a kid stuffed in a chicken meal box,
Totally different world from mine,
Dining with great people rocks.
Some jokes made the night rhyme,

Maturity i saw and trying to learn,
Stealing the skills that cant be taught,
I gotta be firm,
Be careful not to be caught.

I kept my head down holding on to my fork,
Spinning the pasta,
Cutting the pizza,
I was like a stiff cork.

A group of people born in the 80's,
Plus a little kid from the 90's,
Odd but fun,
Enjoy more than drinking Rum.

A Night of 8 and 9's,
Surprisingly having this chance to meet the eyes,
Everyone started with a "Hi",
In the end ended with a wave and a "Bye".

Very Touching True Story

One whistle it'll come to you,
One call of their name they'll rush to you within seconds,
In this world only few,
Will listen to you in silence.

They a.k.a "Men's Best Friend",
Not known but it CAN be your best friend,
It will hear you out,
It will always be your crowd.

It'll follow you,
It'll lie down with you,
It'll play with you,
It's cute face will always be your best daily view.

A friend in need is a friend indeed, (Black : Cigar, Brown Black : Nancy)

如果可以顺其直然的走在一起，那该多好。
不被想爱的爱，能顺其自然的爱吗？
让时间证明，我的耐性？
让时间证明，我的承诺？
让时间证明，我的一切？
顺其自然的，一起走下去吧。

^^ 晚安！-I Love You-

Treasure every moment Now and Then...

Nice Song, Great Dancing Moves, Touching MV

Think this song can express my nightmares well.

Covered with milky white,
The church filled with bright,
A carpet leads to God's might,
Place where two truly unite.

Listen to the blessings,
Bell ringing,
Happy tears dropping,
Feel the love from every within.

Her hand passed to he who she trusts,
Her hand passed to he who she loves,
Not loved but love till the end,
A new born family held hand in hand.

Will you marry me,
Will you forever be with me,
I will hold your hand,
Together until the end.

Promises had been made,
Commitment is what is takes,
Responsibility to her,
This here led to a new fate.

A ring chosen not with quantity nor quality,
But filled with his heart,
A dress not chose with a simple thought,
But to be the most beautiful bride among all.

Rings,
Swear,
Promise,
Love.

God's greatest art work,
Unite two lovers,
With a swear to God,
Words that must be abide,
You May Kiss The Bride.

Silent Room

Hearing only the sound,
Of the CPU Of Me,
Waiting for another sound,
"Let's Go!"calling to me.

In such a peaceful room,
Peaceful house,
Peaceful family,
No more, No wanna step out.

Ideas mixing up in my mind,
Thinking of the next word to rhyme,
Hope to make something meaningful,
Rather than just let them bind.

Choosing sides she said,
Both left and right,
She's in the middle, Don't know when to invade,
Between the war, Hope you won't cry.

Left and right ain't the only choise,
In front of you will always be an extra option,
"I'll follow and go for the monster"
You tell them that, you don't be in this complicated muster.

I will and always will be,
A friend and a place,
For you to
Hide and cry,
Rest and pray,
Rely without deny,
For God let us meet,
For God will bless us each.

叶子

“葉子ㄉ離開,是因為風ㄉ追求,還是樹ㄉ不挽留？”
假如叶子像离开，
那心疼的树还有什么好留？
假如叶子心已被树占据，
那树根本就不需要留，
假如叶子和树真心相爱，
那风只能做多余的角色，
但是，
不管树多少努力，
不管风雨有多大，
最后还是得看，
叶子到底选着怎么办。

The Name

Long for that name,
Long for that fame,
Always longing for it,
Always will be an inner rain.

One time or twice,
If lucky i might have thrice,
Just any kind will do,
As long as me it's calling to.

Being ones guardian ain't easy,
Being a hated guardian is a different saying,
I don't care it might sounds crazy,
One time "Gor" will leave me crying.

Blessings to Mom & Dad, Viv, Mar, HuiGor, Ma, Little Bubbly Sis, ZhinG

Good Night!

-I Love You-

I'm missing you,
Are you having a flu,
It's okay,
I'll take care of you.

