If one day the clock strikes,
The day i no more have meals,
I have to live with bribe,
Life that i must steal.
There is nothing what i want more,
Nothing is worth for me to steal,
I can't find a definition of what i must do is for,
I don't even want to steal even the safe is not sealed.
One thing that is only worth it,
One thing that is worth planning,
One thing that is more precious than gold,
The only that i want to steal,
Your heart.
If i'm a thief, the only thing i wanna steal will be your heart.
Good Night~
Love you always~
Ussimi~
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
So many things to tell yet so little time left,
Too many things to do yet so little oppurtunity,
Everything is affordable as long as pure heart presents itself,
That's why i treasure every moment with you right now,
Do Love me care for me like i loved you more than anything i loved on this planet,
Little or less i dont mind,
Remember i only look at your heart,
If one day we're forced to leave apart,
Remember this and remember this always,
You will always be a part of my sky and in me.
Too many things to do yet so little oppurtunity,
Everything is affordable as long as pure heart presents itself,
That's why i treasure every moment with you right now,
Do Love me care for me like i loved you more than anything i loved on this planet,
Little or less i dont mind,
Remember i only look at your heart,
If one day we're forced to leave apart,
Remember this and remember this always,
You will always be a part of my sky and in me.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Next time
Love is not just simply about being happy when ur together, smiles, laughs, warm feeling towards one another and so on. Sometimes, i do get angry, disappointed, frustrated and some more. I chose not to show but to just keep quite and do it in another way. I'm not angry because i'm angry, i'm angry because i care. Sometimes i cant expect you to give me what i want everytime because you weren't meant to. I'm always vulnerable to the word next time because it just shows how much you don't want to at that particular moment. I insisted, but you insisted more, then i give up. Truly i'm disappointed. Again i'm disappointed not because i'm reli disappointed but felt beaten in another way and the questions in my head just pops out again. May be i'm askin too much, yes i'm asking too much. I never get what i expect, sometimes i get what i least expect, but at least there is a next time. Saw a photo in facebook, then i was thinking was not me, everyone else but me. I wonder was Olivia right about my temper, am i that nice? May be i am, or i'm just acting to be. I myself ain't even near 1% percent sure about this. Still i cant see any much attention i gained from you. Yes, a little but still there's more to go for you to know and understand and of course myself have more to find out.
Last reminder,
Recall 14th/Feb/2010.
I've gathered all my trusted ones,
Loved ones,
Cared most,
Bringing them together,
Workin sided by side,
Combine to form a heart for you,
And i lighted it up at that moment in front of you,
Just for and only you.
Feel the blessing?
It's all from the heart.
Headin to bed now.. NiteEz~
Last reminder,
Recall 14th/Feb/2010.
I've gathered all my trusted ones,
Loved ones,
Cared most,
Bringing them together,
Workin sided by side,
Combine to form a heart for you,
And i lighted it up at that moment in front of you,
Just for and only you.
Feel the blessing?
It's all from the heart.
Headin to bed now.. NiteEz~
Friday, March 26, 2010
Pray for the need
It hurts to see someone in pain,
But it hurts more when unable to pull them out of vain,
Our future is to live and let live,
Their future is destined for us to help and give.
Shy to look at our face,
The pain suffer living on a deserted dry surface,
A sip of water,
A teaspoon of grain,
They asked what is supper?
WE disgusted with some food and complain.
Learn to appreciate in presence,
As its God gifts to you as a present,
You may think you are in vain,
But the ones that can't even gain weight never complain.
Dry,
Wilt,
Hunger,
Deserted,
A little willing to save,
At least and at least,
We hold hands and pray.
But it hurts more when unable to pull them out of vain,
Our future is to live and let live,
Their future is destined for us to help and give.
Shy to look at our face,
The pain suffer living on a deserted dry surface,
A sip of water,
A teaspoon of grain,
They asked what is supper?
WE disgusted with some food and complain.
Learn to appreciate in presence,
As its God gifts to you as a present,
You may think you are in vain,
But the ones that can't even gain weight never complain.
Dry,
Wilt,
Hunger,
Deserted,
A little willing to save,
At least and at least,
We hold hands and pray.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Feel sorry to owes take your place,
For time treating u beating u in a race,
I know their time beside u not much left to stay,
But I assure I'll somehow make it up to u to repay.
This was and is in my mind now till then. Now, continue on to "Go Back To Myself Project" for HuiGor. To get him back to acknowledge my presence and absence from emoness.
People tell me! Why and ask yourselves?
Why must give up, Why?
Why Cant you finish what you started?
Don'T you or just feeling shy?
They say everyone is different in this world,
Everyone IS different i truly agree,
But only two kinds,
Standing face to face at both sides of A line.
Why am i different with him?
Why am i different with her?
Isit that he's more slim?
Or her size is just larger?
No need of numbers nor letters,
The only code to break this secret,
Accept and learn from the words or critters,
You can reach heights even if your a little midget.
Take one step forward, Just ONE step,
Discover various and new choices,
If you think it's just crap?
