Endless Beat

Lay your hand on my chest,
Close your eyes and listen to my heartbeart,
There's no need to be in a haste,
Beat by beat slowly try to read.

Beat by beat spelling out each letter of your name,
Continously repeating forming in my heart,
Your smile halts the rain,
You are one of a kind piece of art.

Feel the beat closer,
You'll realize "I Love You" is tailing behind,
Even our distance is further,
I'll still be with you,
Just dial and say HI.

I called it the beat of love. The beat that goes on and on endlessly. It will never stop. If one day this beat happened to be beaten. I only hope that it will be remembered till the end of our hearts.

:-)

Sometimes i wonder, do you still rmb that i'm in love with you? You know, i just figured out why i wanted to head to the movies for our last "date"( for me only ) coz. I know you know that ppl don't like being stared, it'll feel odd if i stare at you and admire you beauty and feel the warmth of your presence. I guess inside the cinema is like HEAVEN coz you won't have any worries bout being stared and so on. I just felt your presence and i must say that the happiest moments are recorded in my book is when am beside you or should i say you being beside with me.

Sitting side by side,
Watching gathered little dots moving around,
No reasons to sigh,
Though things were as ugly as a hellhound.

Such inner beauty,
I must confess the outer layer ain't so smooth,
To me you're always that pretty,
Maybe for yourself you rather jump down the roof.

Enjoy the times being with you,
Feel sad on the other hand cause time won't look back,
Can i say this is why i always suddenly wanted to tie my shoe,
Because i can stop for a while to have more time to look at you.

Nothing much to say tonite coz i'm not use to posting happy feeling... hahahaha... promised to post happy ones dy so no choice.. Hey.. Readers! This month gonna be Happy Season.. Hope the inspiration comes though.. Anyways, class starts on Monday! I cant wait!

~Goodnite~
~Love Ya~

你想要我退多一步吗？
还是你要我跪在你面前求你放过我？

My Prom is at Your side

Heartbreaking nightmares,
Shattered Dreams,
Stabbed so hard somewhr,
Pain that i cant relief.

Love is not a battlefield,
It's all bout True Heart,
I need to know how you feel,
For now it's like a noobie throwing a dart.

Again i had the worst dreams that i couldn't bare. I saw myself crushed to the knees, flooded my face and once again rushing to death. Love is to win by true heart they say. But, why this very heart of mine is always on the opposite side of winning while the flirts just takes it all. I did so much but flirt just gave a wink and she just walks away with him. Unbelievable and truly heartbreaking that woke me up for the entire night. If one day, ONE DAY! it reli happens, I don't know what's gonna happen. Are these dreams coming continously for a reason? Is this a sign for me to give up? I hope not coz God i must tell you and i'll pray every night just to tell you how much i love this girl very much and pls bless me in anyway and show me the way. Its currently 0712, i'll now head back to bed and try to sleep for another 3 and a half hours before meetin her. God bless~ Love ya~

I'm actually waiting like almost every night for an automatically say goodnight from you... hahaha... i guess that wont happen coz.. errr... i dono.. better keep it to myself.. anyways... tonights gonna be different... i'm gonna say goodnight here... soooo... goodnight~ love ya~

The forgotten is actually Not forgotten

Friendz always ask questions that i don't reli wanna answer or should i say it's none of their business coz my love life was like completely contaminated by their virus if that is what they call it. So everytime i'm trying to find myself a relationship to be in, i just try my best to pull myself out and make this situation completely out of their sight. Well, can say it's always been a mission failure. Anyways, that's what i'm doing now, AGAIN! and i'm gonna answer to your guys questions here and i hope u let me be. No! i'm not in a relationship, I am still single and i have my reasons to be one. Why? Because i know it's worth waiting and there's so much to learn while i'm waiting. I'm growing while carrying this waiting process and i can feel it myself, I bet you guys felt it too. It's not that i don't wanna hang out with you guys anymore, it's just that i want a different and stabilized life. I want to make my own choices rather than following you guys around. You guys are my best buddies, you still can text me or inform me if anythings up, i'll turn up if i'm available, I PROMISE! Sorry for being absent for most of the outing. I did turn up once during Cny, or was it twice. Anyways, i love ya guys but i gotta tell ya. I found a future and i need to start managing. Worthy or not i have to find out myself. Even if i failed, i'll be cryin alone in the future anyways. I can manage myself, for now, still learning. =p Lets end with a random poem.