PS: I'm really pissed off with the Piano Boy's effing attitude today. He totally don't know what he's doing and saying. Someone pls teach him Coz i totally CAN't! I'll burst when he opens his mouth and stare me with his eyes which i'm keen to dig out. You better find out and realize your mistakes yourself before i tell you myself which will smack you hard to the ground. Don't try me! Or else!

~GoodNight~

-I Love You-

Remember my promise to thee,
Not more than one,
For now just feel free.

GdNite

-I Love You-

TCH

Spiky hair,
Fair face,
What comes along,
Is a smile with grace,

Simple wear,
Or should i say its simply wear,
But when it comes to big screens,
He'll make everyone scream!

Event planner,
Driver of some Kids,
A "great singer "OooOps" =p,
May be you'll freeze HAhahAHahaH.

Also being my consultant,
A good one too,
Stayed beside me since the beginning,
He always categorize them for me when thing start mixing.

Great guy,
Great 30-year old guy,
Oooops,
Don't make me jump through fire looops.

I'm just kidding,
Guess now you are laughing,
Smile,
Because everything you did for me i appreciate,
I'll make it worthwhile.

Sometimes,
Or may be Now,
You have to trust me,
Believe in my consistency.

I'll wait for her,
I'll do my best for her,
Support me?
I need thee?

Think you'll just have to,
Pull me to church,
Because it's really not a habit,
I still rather stay home eat and burp.

But,
I'll try my best,
I'll wake up,
You help me finish the rest?

This is the one and only,
Teo Chin Hui,
Great guy,
Great friend,
No way this kind of friendship you can buy,
A friend in need and he is the friend indeed,
Sweet!

Nitez

Blessing to Mom & Dad, Aug & Viv, Mar, HuiGor, Ma, Little Bubbly Sis, ZhinG

Last but not least

Would you wear a shirt that makes you look ugly?
Or you'll wear something nasty?
Something shabby?
Or you would prefer something steady?

You don't have to keep those ugly shirts,
But sometimes you do have to live with'em,
They might be full of dirt.
So sometimes you just gonna keep on wearing.

Some shirts just cant make things right,
You have to re-adjust your mind,
Feel fed up? No need to cry,
Shoo them Off there's no crime.

So many shirts to wear,
So many others to hang out with,
Why must only be them to be aware,
More out there that need and will care.

It's not i don't like those ugly shirts,
No matter how many times i wash,
They still make me look like a jerk,

My heart was crushed,
So now you tell me,
Should i throw them away,
Or should i keep them till i need them again.

In the end,
I think i'll sing along,
With the birds.

PS: I tried to, be patient, be tolerant, be noticed, yet, no one cares, so, Get the FUCK out of my life. Still can go for drinks though. I mean, healthy drinks. Chao~ ^^

-Good Night-

I didn't disappear,
I just need time for meditation,
I'm still here,
Seeking for realization and satisfaction.

I thought you didn't care,
I thought if i pass by you wouldn't even stare,
I almost can't bare,
Sorry, Now i see you do care.

Once again you appeared when i needed you,
Once again i'm teared you came just in time,
Once again it's you,
Now my life once again will rhyme.

Blessings to Mom & Dad, Aug & Viv, Mar, HuiGor, Little Bubbly Pruddy, ZhinG

Good Night
-I Love You-

Madly In Love

Madly in love,

One with a woman,
One with music,
The addiction is dominant,
His flight can only be domestic.

He plays the notes,
I write love letters,
He cant understand even A quote,
Tell me about music i'll say LATER.

I wanted to find a whole new world,
He who chooses to live and trapped in a hole,
But we do have something similar,
Death is our most feared foe.

But when you get to looked in deeply,
I'm actually the one living in a hole,
He is the one creating his new world,
I'm still running in circles in a bowl.

Here i realize,
I have to change,
Not to be in disguise,
But me myself not to be locked with my own chain.

I still love her,
I will not leave her,
But i'll try best,
Together bring our of my own world,
To some place new that everyone is,
Heart cured.

Blessings to Mom & Dad, Aug & Viv, Mar, HuiGor, Ma, Little Bubbly Sis, ZhinG

GoodNight
-I Love You-

Surpass my ego,
Advance for the future,
Not long ago,
Decided to vanish inside me a creature.

