Went to watch a movie, New Year's Eve it was and i must say it was the most AWESOME! EXTRAORDINATY! TOUCHING! A MUST SEE!

It had the funniest ( RUSSELL PETERS), hottest male and female susperstars, best script ever. The story was sooooo good i smiled all the way.

After the show i went out i saw the poster and i wanted to look at the actors again, guess wad, was so pissed that they didn't put russell peters in the list. May be they put another name but who care, there was no russell peters. If they put his name in it i assure you the sales will fly up through the roof.

Anyways, main point. After the really nice and touching movie, i unlock my phone (which is the one thing i'll do after everything i do) i see a great smile that really really emphasize and magnified everything that i've heard and seen from the movie. The feeling was sooo sooo good. UNIMAGINABLE!!

Your smile, Is everything now.

Goodnight

Sometimes just knowing and understanding about what you love to do just makes me have doubts.. I like you but i don't deserve to like you if i can't even like what you like.. it's not that i hate it.. it's just that i'm not that interested in it.. can you accept that? Many love stories stops halfway because they found out how much they know about each other and realizing or predicting things may be work out..

你是我生命的动力，

你的名字已牢牢地刻在心里，

不顾一切是爱情的魔力，

你知不知道我对你的真心。

每次你走过我都傻傻看着你，

记忆里的你总是温柔贴心，

想起你的笑与你的美，

不论寂寞快乐都是最美的回忆。

Just looking at you makes me wonder, of nothing. I just want to look at you and blend into the most attractive smile i've ever seen.

热汤

这段爱情，

被撒满了热汤，

难忘的情，

刺痛在我心肠。

过去的风风雨雨，

感觉都是白费力气，

我爱你的心，

已经远远离去。

这段爱情，

过得像梦一场，

梦里的情，

该醒来做个了断。

过去的甜言蜜语，

都变成了花言巧语，

属于你的心，

我抛下了，天涯海去。

在那夜的雨里你转身离去，

以经告诉我你决定要放弃，

我伸出我双手，

想再一次挽留，

但时间却不让你回流。

在那夜里你一步一步离去，

我以深受体会到你的坚信，

说这是为我好，

说这是为你好，

因为时间错过就不能回头，

倒掉的热汤，不能回流。

I get the best feeling in the world then you say hi or smile to me because i know that, even its just for a second, that i've crossed your mind.. :)

我的痛，只有我自己懂。

总是喜欢在如此孤独的夜里ˋ翻起过去ˋ

那些被自己深埋心底的往事ˋ

得到的ˋ拥有的ˋ失去的ˋ

有种恍然如梦的感觉ˋ

一直都很明白ˋ自己是不该沉迷于过去的〃

其实ˋ我是害怕深夜的ˋ会有一种无尽的寂寞袭向我〃

我却又喜欢深夜ˋ因为只有周围漆黑一片ˋ我和我的泪才是安全的〃♥

I'm losing it.. Feel like gonna lose the touch.. GOodnight cruel World~

生命里也许我遇见了许多她，

不知道哪一个才真正属于我，

但是过去我一一都非常珍惜，

酸甜苦辣忧愁欢笑我都记得。

RIP

Life is so tough to live through,

Life is easy to let go,

Life decisions are made only by you,

Life spins around as you grow.

Letting go of life, no more chances,

Letting go of life, uncountable unpleasant,

Letting go of life, forever be gone,

Letting go of life, is wrong.

Live as it is your last,

Living for thee may just forever be that tough,

Live it, may be it will come to an end,

Live strong, just got to hold on in vein.

Lives created,

Lives born,

Lives shattered,

Lives lightened.

Looking for an answer to all questions,

Looking for someone to lend a shoulder,

Looking for a cure to this rupture,

Looking for a reason to get over.

A life was given up and it is sad to hear, RIP little girl.

Letting go

Letting you,

Cause i know,

You were only half way there,

Even though, we were close,

I was holding on just enough to know,

I should be letting go,

I should let you go.