Then jump back to hell where you will never find Oasis.
Apply the letter B,
Apply the letter C,
Apply the letter U,
Brave, Confident and of course U yourself where it all started.
Like i said before,
Just take the first step,
You don't need to see the whole staircase,
If not you will not reach height if you cant even take one simple step.
For time treating u beating u in a race,
I know their time beside u not much left to stay,
But I assure I'll somehow make it up to u to repay.
This was and is in my mind now till then. Now, continue on to "Go Back To Myself Project" for HuiGor. To get him back to acknowledge my presence and absence from emoness.
People tell me! Why and ask yourselves?
Why must give up, Why?
Why Cant you finish what you started?
Don'T you or just feeling shy?
They say everyone is different in this world,
Everyone IS different i truly agree,
But only two kinds,
Standing face to face at both sides of A line.
Why am i different with him?
Why am i different with her?
Isit that he's more slim?
Or her size is just larger?
No need of numbers nor letters,
The only code to break this secret,
Accept and learn from the words or critters,
You can reach heights even if your a little midget.
Take one step forward, Just ONE step,
Discover various and new choices,
If you think it's just crap?
Then jump back to hell where you will never find Oasis.
Apply the letter B,
Apply the letter C,
Apply the letter U,
Brave, Confident and of course U yourself where it all started.
Like i said before,
Just take the first step,
You don't need to see the whole staircase,
If not you will not reach height if you cant even take one simple step.
Monday, March 22, 2010
Blessings under the sunshine,
Everyday seems to rhyme,
Everybody trying to run ahead of time,
Too much work to do, Too many kind.
Looking at that Square box made out of 0 and 1,
Sometimes, maybe, It might look fun,
But once you have to run,
It's worse than staying whole day under the sun.
Looking at another kind made out of wood,
One that you hold and the other to write, which student make it as dog food,
Neither it's easy to write nor look,
I rather hang myself with a hook.
Listening to noises you don't wanna hear,
Listening to news that makes you fear,
Listening to bad news that shed tears,
Listening to music that let your mind clear.
Look on the bright side,
Rather than you focus on the dark,
You can run, listen, see and even feel right,
While some just forever in the X mark.
Appreciate what you have and what your capable of,
If one day you let yourself rot,
Reconsider or just let it be and off,
Let the needs to have what they lack to be their coat.
Everyday seems to rhyme,
Everybody trying to run ahead of time,
Too much work to do, Too many kind.
Looking at that Square box made out of 0 and 1,
Sometimes, maybe, It might look fun,
But once you have to run,
It's worse than staying whole day under the sun.
Looking at another kind made out of wood,
One that you hold and the other to write, which student make it as dog food,
Neither it's easy to write nor look,
I rather hang myself with a hook.
Listening to noises you don't wanna hear,
Listening to news that makes you fear,
Listening to bad news that shed tears,
Listening to music that let your mind clear.
Look on the bright side,
Rather than you focus on the dark,
You can run, listen, see and even feel right,
While some just forever in the X mark.
Appreciate what you have and what your capable of,
If one day you let yourself rot,
Reconsider or just let it be and off,
Let the needs to have what they lack to be their coat.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
It Takes Time....
It takes time, a little time only, to make friends,
A Hello is as easy to come by,
without even realizing how much we have known,
within the circle of the new found.
It takes time, too, to choose a friend,
someone who can blend in,
who can talk and laugh,
no matter what it takes.
It takes time,though to understand someone,
someone who can talk to,
someone who can lean on to,
someone who understand whats you've been thro'.
It takes time, of course, to spend time with someone,
when at times, you need a friend,
to listen and hear you say,
about the things you longed to say.
It takes time, anyway, to hurt someone,
when you had to leave,
to be separated by oceans apart,
on the day you have to.
Its takes time, even more time, to heal the wounds,
that you make in the heart,
thats been in pain so so long,
and I doubt if i can see this thro'.
It takes time, whatever time, to heal the scars,
when am sure it will not go any fader,
For, YOU, might be forgotten,
But the scars will remain FOREVER.
A Hello is as easy to come by,
without even realizing how much we have known,
within the circle of the new found.
It takes time, too, to choose a friend,
someone who can blend in,
who can talk and laugh,
no matter what it takes.
It takes time,though to understand someone,
someone who can talk to,
someone who can lean on to,
someone who understand whats you've been thro'.
It takes time, of course, to spend time with someone,
when at times, you need a friend,
to listen and hear you say,
about the things you longed to say.
It takes time, anyway, to hurt someone,
when you had to leave,
to be separated by oceans apart,
on the day you have to.
Its takes time, even more time, to heal the wounds,
that you make in the heart,
thats been in pain so so long,
and I doubt if i can see this thro'.
It takes time, whatever time, to heal the scars,
when am sure it will not go any fader,
For, YOU, might be forgotten,
But the scars will remain FOREVER.
Even If I Try....
If I try to... not to call,
will you even dial my number...,
for at least once...dial,
to ask hows my day.