Yes i do miss,
Yes i do love,
Yes i do want to care,
Without them i'm living in despair.

Feel the pain,
Countless strain,
Must hold on tight,
Not to rain.

Just a little more,
I tell myself,
Just a little more,
I tell myself again.

I'm truly different,
I am different,
Just trust me in this,
I can do more than this.

选择了折磨自己，
把过去的外皮揭开，
重新来过。

每分每秒地走过，
都觉得缺少些什么，
告诉自己她会想起你。

阴影慢慢消失，
思念自然也慢慢消失，
渴望也渐渐消失。

保留着你的回忆，
等着你的回应，
等待着我们的相遇。

感动天 感动地

一开始 我以为 爱本来会很容易
所以没有 经过允许 就把你放心底
直到后来有一天 你和他走在一起
我才发现 原来爱情 不是真心就可以

我感动天 感动地 怎么感动不了你
明明知道 没有结局 却还死心塌地
我感动天 感动地 怎么感动不了你
总相信爱情会有奇迹 都是我骗自己

以为自己不再去想你
保持不被刺痛的距离
就算早已忘了我自己
却还想要知道你的消息

我感动天 感动地 怎么感动不了你
明明知道 没有结局 却还死心塌地
我感动天 感动地 怎么感动不了你
总相信爱情会有奇迹 都是我骗自己

Start Over

Life is just like a chord,
Do Re Mi Fa So La Ti Do,
Everyone have their chances to start over,
When the pitch reach its limit,
It'll turn back to low pitch and start all over,
Ain't how that's a piano played?

I stared at the keyboard,
Looking for secrets in the white keys,
I counted from Do to Do,
I realized its seven keys.

7 days in a week,
After 7 days we start all over,
I turned my thoughts,
Aren't days passing by over and over?

Every song has its end,
But you can choose to play it again,
Everyday we end with a pray,
You who choose to live to the next day.

Today went to Lu Zhou to sing few songs, Finally meet up again with HuiGor. Then went in the music room listening to HuaKing Laoshi attracting voice. Ended the night with my River Flow ^^ but it's just half way because the keyboard is half short which also ended up with a half recorded video. Anyways, no need to ask why i'm now cheering for myself "Hold ON Dick!".

Blessings to Mom & Dad, Aug & Viv, Mar, HuiGor, Ma, Little Sis, ZhinG.

Nitez~
-I Love You-

Do what you suppose to do,
Accomplished what you first started,
Confidence is not a tool,
Its just a support system ourselves created.

You don't need confidence to do everything,
Without it you still can do anything,
Don't let fear give you the bothering,
Soon you'll find each obstacle interesting.

If you made a mistake,
Forget it and lets move on,
Do whatever it takes,
Next time not to let thing go wrong.

Support there always will be,
Failure sometimes you have to meet,
Success is after each failure you beat,
Failure one day will bow down to your feet.

Strive for your destiny,
Not to buy,
You will remember and regret for eternity,
Yourself to rely.

In the end once again,
It's already been a past,
Hope history won't repeat itself,
Chances is what time will wait last.

Honest

I realize how hard it is to show honesty,
I realize how difficult it is to live without honesty,
I realize how much honesty means to me right now,
I realize i need an honest answer,
Will thee allow?

Its a simple answer,
Yet it may be more hurting than a big thunder,
May be i need a big beat down,
To test am i able to climb up once again,
After a fall down.

I'll have an action plan,
Reschedule rewrite my future,
Another path different lane,
But with the same person,
Its okay even its a torture.

I realize how hard it is to show honesty,
I realize how difficult it is to live without honesty,
I realize how much honesty means to me right now,
I realize i need an honest answer,
Will thee allow?

All i want is closeness,
Always sharing things,
Silly things,
Difficult things,
Anything,
If we have that,
Nothing can hurt us.