为什么这样子！？？！？！？？！！？！？！？！？！？！？！？！？

haisssssss... 继续努力吧~

应该给你多点爱，我爱你！！

Pls pls pls.. 我会加把劲的！！！

Fear was not the word,

Anxious is kind of me but no,

Familiar similar kind of weird,

I hid and reluctant to show.

I know this feeling,

I've seen too much,

I lie and stared at my ceiling,

Into thin air i stubbornly punched.

Outside everything is new,

In front of the mirror i was still a still,

Almost the same guy i knew,

I hope this isn't real.

A simple Hi, maybe?

To be or not to be?

That is the question?

Where was my passion?

Observing near and far,

The model i'm trying to paint,

Trying without making scars,

When will me meet again?

Nilai, BORING

Hiiiiiii Blog, long time no see! I'm finally out where i always wished i could, which is AWAY from home. It sounds bad but it really isn't. I just like to be away and try to take care of myself, do my own things at my own will. It's not like i don't like home, it's just that i love it so much being outside. OKAY! stop talking bout the past.

NILAI UNIVERSITY COLLEGE IS SUUUUPPPPEEERRRRR BOOOOORIIIIIING! LOOOOOL! thought i'll say kewl right? NOT! HAHAHAHAA!! Oh well, it has it's kewl places which it has a piano in the activity room which i can frequently play and relax myself before every exam. They have a drum team her which is oso kewl. But, i was being unKEWL trying to avoid and not joining coz i swear i will not touch lion dancing again.. TROLOLOLOL..

Every day before night (AFTER CLASS) i'll have some fun at the ball court, well not everyday, but sometimes. Did i mention i joined the school team? It was fun competiting with people that you completely don't know and people that you completely don't know staring at you. ESPECIALLY when you wear a PINK KOBE!! HAHAHAH! well it was fun.

After basketball or wadever i'm doing besides that, i'll have my dinner. Then,i head over to the activity room or common room. AAANNNDD i study == zzz ... JAM right? oh well, i have no choice.. plus i like aeroplane stuff now. It's kewl that i finally know how a plane can climb up to the sky ^^.

Nways! thats all of it.. SO SHORT RIGHT?! thats why i called it boring.. LOL... HAVE A NICE DAY YA'LL

GOOOOOOOODNIGHT~

Outside of my New Window

New faces,

New friends,

New room,

New uniforms,

New shoes,

New look,

New fresh greens,

New fresh air,

A whole new world,

A whole new road,

A whole new chosen goal.

First day, new view out my window,

Sunrise stood high waking me from my pillow,

Its blushed round figure enlightens the day,

Guiding me down a new hallway.

Surrounded by strangers that one day i may know,

Surrounded by new buildings where i learn new things,

A 360 turn around i saw a glow ,

Appeared a sign to glory that i'll follow.

Changes in everything i've ever done,

Changes in everything of how i sound,

Scattered pieces becoming a one,

Maybe this is where things come around.

End of the day again i looked out my window,

Traced back what i've done that day,

Recall every new pieces on that day,

Rewriting the memories that was gray.

Tonight, tomorrow and the day after,

I can live this every new day,

I will build my own bay

This is what i've always craved.

Lying back onto my pillow,

Listening to the owls on the willow,

Waiting for every new tomorrow,

Ready for whats Outside of my new window.

Stepping forward in this endless beat,

No more i'm taking detours,

I can't tell you how sure,

How sure how much can i do for you the least.

朋友也做不成吗？

对，我看不开！

我还是想着你！

我想知道你的情况​！

我想关心你！

不行吗？！

以朋友的身份不行吗？！

你一直说顺起自​然，

自然到可以不告而别吗?

我后悔走出那扇门，

我后悔不接你的电话，

我固执，我好强，

我知错！

但是，

我没有爱错。

世界上根本就没有爱错这回事。

一年过了，

我还是对你放不下，

那一夜过后，我们再也没有联络。

我真的真的后悔，对不起！

难道非要搞到有你没有我的场面吗？

我知道你是不会回头的，

我只希望我们还是可以做朋友。

偶尔知道各自在干嘛。

下次见面我真的不知道该怎么办。

Sometimes there are scars that cannot be seen..