If I try to... not being around,
will you even miss a thing,
for my presence,
is more than a chore.
If I try to... not to ask,
will you even care to tell... at least tell,
for my mind will keep wondering,
cause' you are my concern.
If I try to... not to care,
will you even feel being neglected,
for... solitary...,
is what i can't bear.
If I try to... not to cheers,
will you even care to tell a joke,
for it brings the smile in me,
that will, hope brightens up the day.
If I try to... not get up from a fall,
will you even give me a helping hand,
for I'll be wishing, you do so,
cause' I know am only pretending.
If i try to... not to appear at your doorsteps,
will you even try to find me,
that I hope, you, one day will,
cause' i doubt if you know i exist.
If I try to... not to mind about you,
will you even try to mind about me,
for that nurtures a special bond,
embedded in the very heart of me.
Now... If i try to... not to Try AGAIN.... ,
will you ever know that I TRIED... ,
for if I DON't... ,
I try not to accept that I FAILED.
will you even dial my number...,
for at least once...dial,
to ask hows my day.
If I try to... not being around,
will you even miss a thing,
for my presence,
is more than a chore.
If I try to... not to ask,
will you even care to tell... at least tell,
for my mind will keep wondering,
cause' you are my concern.
If I try to... not to care,
will you even feel being neglected,
for... solitary...,
is what i can't bear.
If I try to... not to cheers,
will you even care to tell a joke,
for it brings the smile in me,
that will, hope brightens up the day.
If I try to... not get up from a fall,
will you even give me a helping hand,
for I'll be wishing, you do so,
cause' I know am only pretending.
If i try to... not to appear at your doorsteps,
will you even try to find me,
that I hope, you, one day will,
cause' i doubt if you know i exist.
If I try to... not to mind about you,
will you even try to mind about me,
for that nurtures a special bond,
embedded in the very heart of me.
Now... If i try to... not to Try AGAIN.... ,
will you ever know that I TRIED... ,
for if I DON't... ,
I try not to accept that I FAILED.
Thursday, March 18, 2010
I wonder how they do it,
I wonder how they made it that far,
Sometimes i just feel like "shut it",
Sometimes i feel like i cant get to you coz locked behind bars.
I always wonder what you're doing,
Of course i hope you're not always sleeping,
I wonder when will you for once agree with me,
Will you? C'mon let go joggin.
Ahhh! I need to keep my head straight,
Stupid thoughts kept jumping around,
I must be brave,
Even it happens,
I promise not to make a sound.
Like always ending with something my the heart,
Love you always,
Sacred heart.
I wonder how they made it that far,
Sometimes i just feel like "shut it",
Sometimes i feel like i cant get to you coz locked behind bars.
I always wonder what you're doing,
Of course i hope you're not always sleeping,
I wonder when will you for once agree with me,
Will you? C'mon let go joggin.
Ahhh! I need to keep my head straight,
Stupid thoughts kept jumping around,
I must be brave,
Even it happens,
I promise not to make a sound.
Like always ending with something my the heart,
Love you always,
Sacred heart.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Sometimes,
Thing are not meant for yours to be.
Sometimes,
They are just poses for you to see.
Sometimes,
You just have to believe.
Sometimes,
Things just won't change even after shouting out to the sea.
When you see this post,
I hope you don't feel lost,
Can you take that shot?
I'll can be your warmth by being your coat.
I thing that i only hope now,
Think of the times we had,
Not much,
But,
Smile~ :)
Thing are not meant for yours to be.
Sometimes,
They are just poses for you to see.
Sometimes,
You just have to believe.
Sometimes,
Things just won't change even after shouting out to the sea.
When you see this post,
I hope you don't feel lost,
Can you take that shot?
I'll can be your warmth by being your coat.