Blessings to Mom & Dad, Aug & Viv, Mar, HuiGor, Ma, Little Sis, ZhinG~

GoodniGht
-I Love You-

爱没那么简单

和一个想在一起的人在一起，
爱着一个我希望可以回爱的人，
想得到她给不了的爱与关心，
值得但是得努力撑着伤痛及折磨，
极度的失望，
极度的打击，
因为没有关系，
有些是变的不重要，
虽然和你没关系，
你对我来说还是非常重要，
未来是自己定下来的，
只是看自己怎样走下去，
你不明白我的感受，
我选择这条路，
我就得撑下去。

最珍贵的你

最珍贵的角落，就在你身边。

最珍贵的期待，就在你心里。

最珍贵的关心，就来自于你。

最珍贵的 人，就是你。

Hey Mom!
You're not with me,
Because I'm with you!

Hey Little Sis,
Gambateh!

Hey Gurl,
How about starting with what you call that?
L
I
K
E
?

GoodNight

Until Now

Sitting under the freakin cold air-conditioner with my half dead lappy in front of me. I'm trying to figure out what am i suppose to do and questions that i gonna ask for the morning's site visit. Looking outside the open window staring at my 2 dogs lying on the ground after chasing each other like crazy. Memories always barge in and it always turns up when i am down to "moodless" status. Thinking of nothing, doing nothing and i will just answer whatever question NOTHING! Then, i thought of the past.

Once again, after a long time of absence from my current past recalling activity. I decided to blog about how i survived. Is survive the word? whatever~

Pain, pain, pain and again PAIN! i had in the past. PAIN - happiness = Still Pain. Everything in the world is equilibrium. It just depends on which angle you see it and how you do it.

To me, I survived with the help from others. They might not realize it but i must say that without them, I might be watching over you guys on top or bottom i don't know for about 3-4 years since the last time i decided to JUMP!

Went through a lot on my own, trying to survive and hold on to myself. I shout, I cry, I bang, I run and i did everything that i am capable of to get rid the nasty things on my mind. I did it all alone, no parents, no brother nor sister and yeah i do have some friends ^^.

My life was miserable i must say and i know i'm not the worst. I'm just saying and i'm not gonna compare because i know i'll lose. SooooOoOo, yea my life was kinda miserable. I hated my so called big house, I hated the lack of strictness at home i hated almost everything.

I told myself that life has gotta change and i need to find a way. I did whatever i can, i joined direct selling and now i can say i totally lost few k's there which really is a misfortune. But throughout the process i learned a lot.

Life has gotta CHANGE! I met few guys, given advises and i met this girl. I took the advises, i tried my best but it wasn't enough. I then choose to learn how to commit to this girl.

From there i have to be patient i have to be a little daring a little more caring, I JUST HAVE TO DO MORE THAN BEFORE. I saw a change of myself when i looked in the mirror. My life turned 270 degrees and i just have to do more to finish the whole turn.

I made mistakeS, you can see how big is that S. Meaning, i made LOTS of mistakes. I was given chances and i can say i am stupid enough to screw it up all the time. Again and again i said i'll wait but again and again i kept on pushing. I was so into this relationship thing i forgot one thing. The most important thing which is, As Long As She Is Happy I'm Willing. But, i must say i think she's not quite happy with the pushing and stuff. Sorry? =p

I gotta chill, wait like i promised when the date was still 14/02/2010. Its been half a year since you came into my world and may be i'm getting a little impatient nowadays. Well, my bad and i will make a change. Just tell me when it is too much, Just say "Not Now"? or you can just slap me in the face and give a crucial heart breaking rejection.

SoooOOoo.. I need to wake up at 630! OMG! 3.15 =_= ... Goodnight! Guess i'm back! Bloggin is my life? Heheehhee~

Blessing to Mom and Dad, Aug and Viv, Mar, HuiGor, Ma, Little Sis and ZhinG
-I love You-

Am i giving up?
What about all the fall and stand up?
I need a hug,
I don't wanna give up.

Guess saying "I love You" can't match against "Why"...

Blessings to Myself. Urgh~

Say I Do

Small doesn't mean it has to be treated small,
Big doesn't mean it has to be treated big,
No matter you're short or tall,
No matter you're super skinny or fat like a pig.

It doesn't matter your a bi or a homo,
It doesn't matter you are a lesbian or a gay,
There is nothing in this world known as solo,
When you are alone you have no one to blame.

Equal rights!
Nothing to Fight!
Think about what i write!
Working together our future will be bright!

