Since the day i knew about you,
Everything just gone wrong.

Another new start?
From Curtin to Nilai then finally China here i come.. Last call.. Take it or leave it.. I use to have all the time but now it's not like that anymore..

Family changed me, Friends changed me but time really did its work turning me around.. Family, Studies then comes love..

I may look and sound cold, i may feel annoyed, bothered, irritated and tired.. Actually i still care.. I may have done the NOT TO DOs but i'm still me..

I may not my family as much as others do.. but we all have one thing in common.. We love them..
We choose our friends, we choose who to be with not others think who we should be with..

When it comes to love, seriously i'm as noob as dumb and dumber.. or may be dumber.. i have no experience.. in any LOVE shit.. so.. forget it.. Or i'll consider if one day i meet a girl that really wants know me.. :)

Anyways, 5 hours to my Flight to China..

Loves to all my friends who came to meet up.. Appreciate it.. MUCH!LOTS!LOVES!

And to someone that i love too.. A hug makes us feel closer.. i agree.. it really does.. You won't forget how warm and how real the love is..

Goodbye Miri, Goodbye Msia.. See you in CNY..

Happy Valentines

Though thee i wished but i have not spoken to,

Desperate and fear made me look like a fool,

A fool that's madly in love with she,

A fool that knows it's not meant to be.

-Being in love is the most non-selfish things we've done because we give out love no matter what-

-Happy Valentines-

I like you so much,

But i know you cant be mine that much,

that is why,

I'm just gonna say goodbye.

没有了空间，就没有了思念。
没有了思念，就不会有等待。
没有了等待，就失去了兴趣。

Went to watch a movie, New Year's Eve it was and i must say it was the most AWESOME! EXTRAORDINATY! TOUCHING! A MUST SEE!

It had the funniest ( RUSSELL PETERS), hottest male and female susperstars, best script ever. The story was sooooo good i smiled all the way.

After the show i went out i saw the poster and i wanted to look at the actors again, guess wad, was so pissed that they didn't put russell peters in the list. May be they put another name but who care, there was no russell peters. If they put his name in it i assure you the sales will fly up through the roof.

Anyways, main point. After the really nice and touching movie, i unlock my phone (which is the one thing i'll do after everything i do) i see a great smile that really really emphasize and magnified everything that i've heard and seen from the movie. The feeling was sooo sooo good. UNIMAGINABLE!!

Your smile, Is everything now.

Goodnight

Sometimes just knowing and understanding about what you love to do just makes me have doubts.. I like you but i don't deserve to like you if i can't even like what you like.. it's not that i hate it.. it's just that i'm not that interested in it.. can you accept that? Many love stories stops halfway because they found out how much they know about each other and realizing or predicting things may be work out..

你是我生命的动力，

你的名字已牢牢地刻在心里，

不顾一切是爱情的魔力，

你知不知道我对你的真心。

每次你走过我都傻傻看着你，

记忆里的你总是温柔贴心，

想起你的笑与你的美，

不论寂寞快乐都是最美的回忆。

Just looking at you makes me wonder, of nothing. I just want to look at you and blend into the most attractive smile i've ever seen.

热汤

这段爱情，

被撒满了热汤，

难忘的情，

刺痛在我心肠。

过去的风风雨雨，

感觉都是白费力气，

我爱你的心，

已经远远离去。

这段爱情，

过得像梦一场，

梦里的情，

该醒来做个了断。

过去的甜言蜜语，

都变成了花言巧语，

属于你的心，

我抛下了，天涯海去。

在那夜的雨里你转身离去，

以经告诉我你决定要放弃，

我伸出我双手，

想再一次挽留，

但时间却不让你回流。

在那夜里你一步一步离去，

我以深受体会到你的坚信，

说这是为我好，

说这是为你好，

因为时间错过就不能回头，

倒掉的热汤，不能回流。

I get the best feeling in the world then you say hi or smile to me because i know that, even its just for a second, that i've crossed your mind.. :)

我的痛，只有我自己懂。

总是喜欢在如此孤独的夜里ˋ翻起过去ˋ

那些被自己深埋心底的往事ˋ

得到的ˋ拥有的ˋ失去的ˋ

有种恍然如梦的感觉ˋ

一直都很明白ˋ自己是不该沉迷于过去的〃

其实ˋ我是害怕深夜的ˋ会有一种无尽的寂寞袭向我〃

我却又喜欢深夜ˋ因为只有周围漆黑一片ˋ我和我的泪才是安全的〃♥

I'm losing it.. Feel like gonna lose the touch.. GOodnight cruel World~

生命里也许我遇见了许多她，

不知道哪一个才真正属于我，

但是过去我一一都非常珍惜，

酸甜苦辣忧愁欢笑我都记得。

RIP

Life is so tough to live through,

Life is easy to let go,

Life decisions are made only by you,

Life spins around as you grow.