I thing that i only hope now,
Think of the times we had,
Not much,
But,
Smile~ :)
Motivation
想和你在一起的梦想，想和你在一起作为目标。
相信感觉，努力争取到的感情是幸福的，
被爱很幸福，但是爱一个不爱你的人很辛苦，
一个汉语拼音的不一样，却是一天一地之差。
我的一片心意，只希望得到你一丝的微笑。
我很努力，只希望得到你真心地看待。
我想了解，这样我才能够关心你。
我喜欢你，
不只是因为你的美，
你固执，
你懒惰，
很多很多，
我也许很多都不喜欢
返回来，
这些都被你的内在美遮起来了。
和你一起很自在，
你思想成熟，
你的笑容海阔天空，
还有很多不能用字来形容的。
我能等到最后吗？我能，但你在乎吗？
我能陪你到最后吗？我能，但你在意吗？
我能给你真心吗？一直都是，但你相信吗？
我能不顾自己的感受陪你度过你的难关吗？我能，但你愿意吗？
我能真心为你付出吗？我能，但你能一样的为我吗？
我能为你改变吗？我能，你看得到吗？
值不值得，由我自己决定。
我都做得到，但是，直到你忘记所有的那一天，这些都是训练自我的经历罢了。
你是我唯一的推动力。
相信感觉，努力争取到的感情是幸福的，
被爱很幸福，但是爱一个不爱你的人很辛苦，
一个汉语拼音的不一样，却是一天一地之差。
我的一片心意，只希望得到你一丝的微笑。
我很努力，只希望得到你真心地看待。
我想了解，这样我才能够关心你。
我喜欢你，
不只是因为你的美，
你固执，
你懒惰，
很多很多，
我也许很多都不喜欢
返回来，
这些都被你的内在美遮起来了。
和你一起很自在，
你思想成熟，
你的笑容海阔天空，
还有很多不能用字来形容的。
我能等到最后吗？我能，但你在乎吗？
我能陪你到最后吗？我能，但你在意吗？
我能给你真心吗？一直都是，但你相信吗？
我能不顾自己的感受陪你度过你的难关吗？我能，但你愿意吗？
我能真心为你付出吗？我能，但你能一样的为我吗？
我能为你改变吗？我能，你看得到吗？
值不值得，由我自己决定。
我都做得到，但是，直到你忘记所有的那一天，这些都是训练自我的经历罢了。
你是我唯一的推动力。
Monday, March 15, 2010
Blood Donation at Pujut Church
Sunday which was yesterday i went for my first ever Blood Donating. It was fun, exciting, nervous and of course never the less PAIN! As you look at some of the pictures above my face was like OMG OMG and ARGH I"M NERVOUS and so on. I'm RELI nervous. First i need to test my blood and you can look at one of the pictures showing the nurse trying to squeeze out my blood and using a tubamagic wadever it is to suck it in. First she drop it in a liquid and if it condense means it's healthy if it's float than Not pass. Then Stage 2 she put on 3 different solution and mine like no dots Means it O positive if got dots means is A or B or something i dono.. hahah.. It's cool. Then waiting for like half an hour for them to prepare all the stuff i need to SUCK and DONATE.
Then Then Then, Finally it's my turn. I sat on the chair which is quite comforting. It's like the ones our parents like to buy and lie on and watching TV till they sleep. FIrst he check my docs and see how much blood i'm capable of Donating. He then starting all the steps that we all see b4 they stick the needle into our veins. Then he injected something into my vein and my veins was like gonna burst and i was like AH! then he decreased the pressure to my hand so the blood won pop out. Then wait for few min then he injected the largest needle i've ever seen. And he was like just Sticking it in like what we do when we stick pole on the beach. Freakin scary but no pain la that one coz of the first injection.
My blood was like flowing freakin slow so he like increased more pressure. I think because i played River Flow before before that so my blood are relaxing flowing slowly.. =p Anyways it all ended in 10-15 mins and i successfully donated 450ml of blood. They say after u finish you will feel dizzy but i was still very energetic. I wonder why i cant donate more. I think 2 more packets will do.. Wahahhahaa... After that i went outside like the other successful people.. Lol.. successful people pula.. anyways... We were given satu biji telur, one cup of milo and packets of biscuits.
Had a chat with Jun Xian and i know lots from him. He told me bout the benefits of Blood Donation and i must say i raised both of my hand and legs if i have to just to agree and encourage everyone one of you ( READERS & FRIENDS) to participate in Blood Donating. As you all Know or May Not know which i Baru Know that Red Blood Cells "expire " after errrr... forgot how long and it just Dies in us. So! Why not Donate B4 they "Expire" and Save People? Our body can reproduce anyways, Why don help and save the ones that are reli in need of blood more than we do? Why keep the freakin dying cells inside? Besides, donating also increases the process of Blood Changing (something like that) So we also benefit from that. Its mutualism and once again i encourage you all to participate. It's beneficial for both parties. And you get to live in high class patient rooms if you donate up to the stated limits they give. I'm not saying hospital is a hotel or something, just that you can get better treatment and without worrying bout the fees.
So, ending here. See you guys Next time for the next blood donation? ahhaah.. Ciao~
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Appreciate
I am not alone,
I realized i am not the worst,
Sadness and sorrow reborn,
I've seen and felt bigger burst.
I looked in the mirror,
Putting my thought on others,
I took a step closer,
I felt more lucky compared with others.
I hereby declare my self guilty,
For all the sins i've done and thought,
This world for me had never been pretty,
Yea, that's what i thought.
I know someone is out there,
Trying to clear my name,
I thank my loved ones for their care,
For them i had my fame.
I will appreciate everything beneath and beyond my control,
I will appreciate what mine for now that i hold.
I will love my family frens and love one for they are much more precious,
Than Pure Gold.
I realized i am not the worst,
Sadness and sorrow reborn,
I've seen and felt bigger burst.
I looked in the mirror,
Putting my thought on others,
I took a step closer,
I felt more lucky compared with others.
I hereby declare my self guilty,
For all the sins i've done and thought,
This world for me had never been pretty,
Yea, that's what i thought.
I know someone is out there,
Trying to clear my name,
I thank my loved ones for their care,
For them i had my fame.
I will appreciate everything beneath and beyond my control,
I will appreciate what mine for now that i hold.