Though we're not under the same roof,
Or maybe we're neighbours,
But our hearts are still bulletproof.

I found myself a future to chase,
Yes i might be solo-ing other lanes,
But don't worry i sure will return to base.

Each finger is a year and our friendship is more than a palm,
I've grown and learn from you guys,
Together with you guys i know there will be no harm.

I found The One that i'll wait till the end,
Yes, there's a chance i'll fall again,
But i know my buddies will be my umbrella while it's pouring rain.

I chose my path to risk everything i have,
I bet my last coin to be where she's at,
By then My friendz and family is what i have left.

Here describes love has no boundaries,
I'll do anything for her,
Even if i have to live in misery.

I love my family,
I love my friendz,
And i love her Soo.

I'm not giving up anything,
Everything that i care,
Has been granted to be,
My Heart and Soul.

Kids

Chu 4 17th Feb 2010

On this very day i met 2 of de most cutest living thing on the planet. They are like sooooo SUUUUuper hyperactive and i cant bare "not" to smile or laugh when i see them. They just bring joy and colors your colourless life. You can even laugh when you see them cry, thats a little pity for them though.

Today! I mean, Just Now! One slept in my car (Hui) but tried to keep her awake coz the informent (Maerly Auntie) informed that she has high percentage to carry out 尿床.. Muahahahahah~ But in the end she still slept like a cute pig, Luckily it didn't happened if not i have to burn the midnight oil washing off the smell. Guess what, the other treated me as her bed while i was watching the dances halfway (Xian) Soooooo Cute. Fortunately, the Goddess have arrived to save the day (Maerly Auntie) again! (Actually this is b4 sending Ah Hui Home) So she was sent back to heaven b4 the show ended. Can't reli blame me from liking this kids so much. May be it is because it's been a long time since i heard kids laughing for no reason and i can just feel the freedom of laughter. It's fun havin them around yet it annoys when it is too much.. =p ooOops~ HAhahahah~ Anyways, there they are.

~PRESENTING~

!~! Tada !~!

The LionG SiSterS

Ah Hui The Big Sis
Ah Xian a.k.a Cute Xian

Goodnight Folks! Treat your kids well as this kind of Joy and Happiness does not last long. Cherish you loved ones and Cherish every single moment with them as age grows and people change. Sweet Dreams~ Love Ya~

No matter how critical the situation is,
No matter how bad mood i'm in,
Not matter how far i am,
As long as there's you inside of me,
As long as i still see hope,
I know i have something to live for,
That's you.

I fear of his presence,
It gives me nightmares i cant imagine,
His presence,
Makes my day more sour than a lemon.

I tolerate,
But i dont know how long i can last,
Your forgiveness i truly appreciate,
But is it worth trust?

My head are full of questions,
I try to keep it to myself,
Too many relations,
I cant find no one to help.

I'm on my own,
I have chosen this road,
The feeling slowly grows,
Hope you can hang on tight,
Together we hold.

在树上唱歌

你说的每个笑话我都笑了
是你变幽默还是我变快乐
好久不见你说我大不相同
偷偷告诉你我的兴趣真心了

不想把每件事情都那么严格
弄的全世界好像只剩挫折
爱一朵花不在看它能开多久
放宽了心情把什么都变美了

想要光着脚丫在树上唱歌
好多事物全被缩小了
心里不想放的就去了算了
让太阳把脸庞给晒得红彤彤
想要吹着口哨在树上唱歌
遥想开往远方的火车
可以那么轻快的穿过山洞
当树上还很空你要不要陪我

你说的每个笑话我都笑了
是你变幽默还是我变快乐
好久不见你说我大不相同
偷偷告诉你我的兴趣真心了

不想把每件事情都那么严格
弄的全世界好像只剩挫折
爱一朵花不在看它能开多久
放宽了心情把什么都变美了

想要光着脚丫在树上唱歌
好多事物全被缩小了
心里不想放的就去了算了
让太阳把脸庞给晒得红彤彤
想要吹着口哨在树上唱歌
遥想开往远方的火车
可以那么轻快的穿过山洞
当树上还很空你要不要陪我

想要光着脚丫在树上唱歌
好多事物全被缩小了
心里不想放的就去了算了
让太阳把脸庞给晒得红彤彤
想要吹着口哨在树上唱歌
遥想开往远方的火车
可以那么轻快的穿过山洞
当树上还很空你要不要陪我

每当听到这首歌，就会不知不觉地想起你。你和歌里的女孩一模一样，很开心的过日子，和把每件事看得很轻松。你也是常当作只有你一个人，那我可不可以填那空位啊？让我陪着你，不再让你孤独。看到你开心我自然的也会开心，看到你失落我自然的很像把你抱紧让你痛哭忘哀。当你觉得你孤单，不要忘了还有我，一直默默在后面支持你，等着你。晚安！love ya~

I'm learning to be,
What I'm wanting to be,
That will be,
A Better Man than anyone else can be.