Blue green and white,
A combination that forms a one-of-a-kind Earth,
Though the others are out of sight,
Still we must appreciate that HERE we are given birth.

You choose not to finish your food,
Look at the poor ones who cant even have half a spoon,
You choose to fight for a better good,
Look at the poor ones who don't even know how to gloom.

Don't hate,
Don't grumble,
Don't forget,
To always thank.

Do love,
Do care,
Do have prayers,
Under each of everyone is covered with soft layers.

Heavy rain now, thunder hitting hard, a bit afraid so, Siam Ren! =p

Blessing to Mom and Dad, Aug and Viv, Mar, HuiGor, Ma, Little sis, and ZhinG.
~Nitez~
-I Love You-

Can we Cut out 1cm of distance between us?

Objects in mirror are closer than they appear,
I wish that's true,
Imagining a reflection of you and me so near,
How true i hope yet reality is cruel.

Feel gloomy under this heavy rain,
Walking alone back and forth with no one nearby,
Raindrops sliding down my cheeks and i prayed,
Wishing you being here with me to rectify.

Felt lost so timid,
Where can i reach to,
I'm almost at my limit,
Who should i go to.

Only way to clear my mind is with you,
No need to speak no need to think,
Blessings and caring from you,
It's all i need to make all the evil shrink.

I gotta get everything straight,
I cannot live with such anger and disappointment,
Everyday its like bitten by a Krait,
I will find a cure to make a supplement.

-Good Day-

Blessing to Mom and Dad, Aug and Viv, Ma, HuiGor, Mar, Little Sis and ZhinG.

-Love Ya-

Sorry for being a little greedy,
Actually is too greedy,
I got a little but i want more,
Kinda hurt coz i owes got the answer "what for?"
Yes, what for?
I can't even answer because,
I never had this kind of feeling before,
I will learn to control,
I must,
I run before i even know how to crawl,
Coz i trust,
You are too kind to be true,
Too understanding of you,
Tell me when i say too much,
Don't worry of being too harsh,
Worried everyday things will get out of hand,
Hope i wont get banned,
Books i will take it seriously,
Everything i do i will thing thoroughly,
Forgive for the stubborn,
Forgive for the burden,
Everyday i say I love you,
Everyday i tell you I miss you,
Know it's a heavy load,
Can't bring it over with a boat,
Lastly,
Once again,
Love ya~
Nitez~

For the Little One

Though shaped in a quite small figure,
It is believed to be capable for lots of things,
Might not be a perfect integer,
Count 1 by 1 and you'll do it,
Because life is not about racing.

Sometimes people get weak,
Chin and hip up walk and be like a woman,
No matter how hard you hide one day it'll leak,
Have faith be strong,
Strong hearts like the Romans.

When truly beaten you can always head home,
Do not fear of shame or cold death,
I'll always be there to keep you warm,
Home sweet home will always forever for you to have,

There will be no frustration,
Far away from wrath,
Not a word of intimidation,
Not much heard of brag.

Think big,
Plan big,
Do big,
Small from the outside,
Big from the inside.

Little ain't always is brittle,
Small doesn't mean it cannot brawl,
Afraid doesn't mean your not brave,
"It is what it is" is not true,
What truly is true,
Is what you feel,
Inside you.

Perspective starts from the mind

Shoulder to Shoulder

My heart will go on,
Trust me with all that's left,
I support you just keep it on,
Treasure every moment we had and will have.

Questions and problems are made to be solved,
Think of me your not alone,
You fell but you rose,
Again i'm here your not on your own.

I'm glad that you tried,
I'm glad you are still on the ride,
I'm glad that you didn't hide,
I'm glad that you are still beside.

Feeling is what i seek,
I don't care what you look like,
Love for you is deeper than the sea,
I will be your light and might.

Silent blue sky,
Roars for the battle of the rocks and waves,
Gaze through where all nature's beauty lies,
Your love My love in between is where our love is saved.

L O S T .....

Lost in love...
And i dont know why ,
Am figuring it out ,
what i needed was ,
someone to show me .

Lost in thoughts ,
And I dont know much ,
Am trying to think ,
what you thinking about ,
and eager to know ,
what you thinking .