I will love my family frens and love one for they are much more precious,
Than Pure Gold.
Friday, March 12, 2010
My Promise
Love is something that you feel for beyond that pretty cover of a perfect figure. You can feel the warmth when both hearts joins shining brighter than the Moon itself in the Silent Night. I do wish to be with you now until the end, i must confess that i cant. But, i promise this to you that i will always till the end place my heart where it should be, that is beside you, waiting.
I gotta say the Mechanics lecturer is a joke itself. His funny accent and sudden craps are so funny and i kinda starting to like him. Well, People can change, soooo, All the best Mr Joshua, and of course me. Kill Mechanics, Material, Math 120, EFPC. Muahahahhaha~
Clear the voice inside my head,
The picure that i'm seeing,
I need to find you,
i gotta find you.
Pls be noted that this little paragraph has nothing to do with the study thingy above.
When can i, How can i get little of your attention just for once to have a start? I gues that chance is in the minority category.
Again pls be noted that, this short sentence here has nothing to do with the study thingy above. BUT! it is connected with the little paragraph.
Soo0000000oooooooooooooo0o0ooooooooo0o!
Good Nite and I Love you~ Always~
Clear the voice inside my head,
The picure that i'm seeing,
I need to find you,
i gotta find you.
Pls be noted that this little paragraph has nothing to do with the study thingy above.
When can i, How can i get little of your attention just for once to have a start? I gues that chance is in the minority category.
Again pls be noted that, this short sentence here has nothing to do with the study thingy above. BUT! it is connected with the little paragraph.
Soo0000000oooooooooooooo0o0ooooooooo0o!
Good Nite and I Love you~ Always~
Thursday, March 11, 2010
He who wears the crown decides what's next,
He who hold the sword will point the path,
I took the first step so i can lead you to the next,
I hope after this you can choose the right path.
I will be your shield,
I will defend against all odds,
We are now on the field,
Are you gonna stay with me till we reach the gods?
He who hold the sword will point the path,
I took the first step so i can lead you to the next,
I hope after this you can choose the right path.
I will be your shield,
I will defend against all odds,
We are now on the field,
Are you gonna stay with me till we reach the gods?
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
I gotta say today i had a bad day. I felt like helpless and powerless, It just wasn't my day. Questioned a lot by a dono good o not tutor in Mechanics tutorial class today. I nid an answer, I go to Uni, I pay to learn, Do i pay them to ask me back how much i know bout physics? answer for me, Speechless and sleepy when i see his face. Duhz! And today i have no idea why i feel so empty, and today i see Lots of crap and talk lots of them too.
Went home, wanna prepare for basketball practice but in the end notified than many din go so canceled. Kinda disappointed cause it's like 3 times a week only and it's the only time i can feel 2nd class freedom. 1st class is Piano-Ing. LOL! Then, wanna refill bottle then nap but i accidently spilt the remainding water on the dining table, WHAT A DOUCHEBAG! =p then after i suddenly felt bit hungry so i ate b4 i sleep. AND, i suddenly remembered i have to pick sis to tui in 5 mins =_=. So nid rearrange my plan again.
Then i felt like wanna blog so i am here now. Ending what i started. Owh ya! you guys, I'm not EMO though i write till so emo but i'm not. Just felt empty, May be just missing someone and her Texts. NO EMO month. HAPPY month.. hahaha.. RELI LA! i even Had J talk with Simon, Tze Jing, Siaw Ing, Siaw Yu( if thats how u spell it) hahah.. WTF LA siaw ing n Sis.. u know wad i'm talkin bout.. hahaha.. So big and Deep 0.0 ... i didn't did on purpose.. just Glanced~ But mine bigger la actually. Wahaakakaka..
Before i end, I gotta tell u bout the two retarted questions asked by some damn geniuses. First guy, one of our lecturer was presenting and giving us info on the bridge we suppose to design. He gave us enough info, the needs and don needs. He then gave us the width, height and length of the tunnel that our handmade vehicle should pass through. OKAY.. listen up.. the Size of the tunnel is given rite? and now here it comes.. before that you must know.. the vehicle is made with a Mousetrap provided.. OKAY NOW! the freakin question was " WHAT IS THE MINIMUM SIZE OF THE VEHICLE WE CAN BUILD? DOES IT MEAN WE CAN BUILD IT IN WHAT EVER SIZE? NO MATTER HOW SMALL IT IS?" i was like =_=.. what a douchebag! i looked at simon and i told him.. Wad kind of Freakin stupid question is that? How small kind of vehicle u wanna make out of a MOUSETRAP? if mousetraps are that small as you were havin in your mind.. how can mousetraps work with such little size?