Scars that comes unexpectedly..

Blame it on my self greed..

Too much, may be just too much that i have leaned..

Less but bloody dreadful texts..

Whirls your mind to a mess..

Slammed in front with a mace..

It went to far, it is not my chase..

A whole i know that i never can get near..

Reality it is that i must be feared..

Indulged to what it is now and then..

Depends on self to live or die in the Demon's Den..

”突爆“

本来心情很好的，开一下电脑，翻翻学校的网站准备明天的考试。有一点迟才告诉你星期二去sibu，反正考试都完了所以觉得应该没什么问题。哪里知道！hais，我真得不知道你要我怎样。过后我都解释了几遍，重复了几遍说已经考完了，考完了才去！考完了当然是放假嘛。他说”你不要玩酱多这样的东西可以吗？” =.= 我问你们，代表美里篮球队做裁判，是玩吗？我在美里比赛慢慢开始吹大人的球赛了，我也是篮总的一份子，我也想学更多，取经验，这叫玩吗？好菜你没有说我最讨厌听的话“做些有意义的东西，在家里帮忙剪草，四周围走走一下看有什么好帮忙的。”你要我每天都这样啊？kakak假的吗？真的需要帮忙我当然会帮啦！因为这样，我美好的的礼拜天提早结束了。

读书是从小就开始培养的习惯，你不会等我死了才叫我专心读书？我没有抽烟吸毒你好偷笑了好不好。你要我五年里面只读书而已？篮球你讲我玩，吹球你讲我玩，舞狮你讲我玩，酱你叫我五年只读书是自杀！篮球是运动，吹求是我的part time job， 舞狮是乐趣， 读书是一定要的。我有这样的概念我都觉得够好了。书我又不是不会读，有时候努力了你又看不到，考不好你说我没有专心。我熬夜念，你说我玩的太迟。我老实说读书不是我的专长，我只能在中等的等级而已。我自己明白自己懂，我有自知之明。为什么你就是不能支持你的儿子？为什么你一定要我学别人？为什么你一定要我这样那样？有时候放开是好的，如果你觉得篮球和舞狮都是在玩，那起初为什么不直接送我到国外？你根本就不相信我！你什么都要听别人，就是自己儿子不信。什么三年本地两年外国，什么废话！你要怎样的教养怎样的结果，就得给我怎样的开始。对！有时我自己不会想，但是我没有忘记读书。我爱打篮球，我对吹球有兴趣，舞狮改变了我，但是我没有忘记一定要读书。十六十七年没有的习惯，我会这样想我都觉得好才了。

我要去做最后的准备了，这次在考不过我真的没话说了。没人看到我的努力，我自己懂就好。反正一向来我都是一个人的，没有人会了解我。我单身，是好菜的，不然那个女的会“去笑”。

PasserBy

There's a time,

Where i'm given inspiration,

To write rhymes,

Words that carries addiction.

Friction between one and another's freedom,

The space that wanted and must be given,

Lies and faults should be forget and forgiven,

Time will force them to oblivion.

Walk into the past through my blurry dreams,

Heartache to lose my most beloved scenes,

Just a little bit a little bit more i remind myself always,

But in the end both ended up repulsing opposite ways.

One to the West,

One remains East.

Remains nothing left for me to say,

I thought life without you would be an ease.

Still there's something inside sometimes cracking,

Lost my touch lost the warmth i'm shaking,

Feels like a minute and it's almost dawn,

Empty dream i've had for long.

Starring at that pitiful reflection,

Gone old and slow with nothing more to show,

Looking back at my own creations,

Crying over the bad decisions.

Always too late or too early to decide,

Made one and self so difficult to abide,

The mistakes that i myself brought alive,

The mistakes that ruined my own life.

Am i a weakling?

Where am i going?

What am i seeking?

Will i ever, ever start again?