Lost in touch ,
And i dont know how ,
Am reaching all out ,
and eager to be
what you wanted

Lost in sight ,
and I dont know where ,
Am calling for you ,
and hoping you hear ,
to my rescue .

You know you can't fool me ,
I've been loving you too long ,
It started... ain't so easy ,
I want to carry on ,
And carry on .....

I can let go ,
But am not letting go ,
And I can't handle ,
the pain after ,
And i believe ,
there's still much ,
to believe in .

So lift your eyes ,
and look me in ,
reach for the star ,
I'll figure it out ,
and show you ,
the way ,
that you wanted.

谢主让我遇见你，
谢主让我有机会疼爱你，
和你一起，
会有突来的信心，
和你一起，
总觉得可以让障碍不再成为阻碍，
不是瞎高兴，
不是瞎欢喜，
对你的爱，
无法解释的爱，
无条件的爱，
无需求的爱。

爱就像阵风，
看不到，
却感觉得到，
爱就像巧克力，
看过去虽然颜色暗淡，
吃下去却可以尝到那奇妙的甜美。

家人，
朋友，
同事，
敌人，
对他们，
感恩的心，
感谢有你。

Thank you Mom & Dad,
Thank you Sis,
Thank you Brother,
Thank you my Friends,
Thank you Colleagues,
Thank you my sworn forever hated enemies,
Thank you Ma,
And of course Thank "You".

God Bless~ GoodNight~ Love You

Pepero

A combination of White,Green and Chocolate,
Added in few fingertip jobs with flowers and almonds,
With one of my fav colours Purple,
All unite in a Rectangular box.

A simple creation,
Yet full of Emotion behind that very cardboard,
Full of definition,
Protected with unbreakable code.

Every month i bring this little box to someone i care,
Each time i treasure and picture that smile,
Once of every month i wait which i really can't bare,
Filling in my love and care into that little box,
Giving you no matter how many miles.

Each thank you i kept it in my heart,
Each time your caring personality raises me up,
Heart to Heart,
I wish to meet you each time the sun rises up.

This simple box,
Can be one of the unforgotten memories,
This simple box,
Will let you think of me in the past present and future.

Choose not to choose but choose to feel

Love is a word that is hard to speak of,
Love is something that you must commit,
You cant beat love even you are Lara Croft,
The heart will be the one that must be submit.

Love is a lesson that has to be learned,
Love is one word that carries responsibilities,
Love is priceless which must be self earned,
Love is when we talk about quality.

To love you have to trust,
To love commit is a must,
To love sacrifice have to be harsh,
To love patience is your truss.

Love you do not choose who is who,
Love is when you feel for whom,
Patience heart trust sacrifice their all your crew,
Bring them on ship if not say hi to Mr.Doom.

One thing i learned from love is cherish,
Second thing i learned is that you must be understanding,
Holding hands looking each other in the eye feel both hearts and kiss,
Its only true when both is willing.

I wanna hear your voice,
I wanna feel your presence,
I wanna see your smile,
I wanna see you to be you,

I don't want any other girl,
I don't want any other kind of girl,
I see your goods and i realize the bad,
But what the heck as long as its you i don't care who the heck.

I will go against time itself,
I hope you don't fall out giving me up on sight,
I'll always leave a place beside me throne,
I chose this Love on my own.

Gaze through the blurry night,
The sky decorates itself with stars and clouds,
It want to be in the highlights,
Always being feeling looking so proud.

When will i unite with the Gods that lives upon?
When will i be one of them who looks upon us?
Reflection of myself staring at the quiet pond.
But there's always will be minor of disturbance.

Life will never be that boring and flat,
Every obstacle makes it interesting,
What's life without a brat?
You'll gonna tell you "I kept feeling something is missing"

Be more open minded on things that happen,
Yes, sometimes it might be crap,
But if you keep nagging,
You're gonna be left behind the laps.

Be brave be wise and don't forget,
There will always be a place to rest,
Once fallen you stand up,
Twice fallen say no to give up.

Until the day you are satisfied and acknowledged,
For you yourself is the examiner and creater of your own problems.