Second Fag, Another lecture presented his part which we have to build a Vehicle. The slides and info he gave CLEARLY stated that its best the car to have great speed, easy to handle and be as LIGHT as POSSIBLE.. NOW.. the second douchebag asked this "WHAT IS THE MAXIMUM WEIGHT OF THE VEHICLE WE CAN BUILD?" wad kind of dumbass question is that? the lecturer already said as LIGHT as possible and yet he asked how HEAVY he can build it.. =_= SPPeeeeeEEechlEssssss~
Well... thats the J talk part and the other one i think i just keep to myself.. So.. gonna go nap now.. on to my napping plan.. i HOPE i don sleep till the sun comes up tmr.. ahhaha.. CAN someone kindly gimme a call and wake me around 10? i wanna study... Lol... kidding... hmmm.. acutally nid... just in case.. soooo... i'll stop bullshitting... NITEZ! sleep tight DICK KUAN! fill you emptiness now with your DREAMS!
PS: Once again i need to mentioned and emphasize on this... I'M NOT EMO TODAY! just EMPTY!
Went home, wanna prepare for basketball practice but in the end notified than many din go so canceled. Kinda disappointed cause it's like 3 times a week only and it's the only time i can feel 2nd class freedom. 1st class is Piano-Ing. LOL! Then, wanna refill bottle then nap but i accidently spilt the remainding water on the dining table, WHAT A DOUCHEBAG! =p then after i suddenly felt bit hungry so i ate b4 i sleep. AND, i suddenly remembered i have to pick sis to tui in 5 mins =_=. So nid rearrange my plan again.
Then i felt like wanna blog so i am here now. Ending what i started. Owh ya! you guys, I'm not EMO though i write till so emo but i'm not. Just felt empty, May be just missing someone and her Texts. NO EMO month. HAPPY month.. hahaha.. RELI LA! i even Had J talk with Simon, Tze Jing, Siaw Ing, Siaw Yu( if thats how u spell it) hahah.. WTF LA siaw ing n Sis.. u know wad i'm talkin bout.. hahaha.. So big and Deep 0.0 ... i didn't did on purpose.. just Glanced~ But mine bigger la actually. Wahaakakaka..
Before i end, I gotta tell u bout the two retarted questions asked by some damn geniuses. First guy, one of our lecturer was presenting and giving us info on the bridge we suppose to design. He gave us enough info, the needs and don needs. He then gave us the width, height and length of the tunnel that our handmade vehicle should pass through. OKAY.. listen up.. the Size of the tunnel is given rite? and now here it comes.. before that you must know.. the vehicle is made with a Mousetrap provided.. OKAY NOW! the freakin question was " WHAT IS THE MINIMUM SIZE OF THE VEHICLE WE CAN BUILD? DOES IT MEAN WE CAN BUILD IT IN WHAT EVER SIZE? NO MATTER HOW SMALL IT IS?" i was like =_=.. what a douchebag! i looked at simon and i told him.. Wad kind of Freakin stupid question is that? How small kind of vehicle u wanna make out of a MOUSETRAP? if mousetraps are that small as you were havin in your mind.. how can mousetraps work with such little size?
Second Fag, Another lecture presented his part which we have to build a Vehicle. The slides and info he gave CLEARLY stated that its best the car to have great speed, easy to handle and be as LIGHT as POSSIBLE.. NOW.. the second douchebag asked this "WHAT IS THE MAXIMUM WEIGHT OF THE VEHICLE WE CAN BUILD?" wad kind of dumbass question is that? the lecturer already said as LIGHT as possible and yet he asked how HEAVY he can build it.. =_= SPPeeeeeEEechlEssssss~
Well... thats the J talk part and the other one i think i just keep to myself.. So.. gonna go nap now.. on to my napping plan.. i HOPE i don sleep till the sun comes up tmr.. ahhaha.. CAN someone kindly gimme a call and wake me around 10? i wanna study... Lol... kidding... hmmm.. acutally nid... just in case.. soooo... i'll stop bullshitting... NITEZ! sleep tight DICK KUAN! fill you emptiness now with your DREAMS!
PS: Once again i need to mentioned and emphasize on this... I'M NOT EMO TODAY! just EMPTY!
Monday, March 8, 2010
River Flow in Me
After years of seperation from the music world that i was keen to be in from young, i'm now back in business dealing each and every note i use to sleep with. My come back truly changed me a lot , i must say. I used to tell people musics cures and heals your mind, but on the other hand me myself gave up on music. That which is reli damn lame. My mind is injured and i found myself a way out which is turning back.
I looked behind and saw the only memory that is not worth to be left behind, the music that i loved so much sitting alone in the corner. I feel freed, the joy, i feel the music. Now i know why people can feel so free when they start playing the piano. The Grand Piano is one of the most desired instruments in the world and i have one just outside my room. I couldn't resist the attractive melody, i started to play, started to feel each key and pedal. When you start playin, it's like your the only person in the house and you feel so free. Only melodies are goin through your ears.
Nowadays i more free and enjoyed more in life, though the homeworks are stressful but i can manage. I started to play some songs which i nvr thought i could manage to learn. Yes, i answer to some people ask why did i learn piano. Yes, for a girl and yet also for my own self which piano is once one of my fav hobby. Feel free to play, Feel the music.
Pressing down each black and white,
Just with a little might,
You can listen to the most beautiful melody,
Feels like a king leading a whole calvary.