From the beginning...

A Sis or it just meant to be missed?

I care and i really do,

But i don't know about you,

Its not funny at all,

When you laugh about to you that i call.

How we relate now is,

Truly undeniable,

Deniable to you it is,

To me its cherish-able.

Not asking you to see,

How much i have done to be,

A dependable guy to you,

An unrelated related person which is so true.

i love you but i cant show how much i do..

so much to show but so much to throw..

if people know..

if you know..

We gotta do what we gotta do..

We don't want our days are like doomed..

Go on and on and on..

One day that loved one will give you a phone..

People will one day see..

Realize how good that you can be..

Your free..

To do anything that makes you become an antique..

How special some ONE can be..

How electrifying she is to me..

I wish i could do something..

That she would just look at me..

Ppl only give up when you when you yourself gives up.. Just like this blog.. use to be hundreds views per day.. but now.. 1 myself and few of my frens.. well.. there's always second chances.. :)

Life

Running in a never ending path,

Said never ending yet its so confusing,

It turns upside down , in and out,

It takes time to figure it out.

Cries and light,

Shivers and blows with might,

Sometimes it makes you feel will so tight,

At time we feel that we wanna go out of sight.

It is a powerful thing,

It comes at you at unexpected times,

It may be smooth throughout all times,

It may be rough sometimes.

We cannot deny,

We must decide,

Because It is what It is,

It's Life.

The edge of the window,

Lies the almighty widow,

Never it'll let its dignity go below,

Never it'll let its web blow our of the window.

Giant army of ants crawling round its hill,

Up and down and in and out,

Where else to find another creature with such will,

They sure are good models, no doubt.

BumbleBee oh Bumble Bee,

Buzzing busying with their honey,

For their Queen their sacred Goddess,

Such loyalty is worth for us to harvest.

Neither match to a widow ant nor BumbleBee,

Thats absurd i have to say to thee,

We humans are the smartest creature in time,

So hope thee learn and utilize from this little rhyme.

A day for a day,

Presents depends on past tense,

A move creates a chance,

Each different move makes a change.

Thoughts become words,

Words become actions,

Action become habits,

Habits become character,

Your character becomes your destiny.

Good Friday

A day to be remembered,

A day to be treasured,

For the one sacrificed for us,

For the one gave us forever love.

Dragged through the crowd that carried tears,

Yet still thee carried pride beneath,

Hearts and hopes people thought gone,

But soon he knows they'll be wrong.

Upright nailed on the sacred cross,

Under and through day and night,

A ring-shaped crown worn like a King,

Held on and on either or Sunlight and Moonlight.

Thank Jesus Christ,

Thank Thee the Lord,

Thank he whom sacrificed,

Thank You for all you've done.

God Bless

To me love forever exists,

You turn my heartbeat so fast,

This love have so much to resist,

For only presence will always last.

Only times,

Certain times,

We hang out,

Sit and speak out.

Once was not mine,

Once wasn't meant to be mine,

A similar figure,

A similar voice.

Advised to stay away,

Advised no more to be in fray,

Something i just have to stay away,

But love rush is so hard to evade.

I can only be what i am now,

I've lost confidence once and i am still without it now,

I'm not ready i'm telling myself,

For now just let it be,

Where and when now let it be how it suppose to be.

其实我也不知道

你的眼光其实我都感觉得到
有些事情本来就很奥妙
无心的玩笑故意挑剔的争吵
都是爱情的前兆
你的眼泪其实我也感觉得到
有些事情真的很难预料
爱情的面前我们真的太渺小
应该怎麽说才好
其实我也不知道其实我也很苦恼
其实我很害怕你想要的我都做不到
除了紧紧的拥抱谁能承诺天荒地老
我的苦笑是否你能明了
其实我也不知道其实我也很煎熬
其实我也想过放弃一切什麽都不要
缘份如此美妙却又如此困扰
是欢笑迷宫又像寂寞监牢
让人只想逃跑
嘿谢谢你对我那麽好
我常常觉得无以回报
爱就是这麽微妙
它无法强求它出现的时候不必寻找

Time to say Goodbye,

No more to be aside,

Alone to mourn in the corner,

Yet to bring a smile after a while.