In my dream i always see you soar above the sky,
In my heart there always will be a place for you for all my life,
I keep a part of you and me,
For there you always will be.

Hey,
Failure ain't all that is,
Look behind of all of it,
You learned a lesson,
May be not once twice or even more,
But it brings different meanings in life to you,
Cheers for there will be worse to come,
And the better to be.

Love you Always~

有著我，便有著你

有著我，便有著你。
这爱是永不死。
穿过喜和悲，跨过生和死。
千个万个世纪，绝未离开。
爱是永恒，当所爱是你。

Distance Behaviour

Distance is not of an essence when love comes in to show,
To reunite our broken pieces of cresents,
Distance is not so important,
As long as we treat it to us to be reluctant,
Distance is when we test ourselves how much we love each other.
Distance is when we both apart from each other.
To places we strive for our own dream,
But then still reminding ourselves,
There is someone waiting you back home.
Being with you in the heart,
Is enough to motivate and keep me on going,
Till the day we meet again.
Trust me you must,
For me you i always trust.

Driving on the open road,
Still wondering under the bluish sky,
Moon shining brightens up proudly to show,
No more it is shy.

Wonder where should i turn my steering,
As i choose this path to drive,
I'm vulnerable of your caring,
Your motivation keeps me on to strive.

Your smile,
Your presence,
Cures a while,
Your are of the essence.

I fail to wait,
Again and again,
This habit i myself create,
No worry i'm not in vain.

Looking waiting for that square thingy to light up,
1 new message i hope it will be you,
Hey hello or may be Wassup,
I'll be happy even it's just a few.

Nitez~

Friendship...the companion of Love

Friendship is .....getting a big punch on the shoulder, when you say something awful, when you make a mistakes, it goes from ear to ear, north to south, east to west.
Love is.....trying to make a nice smile , of all the things you say,and still trying a nice smile, to impress you of your say.

Friendship is.....just like a book, as easy to judge by just a look. For the content in the book, to read from page to page, may not be even of your taste.
Love Is.....blushes on the face, when you suddenly make a squeak. You start to look around for stares, when the eyes meet, a smile to assure you its okay.

Friendship Is.....talking aloud enuf to create a crowd, even to disagree on small matters, when some #%@ are uttered, to get even at each other.
Love Is.....saying as softly that hardly the ear, another soul can barely hear. Got a pen and paper, thinking of the word to write, but just wouldn't come out right.

Friendship Is.....taking pics with shots near and far,with actions of glamour and style, as unique as possible the pose, for a merrier memory to recall.
Love Is.....the best pic is just the two, wanting a pic of more than two, hoping for a smart and prettier pic too, for more pics is not yet a taboo.

Friendship Is.....Love but not in love, it gives company with a limit, being there thro' sorrow and pain, ready to lend a helping hand.
Love Is.....love in love, with sacrifices to no limit, with trust and thrash of love, that got to stand the test of time.

Friendship Is.....updating each other with em', spread ol' over the continent, no matter where you are, you are bound to feel connected thro' Facebook.
Love Is.....Absence makes the heart grow fonder, with words tat promising.. I'll B back for U, while Presence can makes the heart grow fader, leaving words of WHY, WHY me, Why U.!!

Thief

If one day the clock strikes,
The day i no more have meals,
I have to live with bribe,
Life that i must steal.

There is nothing what i want more,
Nothing is worth for me to steal,
I can't find a definition of what i must do is for,
I don't even want to steal even the safe is not sealed.

One thing that is only worth it,
One thing that is worth planning,
One thing that is more precious than gold,
The only that i want to steal,
Your heart.

If i'm a thief, the only thing i wanna steal will be your heart.

Good Night~
Love you always~
Ussimi~

So many things to tell yet so little time left,
Too many things to do yet so little oppurtunity,
Everything is affordable as long as pure heart presents itself,
That's why i treasure every moment with you right now,
Do Love me care for me like i loved you more than anything i loved on this planet,
Little or less i dont mind,
Remember i only look at your heart,
If one day we're forced to leave apart,
Remember this and remember this always,
You will always be a part of my sky and in me.

You truly made my day,
You are always the one pulling me out from the shade,

Blessed to meet you,
Blessed to know you,
Thank you,
I do care for you,
Love you.