Note by note,
From Black to White over and over again,
You might feel remote,
But it's paradise without vain.
The great God of music,
Once again i'm sitting in front of thee,
At then i was just a kid,
Listening to your voice makes me feel free
Warm up my cold hands,
I need you a lot,
You are such a brand,
You soothens my heart with each chord.
Feel the music in the air,
May be you're even better than she,
or NOT,
Forget all that's left not worth to share,
You are the music in Me.
Just with a little might,
You can listen to the most beautiful melody,
Feels like a king leading a whole calvary.
Note by note,
From Black to White over and over again,
You might feel remote,
But it's paradise without vain.
The great God of music,
Once again i'm sitting in front of thee,
At then i was just a kid,
Listening to your voice makes me feel free
Warm up my cold hands,
I need you a lot,
You are such a brand,
You soothens my heart with each chord.
Feel the music in the air,
May be you're even better than she,
or NOT,
Forget all that's left not worth to share,
You are the music in Me.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Upside Down
In the World.
I love you more,
But,
I hate you,
I want to know you more.
But,
I don't want to meet you,
I want to be with you forever.
But,
I don't want to see you,
When you see things in a different way and place your fullstop at the other end, the meaning of something might be the other way round. I promise to be happy this month and i am. So figure out this post yourself. I think there's not much problem.. GdNite~ Love you~ Always~
I love you more,
But,
I hate you,
I want to know you more.
But,
I don't want to meet you,
I want to be with you forever.
But,
I don't want to see you,
When you see things in a different way and place your fullstop at the other end, the meaning of something might be the other way round. I promise to be happy this month and i am. So figure out this post yourself. I think there's not much problem.. GdNite~ Love you~ Always~
Saturday, March 6, 2010
I made my promise,
I made my point,
I will not let you walk alone in the mist,
I'll find my way to you so we both join.
A friend in need is a friend indeed,
I will try my best to make you the most comfort shelter,
You are reli the only one indeed,
A man chasing two hares will catch neither.
There is no better argument than a proof,
The pen is mightier than a sword,
Someday i might be Santa coming in from the roof,
Just to make sure you won't be bored.
I made my point,
I will not let you walk alone in the mist,
I'll find my way to you so we both join.
A friend in need is a friend indeed,
I will try my best to make you the most comfort shelter,
You are reli the only one indeed,
A man chasing two hares will catch neither.
There is no better argument than a proof,
The pen is mightier than a sword,
Someday i might be Santa coming in from the roof,
Just to make sure you won't be bored.
In 3 i promised to be happy,
Though sometimes i do feel sad,
Now i feel like a wilted tree,
But i'm not gonna go mad.
I'll fulfill that promise,
I won't say damn i won't ask why,
I'll say thank you miss,
To me you conquered shy.
Now i will say,
Thank you for trusting me,
Thank you for letting me know more bout you,
Your happiness is what i keen,
Your place will always stay as my prettiest window view.
Though I'm not suit to fill that missing gap,
Though I'm not the one you wanna be with,
May be i still have to finish few more laps,
I thank god to let me have to chance
To one day we both may together see the prettiest view at the edge of the cliff.
I'll stay along with you till you overcome that little vestige,
Yes people do say i'm stupid to love a girl that doesn't love you,
Together we'll cross the forgotten broken bridge,
Till the end my heart will always leave a place for you.
Though sometimes i do feel sad,
Now i feel like a wilted tree,
But i'm not gonna go mad.
I'll fulfill that promise,
I won't say damn i won't ask why,
I'll say thank you miss,
To me you conquered shy.
Now i will say,
Thank you for trusting me,
Thank you for letting me know more bout you,
Your happiness is what i keen,
Your place will always stay as my prettiest window view.
Though I'm not suit to fill that missing gap,
Though I'm not the one you wanna be with,
May be i still have to finish few more laps,
I thank god to let me have to chance
To one day we both may together see the prettiest view at the edge of the cliff.
I'll stay along with you till you overcome that little vestige,
Yes people do say i'm stupid to love a girl that doesn't love you,
Together we'll cross the forgotten broken bridge,
Till the end my heart will always leave a place for you.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Was,
Begging to be loved,
Begging to be in love,
Begging to be surrounded by love.
Was,
Chasing away,
Running away,
Fading away.
Was,
Not brave enough,
Not sincere enough,
Not patient enough.
I'm now,
Committing,
Understanding,
Waiting.
I'm now,
More consistent than before,
More highly developed than before,
More independent than before.
Neither i can say i'm ready nor do you,
Either i'm gonna change myself or i wont suit you,
I held the old self in my very own palm,
I'll say bye to my old self with just a blow to let it live in calm.
I take my first step with,
My new attire,
New tone,
Different character.
Ready to Rumble,
Ready to strive,
So humble,
But inside me is as strong as Bee's protecting their Bee hive.
Yes one day i might be turned down,
Or may be i'll be crowned,
Stand up once again,
Again and again,
To U i'm bound.