Gotta give up what i love most,

Gotta give up what i'm keen of,

May be for a while i'm lost,

But i'll make it, it's been so long.

Getting in ain't hard,

Getting along takes time,

Bonding creates feeling,

Now, letting go will the choice i'm making.

Time to focus and let go, it might be too late to say this but yea, i have to. I love Lion Dancing, i love every single part of it, each and every memory it had given me, each and every lesson it had thought me, each and every second it had been with me. The passion, the art and beauty, the spirit, the morale in Lion Dancing truly changed me but yet not perfect. To be perfect, gotta try everything, that's why i have to let go. Sooner or later, but it'll be now.

Cheers~

Nothing is ever lasting,

But it's memorable,

Memories do fade as time goes by,

But some memories will forever be carved in mind,

Especially those that i hope to be mine.

If, never to take that step,
Never, will know what's coming,
Might, turn out to be crap,
Or, it'll be just that cunning.

Anyways, all is well ends well,
Not every wish is granted from the wishing well,
A ring from the great bell,
Awakes every truth beneath ones shell.

The truth do soothens one heart,
But not always for the other,
It may leave a scar creating a part,
It may also bring two together.

Still, gotta smile through whatever that happens,
Still, gotta do whatever that has to,
Pray, God forgive if it's a sin,
Pray, God bring joy to us to what that has been.

Wandering in the mist of love,

Saw your hand reaching in and out,

Disappear reappear hear your shouts,

What can i do to get you out?

Not knowing how to care,

Or may be you just lost your touch,

Now i know i cant do much,

May be a talk during lunch?

A bit here and there, Now and then,

Just find a little something to pair,

There's things i might can do for you,

To show how much i really care.

真的不想吗？

还是因为我不够勇敢再面对？

会有可能一样吗？

单纯的关心是不够的。

In between will always be distance,

Let distance be a test of patience,

Doesn't matter whether is near or far,

As long as the heart connects, never both will be apart.

Like family like friends,

When it comes from true heart it's so hard to bend,

A fall twice falls no matter how hard you land.

There will forever someone's shoulder to lend.

Tears cheers is all the same,

It's a challenge for us to improve and change,

Meet up with happiness and vein,

Love both of them because without them, you'll forever be the same.

What comes around goes around,

Never make mistakes without making a sound,

Learn from whatever comes to you,

One day you'll know yourself how to make it through.

Share and listen i'm always here,

As a brother as a friend i'll be near,

Will be with you as long as it cheers,

Losing yourself is the only thing i fear.

You've always been strong and i know it's true,

I believe in everything you do,

You do your best to the very up most,

Just remember your not alone.

Just following your shadow,

Not knowing your looks nor your thoughts,

How can i say it is or it's not.

Hearing Listening is what i can only do,

Knowing you're sad,

Makes me feel really bad.

Whatever i am to you,

I do care at least reply,

It's good to know that your safe even if it's goodbye.

I cannot do more than what i didn't expect would happen,

In between there's a line,

For us would be so hard to combine.

Your heart is elsewhere,

I can sense that's true,

Wishing you the best is the most i can do.

A feel for you that has been slowly produced,

It's just fate made us not to be,

I hope one day will prove myself wrong,

But for now it's just not meant to be.

I wanna back to blogging life again, but i cant seem to find that feeling anymore. Felt or sense nothing, maybe i'm on the wrong track. Gonna find something to blog about if i can. Hope i can still rhyme. Goodnite!

2011 Wabbit~

Hop Hop Rabbit Hop,

Happy New year,

New hopes,

New Cheers.

Passed by,

A year full of laughter and a little fame,

Also full of cries and pain,

But,

Cheerio 2010 Goodbye,

2011 welcome HI!

Hope this would be a brand new year, turning 21. What's it gonna be like? Smiles!