Nitez~

Ps: Sorry! Sometimes i'm kinda childish tempering with you.

Next time

Love is not just simply about being happy when ur together, smiles, laughs, warm feeling towards one another and so on. Sometimes, i do get angry, disappointed, frustrated and some more. I chose not to show but to just keep quite and do it in another way. I'm not angry because i'm angry, i'm angry because i care. Sometimes i cant expect you to give me what i want everytime because you weren't meant to. I'm always vulnerable to the word next time because it just shows how much you don't want to at that particular moment. I insisted, but you insisted more, then i give up. Truly i'm disappointed. Again i'm disappointed not because i'm reli disappointed but felt beaten in another way and the questions in my head just pops out again. May be i'm askin too much, yes i'm asking too much. I never get what i expect, sometimes i get what i least expect, but at least there is a next time. Saw a photo in facebook, then i was thinking was not me, everyone else but me. I wonder was Olivia right about my temper, am i that nice? May be i am, or i'm just acting to be. I myself ain't even near 1% percent sure about this. Still i cant see any much attention i gained from you. Yes, a little but still there's more to go for you to know and understand and of course myself have more to find out.

Last reminder,
Recall 14th/Feb/2010.
I've gathered all my trusted ones,
Loved ones,
Cared most,
Bringing them together,
Workin sided by side,
Combine to form a heart for you,
And i lighted it up at that moment in front of you,
Just for and only you.
Feel the blessing?
It's all from the heart.

Headin to bed now.. NiteEz~

Pray for the need

It hurts to see someone in pain,
But it hurts more when unable to pull them out of vain,
Our future is to live and let live,
Their future is destined for us to help and give.
Shy to look at our face,
The pain suffer living on a deserted dry surface,
A sip of water,
A teaspoon of grain,
They asked what is supper?
WE disgusted with some food and complain.
Learn to appreciate in presence,
As its God gifts to you as a present,
You may think you are in vain,
But the ones that can't even gain weight never complain.
Dry,
Wilt,
Hunger,
Deserted,
A little willing to save,
At least and at least,
We hold hands and pray.

Feel sorry to owes take your place,
For time treating u beating u in a race,
I know their time beside u not much left to stay,
But I assure I'll somehow make it up to u to repay.

This was and is in my mind now till then. Now, continue on to "Go Back To Myself Project" for HuiGor. To get him back to acknowledge my presence and absence from emoness.

People tell me! Why and ask yourselves?
Why must give up, Why?
Why Cant you finish what you started?
Don'T you or just feeling shy?

They say everyone is different in this world,
Everyone IS different i truly agree,
But only two kinds,
Standing face to face at both sides of A line.

Why am i different with him?
Why am i different with her?
Isit that he's more slim?
Or her size is just larger?

No need of numbers nor letters,
The only code to break this secret,
Accept and learn from the words or critters,
You can reach heights even if your a little midget.

Take one step forward, Just ONE step,
Discover various and new choices,
If you think it's just crap?
Then jump back to hell where you will never find Oasis.

Apply the letter B,
Apply the letter C,
Apply the letter U,
Brave, Confident and of course U yourself where it all started.

Like i said before,
Just take the first step,
You don't need to see the whole staircase,
If not you will not reach height if you cant even take one simple step.

Blessings under the sunshine,
Everyday seems to rhyme,
Everybody trying to run ahead of time,
Too much work to do, Too many kind.

Looking at that Square box made out of 0 and 1,
Sometimes, maybe, It might look fun,
But once you have to run,
It's worse than staying whole day under the sun.

Looking at another kind made out of wood,
One that you hold and the other to write, which student make it as dog food,
Neither it's easy to write nor look,
I rather hang myself with a hook.

Listening to noises you don't wanna hear,
Listening to news that makes you fear,
Listening to bad news that shed tears,
Listening to music that let your mind clear.

Look on the bright side,
Rather than you focus on the dark,
You can run, listen, see and even feel right,
While some just forever in the X mark.

Appreciate what you have and what your capable of,
If one day you let yourself rot,
Reconsider or just let it be and off,
Let the needs to have what they lack to be their coat.