Goodnight~ Love You~
Begging to be loved,
Begging to be in love,
Begging to be surrounded by love.
Was,
Chasing away,
Running away,
Fading away.
Was,
Not brave enough,
Not sincere enough,
Not patient enough.
I'm now,
Committing,
Understanding,
Waiting.
I'm now,
More consistent than before,
More highly developed than before,
More independent than before.
Neither i can say i'm ready nor do you,
Either i'm gonna change myself or i wont suit you,
I held the old self in my very own palm,
I'll say bye to my old self with just a blow to let it live in calm.
I take my first step with,
My new attire,
New tone,
Different character.
Ready to Rumble,
Ready to strive,
So humble,
But inside me is as strong as Bee's protecting their Bee hive.
Yes one day i might be turned down,
Or may be i'll be crowned,
Stand up once again,
Again and again,
To U i'm bound.
Goodnight~ Love You~
We are like StarZ
Bling Bling Bling,
You see anything else besides the bright Moon?
The Stars are blinking,
Look wider beyond the border of the Moon.
The Stars stayed low,
The Moon takes all the credit,
They are that humble becoz they know,
Just staring at the Moon is quite OUR habit.
Its a big world outside,
Fighting to be seen,
I guess its for time to decide,
No need to shout or scream.
Believe in patience,
As it is a Must indeed,
If you're that impatient,
I can only tell you that your full of greed.
Though we don't shine as bright as others,
Though we aren't being admired,
Being more than normal isn't goin to be better,
Just do what you desire.
Billions of Stars might one day out"Shine" the Moon,
It is gonna be a revolution that inspires,
But it's not gonna be the same without that Moon,
So again~just be who you are,
May be not as precious as gold,
But at least you can be a beautiful Saphire.
You see anything else besides the bright Moon?
The Stars are blinking,
Look wider beyond the border of the Moon.
The Stars stayed low,
The Moon takes all the credit,
They are that humble becoz they know,
Just staring at the Moon is quite OUR habit.
Its a big world outside,
Fighting to be seen,
I guess its for time to decide,
No need to shout or scream.
Believe in patience,
As it is a Must indeed,
If you're that impatient,
I can only tell you that your full of greed.
Though we don't shine as bright as others,
Though we aren't being admired,
Being more than normal isn't goin to be better,
Just do what you desire.
Billions of Stars might one day out"Shine" the Moon,
It is gonna be a revolution that inspires,
But it's not gonna be the same without that Moon,
So again~just be who you are,
May be not as precious as gold,
But at least you can be a beautiful Saphire.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Full Moon
A simple dark coloured sky,
Decorated with little shiny dots,
Along with the Moon that's hiding behind clouds,
Feeling Shy~
Tonight is a special night,
The Moon wants to give it a try,
Borrowing sunlight has no "No right",
The Moon glows for everyone tonight~
Feel proud to Glow,
Feel unashamed to Show,
Bravely stood out from the Hollow,
Hoping to do it again Tomorrow~
Full Moon,
Full of Love,
Full of Chemistry,
Full of Hope,
Full of Mystery.
I'm proud to call myself a poet,
This is how we make history.
Decorated with little shiny dots,
Along with the Moon that's hiding behind clouds,
Feeling Shy~
Tonight is a special night,
The Moon wants to give it a try,
Borrowing sunlight has no "No right",
The Moon glows for everyone tonight~
Feel proud to Glow,
Feel unashamed to Show,
Bravely stood out from the Hollow,
Hoping to do it again Tomorrow~
Full Moon,
Full of Love,
Full of Chemistry,
Full of Hope,
Full of Mystery.
I'm proud to call myself a poet,
This is how we make history.
Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Corinthians 3: 3 says: "And now abide faith, hope, love, these three; but the greatest of these is love
Cool fresh air,
New faces gathering here and there,
Wind blowing feel the new era,
I'm back in campus,
Lots of stories from frens all over the world,
Too much to share,
I cant bare.
Nice to meet all the new frens from last year again.. After a long holiday and now their back from their original places.. Saw Tariq and he kinda don have the new guy face anymore.. Saw Chek Hui and Shiau Hong ( my classmates this year).. RIShi! our Head of Debate last yeat ( a.k.a only..Not real) still the same giving us important info bout which classes are on and lecture we're goin to have.. Dependable guy.. BUT! degree we must work on our own along with our team of course.. excited! Good Luck to me and All the Curtinees!
Cool fresh air,
New faces gathering here and there,
Wind blowing feel the new era,
I'm back in campus,
Lots of stories from frens all over the world,
Too much to share,
I cant bare.
Nice to meet all the new frens from last year again.. After a long holiday and now their back from their original places.. Saw Tariq and he kinda don have the new guy face anymore.. Saw Chek Hui and Shiau Hong ( my classmates this year).. RIShi! our Head of Debate last yeat ( a.k.a only..Not real) still the same giving us important info bout which classes are on and lecture we're goin to have.. Dependable guy.. BUT! degree we must work on our own along with our team of course.. excited! Good Luck to me and All the Curtinees!
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