Though sometimes you are close to me,
But the heart still felt far from thee,
People say or you said we not might,
But i think we can reach great height.

Ignore the taunt,
Don let them haunt,
Not now i know you need time,
Let the clock tick while we understand each other beside the shrine.

Every move is to know and care for you,
Every step i take is to learn how to love you,
You i must say i DO care,
I can be the one with you to share.

I have found my path,
I hope it will be my last,
Don't worry everything will be alright,
Let give it an ending,
GOOD NIGHT!~

Everytime you recall one of your pain,
I myself is the one that also gain,

It doesn't matter how i feel,
What matters most is what you feel,

I can bare the pain everytime i hear you say the name,
What i cant bare is to see you sad when you say out the name,

Doesn't matter how much tears there will be,
For you my shoulder as shelter for you always will be,

I will stay beside to assist you in any way,
So your world of pure white will not turn grey,

Keep me in mind,
Him you don't have to mind,

I promised to commit,
My own given task i will submit,

I assure you that i'm different,
So whenever you need me,
I'll listen.

我愿意，不埋怨，我能扛下所有的痛，因为这样才有能力陪你度过。
喜欢我也好，不喜欢我也好，我决定为你留下，就得完成一切。

Voices of the present 0207 hours

1. This year i kept myself here for you.
2. I kept myself cause i still feel "un"capable to live outside my world.
3. I feel uneasy when i see wad i dont like to see coz i'm worried.
4. Its happy to see you happy,so don't worry bout me being unhappy.
5. I remind cause i care.
6. I nag like your mom cause i care as much as her.
7. I wait because i respect,love n trust you.
8. All i've done is from the heart and you owe me ntg.
9. I pray every nite for my family me frens and of course you.
10. I wish you could look me in the eyes and give me the chance.

Gd nite~ Swe3t Dreams~

~Valentines~
roses are red,
violets are blue,
always keep in mind,
look around,
you're not alone,
don walk behind me,
don rush too ahead of me,
beside there will always be me,
Being with you.

~Today~
I cant stop thinking,
I kept on believing,
What's the use of keeping that name,
Its no good to me,
Everytime his name gives me the shame.

I tried hard to gain trust,
I learn not to be harsh,
I treasure every moment i have now,
I hope one day when i fall down,
It's you that will be the first to ask how?

Realizing nothing is fair,
Since everything turned me down made me live in despair,
Growing and learning to be strong,
To be the best among.

Neither I'm not gonna force,
Nor gonna push,
Even you accepted a same horse,
Doesnt mean we nid to be on the same course.

Freedom is what we need,
Its everyones wish,
I promise I'll keep cool and grow like a seed,
2gether both ways we swim like a freed fish.

Your smile comforts me with such power,
I feel better even if i fell from a tower,
Walking side to side havin the same mission,
Can i guess that you listened?

I will wait till the day,
The day i am truly capable,
To be a man of responsible.

Eye lids hanging with tons of kilo...anyways...good nite guyz

You must know,
Because of your glow,
I am more than what i am now,
Without you i'll be wondering how.

Just For You

I'm planning..
To let you remember me..
That i'm waiting..
I'm always around you..
I'll let you remember this for the rest of your life..

Felt the repellent,
Or it was just me,
Cant get it off my head,
Should i just leave?

I made my wish,
I want to commit,
For all just i'll ask,
A chance for me?

May be not now,
May be not then,
For now time might be the test,
Now i must confess.

I'm still not good enough,
So much i not yet know to do,
But i made up my mind as i no more will choose,
Coz i want her to be you.

Since the day i made my wish and you did granted it.. But after that, i realize all i said was all about me.. Yes, being with you is like heaven.. Now, i see that it is not enough.. Being with you, it's not about me anymore.. I nid to commit to you and of course a little for myself.. I hope that not only that i'm happy when we're out together.. also you must feel the same.. or any other way that is not related to unhappy.. I nid you to trust me.. share with me.. let me know what to do to help in any way.. You are no more alone.. Because i'm always around.. keep that in mind.. Keeping secrets, Feeling down, Distancing from the person that likes you, it's all perfectly natural.. I understand.. so remember.. I'm always here for you.. No matter what it takes.. just pick up that phone and dial my number.. Goodnyt!