Letting go of life, no more chances,

Letting go of life, uncountable unpleasant,

Letting go of life, forever be gone,

Letting go of life, is wrong.

Live as it is your last,

Living for thee may just forever be that tough,

Live it, may be it will come to an end,

Live strong, just got to hold on in vein.

Lives created,

Lives born,

Lives shattered,

Lives lightened.

Looking for an answer to all questions,

Looking for someone to lend a shoulder,

Looking for a cure to this rupture,

Looking for a reason to get over.

A life was given up and it is sad to hear, RIP little girl.

Letting go

Letting you,

Cause i know,

You were only half way there,

Even though, we were close,

I was holding on just enough to know,

I should be letting go,

I should let you go.

为什么这样子！？？！？！？？！！？！？！？！？！？！？！？！？

haisssssss... 继续努力吧~

应该给你多点爱，我爱你！！

Pls pls pls.. 我会加把劲的！！！

Fear was not the word,

Anxious is kind of me but no,

Familiar similar kind of weird,

I hid and reluctant to show.

I know this feeling,

I've seen too much,

I lie and stared at my ceiling,

Into thin air i stubbornly punched.

Outside everything is new,

In front of the mirror i was still a still,

Almost the same guy i knew,

I hope this isn't real.

A simple Hi, maybe?

To be or not to be?

That is the question?

Where was my passion?

Observing near and far,

The model i'm trying to paint,

Trying without making scars,

When will me meet again?

Nilai, BORING

Hiiiiiii Blog, long time no see! I'm finally out where i always wished i could, which is AWAY from home. It sounds bad but it really isn't. I just like to be away and try to take care of myself, do my own things at my own will. It's not like i don't like home, it's just that i love it so much being outside. OKAY! stop talking bout the past.

NILAI UNIVERSITY COLLEGE IS SUUUUPPPPEEERRRRR BOOOOORIIIIIING! LOOOOOL! thought i'll say kewl right? NOT! HAHAHAHAA!! Oh well, it has it's kewl places which it has a piano in the activity room which i can frequently play and relax myself before every exam. They have a drum team her which is oso kewl. But, i was being unKEWL trying to avoid and not joining coz i swear i will not touch lion dancing again.. TROLOLOLOL..

Every day before night (AFTER CLASS) i'll have some fun at the ball court, well not everyday, but sometimes. Did i mention i joined the school team? It was fun competiting with people that you completely don't know and people that you completely don't know staring at you. ESPECIALLY when you wear a PINK KOBE!! HAHAHAH! well it was fun.

After basketball or wadever i'm doing besides that, i'll have my dinner. Then,i head over to the activity room or common room. AAANNNDD i study == zzz ... JAM right? oh well, i have no choice.. plus i like aeroplane stuff now. It's kewl that i finally know how a plane can climb up to the sky ^^.

Nways! thats all of it.. SO SHORT RIGHT?! thats why i called it boring.. LOL... HAVE A NICE DAY YA'LL

GOOOOOOOODNIGHT~

Outside of my New Window

New faces,

New friends,

New room,

New uniforms,

New shoes,

New look,

New fresh greens,

New fresh air,

A whole new world,

A whole new road,

A whole new chosen goal.

First day, new view out my window,

Sunrise stood high waking me from my pillow,

Its blushed round figure enlightens the day,

Guiding me down a new hallway.

Surrounded by strangers that one day i may know,

Surrounded by new buildings where i learn new things,

A 360 turn around i saw a glow ,

Appeared a sign to glory that i'll follow.

Changes in everything i've ever done,

Changes in everything of how i sound,

Scattered pieces becoming a one,

Maybe this is where things come around.

End of the day again i looked out my window,

Traced back what i've done that day,

Recall every new pieces on that day,

Rewriting the memories that was gray.

Tonight, tomorrow and the day after,

I can live this every new day,

I will build my own bay

This is what i've always craved.

Lying back onto my pillow,

Listening to the owls on the willow,

Waiting for every new tomorrow,

Ready for whats Outside of my new window.