付出真心, 才会得到真心; 却也能伤得彻底. 保持距离, 就能保护自己; 却也注定永远寂寞.

Got this from a fren.. reli nice.. so i'm gonna answer to it..

我选者付出，因为想得到你的真心。虽然有可能被伤的彻底，但是伤心代表我真的喜欢你。
用心的了解，用心地聆听，真心的考虑，真心地对待，真心地看待，真心的相爱, 机会一直都摆在眼前等待。

Sometime i spy on you,
To know more than few,
In other words i'm giving extra attention,
When you're not paying attention.

Sorrows unhappiness shall vanish,
No more there will be acts so childish,
Your style culture and sophisticated,
By you I am so manipulted.

When will thee compromise,
I'm willing to give sacrifice,
Step out of the box,
In the outside world together many we can unlock.

Have belief,
Your the one woman i want to be with,
Without a doubt.
Your the one woman i cant be with-out.

6/2/2010 MY BIRTHDAY!

Well.. Yesterday's Birthday was one of the best i've ever had in 20 years... Nvr had a gathering celebration like this since 8-10 years ago i can say? It totally touched my heart... Everything... Thank you for ervything Marlene, JB, BoyBoy, Rui Di, Kevin, Jia Xuan, Everise and all the others... First time in front of all the ppl at TANJUNG they sang happy birthday to me and SHU SHU lao shi... And thank you Marlene for your card and the book.. I gotta say you reli know how to pick the title...And and and the happiest thing happened is that i gotta spend my birthday with someone that is really special to me... Thanks for letting me join you... though u din reli look good today... Sorry for the "too much askin" coz if something is bugging you... you can tell me... I'm all ears.... I'm concerned and wanna know more bout you... Of course couldn't forget my frens Kiong Long Ck Louis NiNi and the others... Some didn't join but i know they still love me... LOL... Well... and yesterday I wished for 3 wishes... Marlene said 1 is enough but every year i give myself 3 so... hahaha... 1st was i wish that my present for my parents can change everything from now on then... and this morning i kinda felt it did... went home and 2 something.. but my dad didn't questioned bout it... instead he asked me to checked the car and he guided me... WoohOoo... but im not gonna take advantage of that coz he's still my father... Don let your folks worry too much ya... 2nd wish was a wish that i pulled all my guts out to ask permission b4 even start wishing... i was allowed and i wish that she can carefully and from the bottom of her heart listen to the voice within... 3rd wish of course i'm gonna keep it to myself... muahahaha... anyways... Great Birthday.. Great Year.. It's a new year and hope everything gets better...

PS: Today is Cindy Goh's Birthday... Happy Birthday! :)

Tried to take from different angles but in the end i got these 2.. :)

Happy Birthday to me!
Thank you for all the wishes my frens!
Thank you for all the blessings!
and finnaly i wanna say thank you to MY PARENTS.
Love ya all.. From onwards everything for me is gonna change.

One day i hope when i take each step,
Each step,
I can sense,
I can feel,
That i'm no more walkin alone,
I look at the shadows below,
A figure that i recognize most,
It's you that i love most,
It's you i want to be with the most,
Its your happiness that i long,
Your responsibilities will be mine to belong,
Till the last breath,
Your the best present i've ever had.
Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I'm goin to bed now,
So i can have a chance,
To dream of you.

I've been through hell,
Hiding under my pillow and yell,
I stayed beyond the pale,
I will not choose to fail.

I've no one to rely,
So even to myself i have to lie,
No one heard my cry,
Shall i live or choose to die?

I've been in war with pain,
For years i live in vain,
I cant bare in pouring rain,
I'm alone between lost and gain.

I deicided to write,
Express everything every night,
I hold back every drop of tears with all my might,
Just so one day i'll see the light.

The day light came shine before me,
I see two figures trying to guide me,
Slowly as time passes i'm able to see clearly,
That i'm actually growing in a big tree.

My two angels continue to show,
Coz i barely can handle and aim with my bow,
Till the day i found my goal,
I live for someone,aiming for the glow.

But the angels wasnt done,
I'm still neither able to walk nor run,
Their encouragement gave me strength to walk out under the sun,
Coz I am protected as i am God's son.

Thank you Marlene,
You creative mind i admire most,
You creation inspires me from coast-to-coast,
You guided me like your own child,
Thank you for your love and care,
Thank you for your help with my affair.

Thank you JB,
You showed me how life must be systematically planned,
You showed me how special and important i am compared to a brand,
You also guided though i'm not your brother,
Thank you for your love and care,
Thank you for your help with my affair.

Thank you Both,
Your advises i'll keep in mind,
For you led me to a path that shine,
You guided me when i'm off guard,
i appreciate and blessed you with all my heart.


















No matter how much there's dark left in me or what i see,
There's always the angel's candles to guide me.

I feel for you,
But do you feel the same?
I wanna commit to you,
Or you just feel lame?

You didn't reject,
Totally not what i expect,
Though u oso din accept,
Was it just a test?

But it is already a past,
Nothing much to ask,
I gave myself a task,
To fight till the last.

You've got all the support,
With the encouragement,
I continue to stay and pray to lord,
You will have the might to make a daring decision.

You've made my day,
Latter-days ppl ask me "hey! you look like you in a good mood today"
I have only one way to answer and there's no other way,
I have my reason that i chose to stay.

I've learned to stay calm,
I'm curing all the harm done,
I hope for a journey that is long,
For me and you will be count as one.

This is DKMY reporting on duty,
For my simpleness is what created this beauty.

忘我

今天很开心！练球很累很累，但是过后又不知不觉的充满活力。是因为妳吗？还是我就是这种野蛮力气用不完的超人。哈哈哈哈！

一天一天得过，总觉得我的世界跟以前比起来亮了许多。慢慢学会原谅，忍耐度也比以前强了许多，慢慢学会勇敢的去选者新鲜的东西，新朋友当然也交了很多。其实我很想感谢很多人。

首先，坦白地说我想谢谢莞婷。因为他对家人的爱让我怀疑上帝的力量，真的有酱强吗？我又回到教堂了！但是，没有每次去啦 =p哈哈哈哈！感觉到温暖，感觉到很多的爱。过后，当然得感谢我自己！做么叻？因为我坚持写作才可以认识到今天的两位大人和pujut教堂的老一代朋友。谢谢 JB！谢谢Marlene！你们两位真的帮了我很多很多！虽然都是失败，但是你们给我和对我的信心让我看得开一切，也让我有这个耐心，勇气，忠心和毅力得坚持决定我的决定。忠！正！毅！勇！智！诚！和！礼！哈哈哈哈。。八德都出来了，还不厉害！？真的谢谢你们！还有还有，我当然没忘记年轻一代的教堂朋友，BoyBoy，Errrrr 还不是很记得名字，哈哈哈哈。。SrySry！

那天见了U.Lucas，他让我发现了很多我自己都没去想过的东西。说来话长，我的心真的有酱强吗？我为什么可以活到想在？为什么当初有机会跳下去而最后又回头呢？为什么身边一切的恨我都可以容忍至今？就算再伤心的是为什么我留不下泪水？是习惯了吗？还是因为过去到现在的痛而磨练出来的？9-10岁天真的我，没人或不选者投靠。中学的我，还是一样孤零零的一个人扛下所有的委屈。当初被逼到寂寞便捷的时候，没人诉苦，没肩好借着痛哭。但是，我还是一个人熬过去了。至今，我仍然保持沉默接受一切面对未来听着别人的批评看着别人的指指点点。这些都去所谓了，我为我目标而活，我为我想做的事而活，我为我朋友而活，我为我心爱的而活，我为我可以改变和解决这些痛苦的未来而活！我已经忘了我，我只为他人和其事继续活下去。

PS：如果我的华语有点难明白的话就不要怪我啦。因为太久没动华语了，所以可能会有点Cacat。哈哈哈哈哈！我希望可以借着这些开心事去掉以前我黑暗的世界。

Your smile,
Your presence,
Not for a while,
Freed my burden soul,
Made me a new whole.
When I see you,
When I heard of you,
Always,
I feel such grace,
Forgotten the disgrace.
Being with you,
Talking with you,
Even if its only a while,
Everything I do for it is worthwhile.
I wish one day you’ll realize my sincerity,
Though I’m not that much of popularity,
I thought of various ways,
So for one chance you’ll look at me in a different angle,
Even if you didn’t reli say Okay,
You will still be my Angel.

My feelings for you isn't what they call infatuation,
Nor can it be called limerence,
Your happiness my commitment my mission,
Soon you'll see the difference.

True love will never end,
But how it ended depends.